Tell Me Why

Tell Me Why


It was raining something fierce when I walked out of my apartment door. I closed my eyes, tilted my head and let the rain wash away my troubles. I knew I couldn’t stay out here long. It was winter and rain during the winter was bad for giving people colds. I didn’t care though the cold rain felt good on my face and bare arms. I was wearing my favorite t shirt that my brother had gotten for me for my eighteenth birthday.

I’ll never forget that day because it was then I realized that I was in love with my brother. I know most people see it as wrong, and incest is illegal in some states but I didn’t care. I still don’t. He would be the only one for me. I already knew I was gay, I found that out at the age of fourteen when I began lusting after my best friend. My brother though, that was something else besides teenage hormones. I really, in all honesty, love him and I kept it all to myself because it was my burden to carry.

My brother wasn’t stupid and somehow I think he knew all along. My nineteenth birthday came with no presents, no well wishes…my parents had long since been dead. I was five at the time and don’t remember anything, all I remember is growing up with my father’s best friend and his wife.

Minato and Kushina were two peas in a pod, they loved each other and their son who was around my age. His name was Naruto and we always were fighting. Our Rivalry turned into friendship a few short years after Naruto’s parents died in a car crash when he was fifteen.

I opened my eyes and stared up at the dark clouds. They mirrored my heart right now because I was turning twenty one in a few months and I knew my brother wasn’t going to see me. It hurt, a lot. I loved my brother and it was all my fault that he cut his ties with me. If he saw me now he would probably look at me with those blank stares of his and walk on passed like he didn’t even know me at all.

“You’re going to catch a cold if you stay out much longer.” My eyes snapped down to the image of my brother in front of me. I was shocked but didn’t show it, Uchihas never show emotions. He was wearing a white button up shirt and dark slacks, his long raven colored locks so like my own tied in a neat low ponytail at the nape of his neck.

I couldn’t say anything though, what would I say if I could? ‘I’m sorry for falling in love with you’? No I wasn’t sorry for that. I had long since dealt with what being in love with my brother meant. I decided that I should say something, anything to keep him from walking away.

“Aniki…” He didn’t move. It looked like he was a marble statue or a figment of my imagination. I tightened my fists in my black jeans pocket.

“I’m sorry.” That surprised me greatly. Itachi Uchiha never apologized. He was never wrong, he was always right.

“I know I haven’t been the best brother to you Sasuke. I just needed time to think…”

“It took you three fucking years to think?” I was angry now and he knew it, a small frown worked its way on his face. I wasn’t going to let him apologize because I was afraid that if I forgave him for abandoning me than…why was I afraid? I calmed down and glared off to the side ignoring him for the moment.

“You are still angry.” It was a statement not a question and I decided to answer instead of ignoring him.

“What the fuck do you think aniki? You walked away from me for three fucking years and didn’t say a fucking thing. Do you know what its like to be abandoned like that?” I saw the fury burn in those dark bottomless orbs, he was angry with me now and I didn’t give a shit.

“This thing between us Sasuke, whatever it is it’s not normal. Do you know how many times I wanted to return those looks you gave me when you thought I didn’t notice?” Itachi growled lowly. My brother never raised his voice, but with the way it sounded he was very close to doing so right now. I narrowed my eyes at him but inside I was shocked.

“Then why didn’t you?” I knew I should have kept my mouth shut because he was in my face right now. But I wasn’t about to back down. This argument was a long time in coming.

“What you want is forbidden Sasuke. It’s wrong.” I snarled at him for those words.

“Wrong? Who says it’s wrong Itachi? Who?! Give me one fucking name!” I shouted at him in anger. He sighed pinching the bridge of his nose and stepping back.

“I know you don’t believe in god, so he’s out, and I also know you don’t give a fuck what society says, so that’s out. Now Itachi, why do you think it’s wrong?” He was silent after that he knew I had a good argument and was not going to win this one. There was no way in hell I was going to let him win this one.

“I know you want it too Itachi.” I said in calm voice a minute later. He shifted then looking up at the sky in deep thought. He was facing away from me but not completely. It grew quiet and I could almost hear the gears rotating in his head. The only sound that filled the silence was that of the rain hitting the concrete pavement of the sidewalk and the steps that led to my apartment.

“This wasn’t what I was planning for when I came here.” My only reply to that was a soft grunt.

“What were you planning aniki?” I spoke up when he refused to speak further.

“I don’t know.” This all was new to me. This was a side of my brother I had never seen. Gone was the prodigy genius that I knew was my brother that I had idolized for so many years. In front of me stood a man, a man that I had grown up with, stripped bare and human. Now that everything was gone, the anger, the doubt, the fight, the cold of the rain started to seep through my soaked clothes reminding me where I was. I tried to hide the sniffle but I saw those onyx eyes turning on me.

“We better get inside.” Itachi said as he watched me for a moment. I nodded and discreetly rubbed my nose with my hand as I turned to open my apparent door. I had been going out to hang with Naruto and his boyfriend Gaara but now all that was gone with the arrival of my brother. We didn’t say anything as we walked inside and into my small kitchen. He sat down at my island bar and I went to making tea.

“You can take a shower if you want, you can barrow anything you want from my closet we’re the same size.” I told him with my back turned to him. I heard him grunt in reply and his footsteps as he disappeared around the corner. I let out a shaky breath that I hadn’t known I’d been holding and sturdied myself against my stove. I let out a small sneeze and rubbed my nose with the back of my hand. I stood there deep in thought about what would happen now.

Would we remain brothers or will something more happen? I wanted to know but I was almost too afraid to ask. I was so deep in thought that I didn’t hear his approach and only when his arms wrapped around my waist and his nose burry itself into my neck did I know he was there.

