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Fear
Title: Fear
Author: Sasu (Sasu-Xin)
Warnings: Child abuse, sexual abuse, shota, dark, angst
Summary: Sasuke’s fears run way deeper than an eleven year old should have to face.
Note: I DO NOT CONDONE CHILD ABUSE OR MOLESTATION; PLEASE DO NOT THINK THAT I DO IN ANY WAY!
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Fear
It gripped Sasuke more times than not in the past few months, he was only eleven and he had never felt so much fear in his life. It usually came on strong once he went to bed, knowing what might happen later.
Just thinking about it made the little boy shake under his warm covers. He wouldn’t have been so frightened if his brother was there; Itachi usually being able to stop the actions. This time… Sasuke had no choice but to endure.
His parents were divorced, his Mother having left over a year ago, leaving the two brothers, Itachi and Sasuke, with their father. Needless to say, it was the worst decision their mother had ever made.
The man was not meant to be a father. He was uncaring, hurtful, abusive… He had been abusive to their mother as well, which was why she ran… Sasuke couldn’t really blame her for that, but he resented her so much for leaving her sons in the situation they now had to face; being alone with their father.
Sasuke noticed that Itachi became very distant after their mother left, but was forced to take care of Sasuke; their father leaving the house for hours at a time, forcing the fifteen year old to take care of his younger sibling. Sasuke was on his best behavior for his brother though, knowing that Itachi would get in trouble if anything were to happen. But Itachi started finding excuses not to stay at home. He would usually go to his friend’s house and sleep over a lot, meaning Sasuke would have to sleep alone, without the protection of his nii-san.
Sasuke rolled over onto his back, kicking off the covers a bit. It was getting a bit warmer due to summer starting to show. The little raven thought about the first time Itachi had gotten ‘in trouble’ with their father, it was really hard to think about but it always came to the surface of his mind.
Their father had recruited Itachi to help him build something out in the yard. Really having no choice, Itachi had stopped his progress on his homework and headed outside. Sasuke didn’t really pay any attention to this, since Itachi did things like that all the time with their dad. It wasn’t until the younger raven heard a sharp yell come from the backyard did the little boy run out to see what had happened.
Upon entering the tool shed, it appeared as if his older brother had dropped something extremely heavy on his foot. The teen was on the ground holding said foot and desperately trying not to let the tears escape his eyes. His older brother never was very good with pain.
What happened next would forever stay in Sasuke’s memory. Their father turned to his oldest son and sneered at his whimpers of pain. “What are you complaining about?” he jeered, “This barely weighs anything.” He indicated the bag by picking it up and dropping it on Itachi’s foot once more.
Itachi gritted his teeth but couldn’t stop the few tears that had escaped. “Crying now?” their father asked, and then laughed before bringing his own heavy shoe down on his oldest son’s most likely broken foot. This time Itachi screamed in pain, quickly crawling out of the tool-shed and into the house as fast as he could.
Sasuke’s tears had fallen freely then, seeing such a thing happen to the one who always would protect him. Seeing his brother get hurt like that on purpose was something that Sasuke would never forget.
Itachi was taken to the hospital, a fictitious story made up about how he had broken his foot so severely. No one suspected a thing; typical.
Sasuke sighed as he kicked his blankets off all the way. It really was getting warm. Maybe his father turned the heater on, or maybe he was getting sick. It wasn’t unusual; he had been getting sick a lot the past couple weeks. He figured it was mostly due to stress… but he made sure to go to school whether he was sick or not. He had no desire to stay home.
The raven jumped when he heard a noise outside in the hall but relaxed when the door to the bathroom closed. He was on edge most of the time when he was in his father’s presence, never knowing what the man would do. It wasn’t unusual for his father to snap for no reason.
Sasuke tensed up again when the bathroom door was heard again and then he heard his doorknob being turned. The raven hoped it wouldn’t happen tonight, sometimes his father was too tired, but he wasn’t always that lucky. He quickly pulled his blanket back onto his bed and curled up under it despite the heat and pretended he was asleep. He knew of curse that it wouldn’t deter his father; the man would just ‘wake him up’ anyway.
