I Hate You

I Hate You

If you were to tell me that I would be an S class missing Nin and a member of Akatsuki seven years ago, I would have told you that you’re fucking insane. I didn’t plan on this nor did I want it. I was forced to join by the man I loathe the most Itachi Uchiha. The fucking asshole who acts like he’s better than everyone else.

I’m watching him right now though he’s not really there and the same as I. Only our shadowed images are in the small cave. I’m hanging upside down from the ceiling watching him. His eyes were closed when his shadowed image came in. A deep gruff laugh came from his partner Kisame Hoshigaki as he fizzled into sight. Itachi opened his eyes when Kisame started to talk. Those fucking eyes! They are the reason why I’m stuck here!

“The last time we all gathered like this, was seven years ago…when Orochimaru left the group.” Kisame’s humor filled voice and the sound of static entered the cave almost drowning out the sound of dripping water.

“That Orochimaru has gotten the Sharingan.” Zetsu reported. I listened quietly as Kisame spoke again.

“Itachi is it your little brother?” Itachi remained quiet at Kisame’s question. So I decided to speak up.

“Don’t worry, yeah. We’ll eventually kill Orochimaru, but we’ve only got three years left, can we all complete our missions? Eh?” I knew it was a jab at Itachi, I had already gotten one of my Jinchuuriki and need to get the last.

“That’s right. Our purpose…is to capture the Kyuubi and to get hold of everything.” Our leader spoke coolly. The rest of the meeting went by in a flash and I soon found myself looking out at the endless expanse of the desert. Suna had been Sasori’s home a long time ago.

“The Shukaku is heavily guarded.” Sasori spoke up in that fake deep voice of his. Only I knew what he really looked like inside that puppet. He looked like a kid a lot younger than me, but he’s a lot older than I am.

“All we have to do is wait, yeah, they’ll slip up some time.” I told him as held my kisa to keep it from blowing away in the fierce winds from Wind Country. My cloak would have gone too if I hadn’t been wearing it.

“We should head back to Fire Country and wait for a change in power.” Sasori spoke and I glanced over at him raising an eyebrow.

“Change in power, yeah?”

“Yes, when they have a change of power they will be more lax, it will be easier to infiltrate them.” I scratched my eyebrow and turned my head to look at the small speck on the horizon. That small spec was the large ninja village Suna.

“Whatever you say, yeah.”

“Brat.”


It was almost a year later, we were watching the comings and goings about Suna from an informant there, when I ran into Itachi and his partner. Akatsuki never meet outside of meetings, the odds for that are too great but when I saw him I wanted to choke him and that passive look he sent me. Here we were standing in a narrow hallway of a cheap hotel that asks no questions, and I was face to face with the object of my greatest hatred.

“Aren’t you supposed to be chasing the Kyuubi, yeah?” I ask him and he doesn’t move. He’s like a fucking statue, not moving, his skin as pale as marble and those fucking eyes.

“The Kyuubi brat has gone on some training mission with the Toad sage. He’d been near impossible to capture with the sage there.” I looked over at Kisame when he said that and raised an eyebrow. It was quiet as I stood in the hallway without my kisa and cloak. I crossed my arms and glared at Itachi who remained quiet until he passed me.

I sucked in a breath as the hot skin of his hand grazed my elbow. What the hell was that about? He must have noticed it too because he stopped for a second before continuing on to his room.

I was so confused, that little touch had sent electricity up my spine. I hate him, why would I get a physical reaction like that? I was still thinking about it as I reentered Sasori and my room.

I found myself looking out the window as the rain poured down in torrents outside. A flash of lightning illuminated my reflection on the glass. Sasori had gone to rendezvous with our informant so I was left alone in the hotel room.

I stood there for what seemed like hours, and I knew that was a possibility. I was so deep in thought that every time the lightning flashed my eyes would automatically trace where it had been. But my mind was elsewhere besides the storm outside.

Another flash of lightning illuminated two reflections and I nearly jumped. I hadn’t felt or heard him coming in. I turned around to give that Uchiha a piece of my mind when soft pale lips crashed against my own.

