What I've Done

Author’s notes: THERE ARE MAJOR MANGA SPOILERS IN THIS FIC, DON’T READ IF YOU DON’T WANT TO BE SPOILD. You have been warned.


What I’ve Done

To simply say it was raining would put shame to the skies. It was a downpour and I slowly lifted my face to the gods. My crimson and black eyes searched for something, anything that there was a god up there but they found nothing. Rain trickled down my face mixing with the tears I was trying to hide.

In this farewell...

I wasn’t crying because Kisame had told me my brother was dead. No I knew Sasuke was alive. He was too stubborn to die. No I was crying because my very soul was screaming in agony. I had done things I shouldn’t have…made too many mistakes because I was backed into a corner and to top it off I was dying.

There’s no blood…There’s no alibi.

I had hurt the only thing that I cared about the most. I hurt my little brother. It’s for his own good I keep telling myself…but I know even in that it still hurts. I wish I had never been born of such a prestigious clan…that Sasuke and I had been born normal brothers. Kami, I’ve decided, likes to see us in pain.

‘Cause I’ve drawn regret
From the truth of a thousand lies.

I steel myself as not to completely break down. No, I hadn’t done that since I killed my lover, mother, and father. One day Sasuke, you will look back on the days that we were together and see me for who I truly am, because I will have to lie to you to unleash your true potential.

So let mercy come,
And wash away…

What I’ve Done

“Let’s go.”

Here we are at our final stage. I have carefully chosen the words I am to speak to you because if I hadn’t thought them out before hand…I would have forgotten about letting you fight me. I want to hold you so bad but it can’t be. This is how I, not god, have set out your destiny for you. Your final gift from me will be eyes like mine.

I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.

“You Sasuke will become my new light!!”

I see your shock and disbelief as I feed you lies. My heart aches knowing that in my final moments you will think me a monster. It is necessary. I would rather die a traitor and a murderer than to loose you. I loved you more than my village. I wish I was able to hold you at least once…to kiss those soft lips of yours…you’ve grown so much.

Put to rest,
What you thought of me.

The fight has broken onto the roof and I sense that you are nearing the end of your chakra reserves. Please don’t die on me Sasuke, I can’t go easy on you. You are a genius in your own right and will see right through my plot.

While I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty.

I watch you as you use the technique that you have been perfecting for me. I feel like crying. My sickness is eating away at my senses making me weak but I summon my last technique just in time. I don’t want to die so soon in the battle…I have yet to say goodbye.

So let mercy come,
And wash away…

My jutsu enrages you, you have always been the more emotional Uchiha. It triggers that cursed seal on your neck. A dozen white snakes sprout from the seal as your low chakra released the sealed Orochimaru. I use my technique to silence the snake forever. He and the curse seal will never plague you again. My last gift otouto. I cough up blood and stagger towards you.

What I’ve Done.
I’ll face myself,
To cross out what I’ve become.
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done.

My bloody fingers poke the tender flesh of your forehead for the last time and I smile wholeheartedly.

“Sorry Sasuke…this is the last time.”

I start again,
And whatever pain may come.
Today this ends,
I’m forgiving what I’ve done