“I think you should take a shower with me, you’ve always been more susceptible to the cold than I.” he spoke in a husky voice against my skin. My heart was slamming in my ribcage at those words. I know I was breathing hard now and blood was rushing both north and south. Damn my pale skin! I could light up a street corner with my blush.

I found him pulling me down the hallway and into my bathroom. I barely had time to protest as those slender hands removed my shirt. Gooseflesh rose on my skin and I wrapped my arms around my torso to fight the cold that was seeping into me.

He pulled my pants and boxers down and I stepped out of them only to get pushed inside the shower and under the warm spray. The growl that was in my throat turned into a moan as the water from the showerhead poured over my frozen body warming me up. I moved my face under the spray and ran both hands through my hair removing the cold rain from my hair. Strong slender arms wrapped around my waist as pale lips and sharp teeth nipped and kissed the soft skin of my neck.

“Itachi…” I felt one of his hands rise up to my nipples, pinching them before trailing a sensual course down my toned abs and to my hardening member. I groaned in pleasure as I pressed against him using my hands to keep me from falling forward in the shower.

His other hand moved up to my mouth and I pulled his fore and middle finger into my mouth. I knew what he wanted and to tell the truth I wanted it too. Just the thought of what he wanted sent chills down my spine and made my cock twitch in his hand. I found myself spun around in an instant and his hot breath at my neck. Those sinful lips and teeth made their way up my jaw where they commanded a soul searing kiss. I placed my hands on Itachi’s chest and moaned lowly in my throat when he deepened the kiss.

Itachi pulled away from me then started placing kisses on my jaw, neck, breast bone and solar plexus. I was shivering but not from the cold this time. His teeth and tongue were setting my whole body aflame with his actions. Then suddenly out of no where my conscious kicks in.

“‘Tachi…stop we should wait…” I felt him stop at that and sigh against my abs.

“Do you really want to?” He asked. The vibrations from his deep voice on my skin sent me into gooseflesh. My sneeze ended whatever protest he was about to make and he turned the water off.

“Go get dressed.” Was his not so gentle command. I sighed this was not going like I had imagined it to.

“It’s not that I don’t want you aniki…”

“We’ll talk about this after you get dressed.” And he left no room for argument as he stalked out of the bathroom.

An hour later I lay in bed staring at the Ceiling while Itachi did god knows what in the kitchen. That talk never happened. He just slipped some of my clothes on and went into the kitchen. I was wearing a pair of grey sweatpants and a white t shirt. I growled lowly in my throat, I had enough of his hiding from me. I grabbed a black cotton hoodie and pulled it on. It had gotten chilly in my apartment and I knew it was from my cold. I was going to storm over to him and give him a piece of my mind but I saw him on his cell phone. I heard the dryer running as well. A quick check in the bathroom told me that he had thrown them in there. How sweet of him…note the sarcasm.

“Deidara it’s not like that.” I heard Itachi growl into his phone. I made my way back down the hall and listened in. yeah I know eavesdropping is bad but I couldn’t help it, Itachi sounded so pissed.

“I don’t think so. I don’t care who’s there I’m not coming over.” I peered around the corner to see Itachi leaning against my countertop his back facing me.

“No, I fucked everything up with him once and I’m not about to do it again.” Wow I had never heard my brother cuss. It was kind of arousing. I almost jumped when Itachi turned to face me.

“He wants to talk to you. I don’t know if I should let him or not.” I glared at him and walked the few steps between us and took the phone from his outstretched hand.

“This is Sasuke.” I spoke into my brother’s iPhone.

“Well well you don’t sound sick, it’s finally nice to talk to you, yeah. You’re brother’s said a lot of nice things about you over the years.” I growled lowly in my throat at that.

“What do you want.” I deadpanned disdainfully.

“You’re an Uchiha alright, yeah. You see Itachi needs to come in to work because if he don’t Pein’s gonna fire him.” oh really? I turned and glared hard at my brother and all I got in return for that was a rising of one of his eyebrows.

“I’m not sick!” I growled to both my brother and this Deidara person with a weird speech quirk. Though sneezing a second after saying that caused me to contradict myself. I heard the man on the other end of the phone mumble under his breath and I received a glare from my brother. I raised an eyebrow as if saying ‘What?’.

“Pein’s not gonna like this, yeah. Give the phone back to Itachi.” I growled lowly in my throat at that but did as I was told. The glare I sent my brother told him that I would kill this Deidara person if I ever saw him.

“Yes he’s glaring at me. I’ll call you tomorrow to inform you of the situation.” And with that he hit the end button on his iPhone.

“Bed.” I glared hard at him. I wasn’t about to move because that talk need to happen and it needed to happen now.

“No, I want you to know-”

“It’s alright Sasuke. I’m not mad at you.” He cut me off! Damn him! I wasn’t about to let this slide.

“The hell you’re not!” I growl at him he wasn’t fooling me one bit.

“No I’m not mad at you, I’m mad at myself for letting you get sick.” He had moved closer to me as he said that and now he was caressing my cheek with his hand. Once again I found myself shocked by my brother’s words and actions and this time I couldn’t stop my jaw from dropping. He chuckled gently at that and picked me up and threw me over his shoulder.

“Damn it Itachi put me down!” I protested. He only chuckled louder at that. I was fuming when he dropped me down on the bed and stripped me of my hoodie. I found it odd that he was taking more clothes off me than I was putting on.

I growled at him lowly in my throat and it quickly turned to a high pitched squeak when he pulled me against his chest and pulled the covers over both of us. I brooded for a minute a little bit miffled by his actions and words tonight. Could it really be alright like this? When he pulled me closer and kissed the nape of my neck I smiled softly.

Yeah it really was alright.