Itachi pushed me up against the windowsill and grabbed a fistful of my long blond hair. He ravished my mouth with that talented tongue of his using the leverage of his hold on me to do so. Then I felt his thigh press against my awakening arousal and my azure eyes snapped wide.

Oh fuck.

“Do you really hate me Deidara?” I growled lowly in my throat at that.

“What do you think, yeah?” I was fighting from moaning loudly when he started to nibble at my neck.

“I think you want this.” He ground our arousals together and a sharp gasp escaped my lips.

“Fuck, yeah.” he bit down hard on my neck and I shouted out in surprise. My hands found themselves fisted into his dark cloak.

“You’re not fighting very hard Deidara.” I growled and went to push him off but his tongue laved against the bit mark sending hot shocks down to my pulsing cock.

“Fuck you!” I found myself shoved roughly on the floor on my hands and knees with my pants and boxers around my knees. Oh shit. He laid his body over mind and whispered in my ear.

“No, I don’t think you understand Deidara, I’m about to fuck you.” then he proceeded to insert a finger into my ass. I tried to pull away but a strong hand on my hip stopped me from doing so.

“Let me go shithead.” I tried but that only caused him to chuckle. A second finger, coated in god knew what, entered me causing me to wince and bite my lip. I scored the floor with my nails leaving light trails.

My senses were going crazy fire and electricity shot through my nerves and it was hard to fight against him. I nearly whimpered when those fingers left but my breathing hitched when I realized what was about to happen.

“Fuck!” I screamed out in pain as he entered me none too gently. He pushed in until he was fully seated and thankfully waited for me to adjust. I was shaking with the pain; I could feel the light sheen of sweat on both of us.

My knees hurt and I hissed when I tried to move to alleviate some of the pain. Soon that pain turned into that fire and sparks I felt before and I was breathing heavily again.

I could feel him throbbing inside of me and when I shifted his arousal brushed against that small bundle of nerves inside of me causing my vision to flash white.

When my vision returned I could see deeper score marks in the floor from my nails. He wasted no time then and started pounding ruthlessly into me. I could feel our radiated heat in the slightly cooler room.

I barely had time to think as he kept hitting that spot inside me. I know I was moaning and making guttural noises but I couldn’t have given a damn right about then. I was meeting his thrusts pulling some moans from him as well.

I was getting so close to my release he grabbed my hair like reigns causing my back to arch and for him to reach deeper and harder inside of me. He released my hair a moment later and grabbed my shoulder instead.

My orgasm snuck up on me and I came so hard that everything went black. I woke up a few minutes later sitting in his lap as he sat against the headboard of the bed. He had stripped me of my shirt and he was completely naked. My seal was completely visible and he was tracing the marks with the tip of his finger.

I was two steps from a breakdown and I started to hyperventilate. Nobody was supposed to see that mark, not even Sasori had seen it. It was something my clan had been proud of, and it had been their downfall.

He wrapped his arms around my waist and whispered things into my ear. But I couldn’t understand what he was saying I was too far gone. He ran a hand down my chest in a soothing motion.

“…nothing to be ashamed of.” I caught the tail end of one of his whispers as I started to calm down in his embrace.

“What would you know, yeah.” I spoke flatly without emotion as I looked at the ceiling.

“All Clans have their vices Deidara, yours just happens to be visible.” I turned to look at him and my eyes widened when I saw that he had his Sharingan turned off. Dark bottomless onyx orbs stared down at me.

“You should go…Sasori will be back soon, yeah.” I spoke lowly as I turned my head around and stared at my hands.

“Sasori is rooming with Kisame tonight.” I felt my cheeks burn in a bright blush.

“Are you trying to get rid of me?” I choked and turned around to face him, straddling his hips.

“Did the great and mighty Uchiha Itachi just crack a joke, yeah?” He was smirking and the look he was giving me made it hard to hate him anymore. When his lips coaxed mine gently into a searing kiss I knew it was impossible to hate him.

If you were to tell me that I would fall in love with my eternal hatred two years ago, I would have told you that you’re fucking insane…and probably tried to kill you for it too.

You know what they say, there’s a fine line between love and hate.