Sasuke heard footsteps enter his room and curled up tighter, pushing himself against the wall next to his bed. He could hear them get closer and finally felt a dip in his bed as his father sat down upon it. The raven began to shake minutely not wanting to accept what would happen next, it always did.
The little Uchiha tensed up when he felt a touch on his back, then the covers were being pulled away to reveal his father’s dark figure. He couldn’t see the man’s features due to it being dark in his room, but Sasuke really didn’t mind that. He felt the same hand caress his cheek before sliding down his neck and down his chest where the boy curled up more.
The upside to all this, Sasuke thought, was that he was never penetrated. He knew that his father wasn’t gay and he also knew that his father saw male/male relationships as disgusting. No, his father was not gay, but the reason he did what he did to Sasuke and Itachi, was to demonstrate his control over them, to show them that he could do whatever he wanted to them and there was nothing they could do.
He heard his father chuckle darkly and pulled the blanket off of Sasuke in one swift motion. “Come on, you know it won’t hurt…” he heard his father whisper as his shirt was lifted up. “Be a good boy.”
Sasuke tried not to whimper as he relaxed his tensed position and lay himself on his back before sitting up to allow the older man to pull his shirt over his head. He knew his boxers would be next and so skipped the formalities and just slid them off himself. He just wanted it to be over with quickly so he could go back to sleep.
“Don’t be afraid.” Sasuke heard is father say as his hand continued to move over his now revealed flesh. “It’s something that has to be done… I’ve already told you. My Father did this to me… and now it’s your turn.”
The little raven just nodded and tried to suppress his shivers as his father’s hand crept closer to his most private area. He had the urge to cover himself and had the decency to blush, although he knew it wouldn’t be seen in the dark. His father didn’t touch him there however and instead took his hand away.
Sasuke didn’t breathe a sigh of relief just yet, knowing what was next. He heard his father chuckle again and looked in the direction of the voice, faintly seeing the man’s grinning face. “This is my favorite part.” he heard, just like he did every night. His father believed in routine and this was part of it, part of his routine of control. Even the things the man said were part of the routine that he would never break and Sasuke then realized that as long as he lived there… it would never stop.
The small boy heard the man’s pants being undone and forced himself not to look away, knowing he would get in trouble if he did, and saw his father take out his rather large penis. Sasuke wasn’t knew to sexual notions, his father having made him watch porn on TV and look at it on the internet at a young age made certain of that. He knew more than an eleven year old should know about sex and yet he was terrified of it. He couldn't imagine ever wanting sex in the future. Nevertheless, he had to look at his father while the man masturbated over him. It was the longest two minutes of his life and it became even worse when his father told him to touch himself.
Sasuke hesitated for a moment then quickly grabbed his flaccid penis after receiving a slap to the face for being too slow. He began to stroke himself, copying what he saw on TV and on the internet and doing what he knew felt good. He also thought about things that would make him hard, not many things did that; although he did noticed that for some odd reason whenever he thought about his brother, his penis would stir a bit. It was odd but he knew that it was probably because Itachi provoked the good feelings within him by being his protector most of the time.
Sasuke was silent as his penis grew in size but he was still not enjoying himself. He felt pleasure, no doubt, but he didn’t feel happy about it. It really just defeated the purpose. He did whimper though when he felt his hand being pushed away only to be replaced by his father’s. The man was rough and it hurt Sasuke a lot, his father squeezing a bit too hard and going a bit too fast. But despite the negative stimulation, his fresh new hormones allowed him to ejaculate quickly which he was grateful for.
The small raven heard a grunt above him and then felt the tell tale warmness on his abdomen, knowing his father had finally reached his climax. Sasuke closed his eyes then, knowing he didn’t have to look anymore and shook a bit as he felt lips press against his own before a rustle of clothing and the door closing with a soft click.
Sasuke lay there for a moment just trying his hardest to stop shaking. There was no way he could stay in that bedroom any longer. He had to get out. Forcing himself to sit up, he frantically wiped the cum off his stomach and got dressed as fast as he could. He was terrified, his father came back for a second round on most nights and he couldn’t live through another one that night. The boy didn’t bother packing anything, he knew where he wanted to go and knew how to get there too; luckily Kisame’s house wasn’t too far.
