Letter

Naruto:

'Never gone, never far, I'll keep you in my heart.' I'll never forget the words we spoke, the promises we shared. I'll never forget how it felt to hold you. To wrap my childish arms around you and know that you belonged to me.

It's my fault we've parted, and I accept that. But that doesn't make my own pain any easier. I broke us up, I separated us, and I sent each of us on our own way. I didn't want the pain of bonds. And your bond is the most painful of all.

I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want to be hurt. I was afraid of what it would mean to be with you like that. Mother and father were happy, and I wanted that happiness too. But Itachi ruined that for me. How can I search for happiness w if it will always be tainted by Itachi?

And you. You deserve better than anything I could give you. Our little games did wonders for me, but I can't give you the happiness you deserve. I can't be the lover you need, the lover you require. And I know that and I accept that, and that's why I left the village and why I left you.

Perhaps, if I'm stronger, I can find the very thing that I need so that I can stand with you.

'This is the last night you'll spend alone.' How I want to tell you those words today, but I can't. I wish I could have taken you with me, but I guess it would defeat the purpose of trying to become stronger. I can't get that in the village, I can't find it among these people, these pacifists. It's impossible. I'm not as good as you are.

One day, Naruto. One day, I will wrap my arms around you again. I will hold you tight and I will make love to you, as a man. It won't be any of the childish groping you and I shared, I'll embrace you completely. And the day I do, I will give myself to you, completely.

When it's you and I again, when we stand together as men, I'll come to you and I'll tell you everything I've done, everything I've seen, and I'll have you help me move past everything. To help me forget what I do in the name of power. That I am selfish and arrogant and need to do these things.

When finally that time comes, please just hold me. Just take me in your arms and make sure I understand that you'll be there for me. Because that is what you swore to me. You promised you would always be beside me, that you would never abandon me. So even though I hurt you, I hope you don't hold it against me.

I want to be happy like we were. We used to be happy, didn't we? But I got scared by it. Because of my fear, we were separated. But one day, soon, we will be happy again. I know we will be. Because you deserve happiness and I know you'll get it. And I hope you'll take me into your happiness when we're together again.

I want to be happy like we were. That's what I hope for while we're apart. I know you need happiness. You had a hard childhood, you need the good things in life. Even though I hurt you by moving so far away from you, even though I caused you so much pain, I want you to be happy still. I want you to grow and laugh and love. And I want you to know just how much I love you. In the future, we'll be happy too.

Show me love when I see you again. I've never really learned what love means, and somehow you've figured it out first. I don't want love right now, at this moment, but I want you to show me love one day.

You, who always smiled. You, who knew how to make me laugh You were the one thing that always calmed me down, even when you excited me. You gave me peace, and I can't have that yet. I have to have my rage, my anger, and my obsession. But you, Naruto. You make my resolve crumble. You make me want to stay by your side and just hope. But I can't do that. Itachi is far too powerful for me to defeat with anything I'll learn here. I need the dark arts that Orochimaru is going to teach me. I need to know how to kill my brother.

But when I'm done, let me stand by you. Let me take my place at your side and forgive me and promise me that you'll show me how to love.

I love you Naruto. No matter what I've done or who I've hurt. You can never forget that I love you. I loved you first and I'll always love you. And if you'll have me one Itachi's dead, I'll stay pure and wait for you.

I love you Naruto, even if I could never say it out loud, even if I could never share it with anyone. My feelings for Itachi consumed me. Itachi ruined me. But one day, I swear that I'll come back to you. And when we're together again, I'll tell you I love you. I'll tell you everything I could never say before.

Tell me over and over that you need me, that you'll love me and need me and don't forget that I'm here. Don't forget me and don't leave me and wait for me. Wait patiently and hold onto the hope that I'll be to your arms, back to you. Because I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you.

Uchiha Sasuke