Climbing out the window, Sasuke quietly landed on the dirt of their backyard, luckily they had a one story house so it was easy to sneak out. He slipped under the chain link fence without any problem and ran as fast as he could, trying to keep the tears firmly in place, at least until he was at his destination.
Out of breath, Sasuke climbed up the side of the house he had come to and quietly knocked on the window he was perched in front of. He hoped they weren’t fucking, that’s the last thing he needed to see right then. He sighed in relief as his brother’s face was revealed to him through the window and the boy jumped into the older boy’s arms once the window was finally opened, tears finally making their escape.
He felt his brother’s arms wrap around him, he knew that Itachi knew what happened. “I’m sorry Sasuke; I shouldn’t have stayed over here, but...” Sasuke felt the arms tighten a bit.
“I know…” Sasuke whispered quietly. “But it’s really hard to deal with it when you’re not there… I get so scared Nii-chan.” The boy faintly heard the bedroom door close, and relaxed a bit more knowing that Kisame, Itachi’s boyfriend, had left the room.
“I know it’s scary and it shouldn’t be happening at all. I promise Sasuke, I’ll think of something.”
“Why can’t you think of something now?” Sasuke asked in a desperate plea, tears streaming faster down his cheeks. “I hate it, I hate HIM!”
Sasuke felt Itachi stroke his hair but that wouldn’t help this time, the boy was too upset. “There’s nothing I can do right now Sasuke... I’m only fifteen, no one will believe us; we’re too young. Plus, even if we did do something, there’s no one to take care of us. I would take care of you, but I wouldn’t be able to afford it.” Sasuke sniffed and calmed down a little bit. His brother always knew how to explain things.
“But, do we have to go back there? I don’t want to go back.” Sasuke buried his head in his brother’s neck, never wanting to be parted from the older boy.
“Yes… I’m sorry baby, we have too… But I promise I’ll do something. I’ll be there more ok?” Sasuke felt himself nodding but at the same time hated himself for doing so. If his brother was there more, he would be protected, but then Itachi would be getting the brunt of the abuse… Sasuke clung to Itachi a bit tighter, feeling torn and not knowing what he should be feeling. “I love you Nii-chan.” In the end, that’s all he could really say.
He felt the older boy lead him to the bed and curled up with him under the covers, stroking his hair and kissing his cheek gently. “I love you too Sasuke.”
It was hard for the boy to fall asleep. But it didn’t take long, knowing that his brother was there with him, protecting him. But despite that, Sasuke still couldn’t help the fear that gripped him, knowing that tomorrow; he’d have to go back to that fear, to that hell….
To HIM
The End
… Yeah I know. Not usually something I would write. But I’ve been needing to get feelings out lately and well… yeah. So… I know it wasn’t a very happy ending… but comment anyway? XD
~Sasu
Author: Sasu (Sasu-Xin)
Warnings: Child abuse, sexual abuse, shota, dark, angst
Summary: Sasuke’s fears run way deeper than an eleven year old should have to face.
Note: I DO NOT CONDONE CHILD ABUSE OR MOLESTATION; PLEASE DO NOT THINK THAT I DO IN ANY WAY!
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Fear
It gripped Sasuke more times than not in the past few months, he was only eleven and he had never felt so much fear in his life. It usually came on strong once he went to bed, knowing what might happen later.
Just thinking about it made the little boy shake under his warm covers. He wouldn’t have been so frightened if his brother was there; Itachi usually being able to stop the actions. This time… Sasuke had no choice but to endure.
His parents were divorced, his Mother having left over a year ago, leaving the two brothers, Itachi and Sasuke, with their father. Needless to say, it was the worst decision their mother had ever made.
The man was not meant to be a father. He was uncaring, hurtful, abusive… He had been abusive to their mother as well, which was why she ran… Sasuke couldn’t really blame her for that, but he resented her so much for leaving her sons in the situation they now had to face; being alone with their father.
Sasuke noticed that Itachi became very distant after their mother left, but was forced to take care of Sasuke; their father leaving the house for hours at a time, forcing the fifteen year old to take care of his younger sibling. Sasuke was on his best behavior for his brother though, knowing that Itachi would get in trouble if anything were to happen. But Itachi started finding excuses not to stay at home. He would usually go to his friend’s house and sleep over a lot, meaning Sasuke would have to sleep alone, without the protection of his nii-san.
Sasuke rolled over onto his back, kicking off the covers a bit. It was getting a bit warmer due to summer starting to show. The little raven thought about the first time Itachi had gotten ‘in trouble’ with their father, it was really hard to think about but it always came to the surface of his mind.
Their father had recruited Itachi to help him build something out in the yard. Really having no choice, Itachi had stopped his progress on his homework and headed outside. Sasuke didn’t really pay any attention to this, since Itachi did things like that all the time with their dad. It wasn’t until the younger raven heard a sharp yell come from the backyard did the little boy run out to see what had happened.
Upon entering the tool shed, it appeared as if his older brother had dropped something extremely heavy on his foot. The teen was on the ground holding said foot and desperately trying not to let the tears escape his eyes. His older brother never was very good with pain.
What happened next would forever stay in Sasuke’s memory. Their father turned to his oldest son and sneered at his whimpers of pain. “What are you complaining about?” he jeered, “This barely weighs anything.” He indicated the bag by picking it up and dropping it on Itachi’s foot once more.
Itachi gritted his teeth but couldn’t stop the few tears that had escaped. “Crying now?” their father asked, and then laughed before bringing his own heavy shoe down on his oldest son’s most likely broken foot. This time Itachi screamed in pain, quickly crawling out of the tool-shed and into the house as fast as he could.
Sasuke’s tears had fallen freely then, seeing such a thing happen to the one who always would protect him. Seeing his brother get hurt like that on purpose was something that Sasuke would never forget.
Itachi was taken to the hospital, a fictitious story made up about how he had broken his foot so severely. No one suspected a thing; typical.
Sasuke sighed as he kicked his blankets off all the way. It really was getting warm. Maybe his father turned the heater on, or maybe he was getting sick. It wasn’t unusual; he had been getting sick a lot the past couple weeks. He figured it was mostly due to stress… but he made sure to go to school whether he was sick or not. He had no desire to stay home.
The raven jumped when he heard a noise outside in the hall but relaxed when the door to the bathroom closed. He was on edge most of the time when he was in his father’s presence, never knowing what the man would do. It wasn’t unusual for his father to snap for no reason.
Sasuke tensed up again when the bathroom door was heard again and then he heard his doorknob being turned. The raven hoped it wouldn’t happen tonight, sometimes his father was too tired, but he wasn’t always that lucky. He quickly pulled his blanket back onto his bed and curled up under it despite the heat and pretended he was asleep. He knew of curse that it wouldn’t deter his father; the man would just ‘wake him up’ anyway.
Sasuke heard footsteps enter his room and curled up tighter, pushing himself against the wall next to his bed. He could hear them get closer and finally felt a dip in his bed as his father sat down upon it. The raven began to shake minutely not wanting to accept what would happen next, it always did.
The little Uchiha tensed up when he felt a touch on his back, then the covers were being pulled away to reveal his father’s dark figure. He couldn’t see the man’s features due to it being dark in his room, but Sasuke really didn’t mind that. He felt the same hand caress his cheek before sliding down his neck and down his chest where the boy curled up more.
The upside to all this, Sasuke thought, was that he was never penetrated. He knew that his father wasn’t gay and he also knew that his father saw male/male relationships as disgusting. No, his father was not gay, but the reason he did what he did to Sasuke and Itachi, was to demonstrate his control over them, to show them that he could do whatever he wanted to them and there was nothing they could do.
He heard his father chuckle darkly and pulled the blanket off of Sasuke in one swift motion. “Come on, you know it won’t hurt…” he heard his father whisper as his shirt was lifted up. “Be a good boy.”
Sasuke tried not to whimper as he relaxed his tensed position and lay himself on his back before sitting up to allow the older man to pull his shirt over his head. He knew his boxers would be next and so skipped the formalities and just slid them off himself. He just wanted it to be over with quickly so he could go back to sleep.
“Don’t be afraid.” Sasuke heard is father say as his hand continued to move over his now revealed flesh. “It’s something that has to be done… I’ve already told you. My Father did this to me… and now it’s your turn.”
The little raven just nodded and tried to suppress his shivers as his father’s hand crept closer to his most private area. He had the urge to cover himself and had the decency to blush, although he knew it wouldn’t be seen in the dark. His father didn’t touch him there however and instead took his hand away.
Sasuke didn’t breathe a sigh of relief just yet, knowing what was next. He heard his father chuckle again and looked in the direction of the voice, faintly seeing the man’s grinning face. “This is my favorite part.” he heard, just like he did every night. His father believed in routine and this was part of it, part of his routine of control. Even the things the man said were part of the routine that he would never break and Sasuke then realized that as long as he lived there… it would never stop.
The small boy heard the man’s pants being undone and forced himself not to look away, knowing he would get in trouble if he did, and saw his father take out his rather large penis. Sasuke wasn’t knew to sexual notions, his father having made him watch porn on TV and look at it on the internet at a young age made certain of that. He knew more than an eleven year old should know about sex and yet he was terrified of it. He couldn't imagine ever wanting sex in the future. Nevertheless, he had to look at his father while the man masturbated over him. It was the longest two minutes of his life and it became even worse when his father told him to touch himself.
Sasuke hesitated for a moment then quickly grabbed his flaccid penis after receiving a slap to the face for being too slow. He began to stroke himself, copying what he saw on TV and on the internet and doing what he knew felt good. He also thought about things that would make him hard, not many things did that; although he did noticed that for some odd reason whenever he thought about his brother, his penis would stir a bit. It was odd but he knew that it was probably because Itachi provoked the good feelings within him by being his protector most of the time.
Sasuke was silent as his penis grew in size but he was still not enjoying himself. He felt pleasure, no doubt, but he didn’t feel happy about it. It really just defeated the purpose. He did whimper though when he felt his hand being pushed away only to be replaced by his father’s. The man was rough and it hurt Sasuke a lot, his father squeezing a bit too hard and going a bit too fast. But despite the negative stimulation, his fresh new hormones allowed him to ejaculate quickly which he was grateful for.
The small raven heard a grunt above him and then felt the tell tale warmness on his abdomen, knowing his father had finally reached his climax. Sasuke closed his eyes then, knowing he didn’t have to look anymore and shook a bit as he felt lips press against his own before a rustle of clothing and the door closing with a soft click.
Sasuke lay there for a moment just trying his hardest to stop shaking. There was no way he could stay in that bedroom any longer. He had to get out. Forcing himself to sit up, he frantically wiped the cum off his stomach and got dressed as fast as he could. He was terrified, his father came back for a second round on most nights and he couldn’t live through another one that night. The boy didn’t bother packing anything, he knew where he wanted to go and knew how to get there too; luckily Kisame’s house wasn’t too far.
Climbing out the window, Sasuke quietly landed on the dirt of their backyard, luckily they had a one story house so it was easy to sneak out. He slipped under the chain link fence without any problem and ran as fast as he could, trying to keep the tears firmly in place, at least until he was at his destination.
Out of breath, Sasuke climbed up the side of the house he had come to and quietly knocked on the window he was perched in front of. He hoped they weren’t fucking, that’s the last thing he needed to see right then. He sighed in relief as his brother’s face was revealed to him through the window and the boy jumped into the older boy’s arms once the window was finally opened, tears finally making their escape.
He felt his brother’s arms wrap around him, he knew that Itachi knew what happened. “I’m sorry Sasuke; I shouldn’t have stayed over here, but...” Sasuke felt the arms tighten a bit.
“I know…” Sasuke whispered quietly. “But it’s really hard to deal with it when you’re not there… I get so scared Nii-chan.” The boy faintly heard the bedroom door close, and relaxed a bit more knowing that Kisame, Itachi’s boyfriend, had left the room.
“I know it’s scary and it shouldn’t be happening at all. I promise Sasuke, I’ll think of something.”
“Why can’t you think of something now?” Sasuke asked in a desperate plea, tears streaming faster down his cheeks. “I hate it, I hate HIM!”
Sasuke felt Itachi stroke his hair but that wouldn’t help this time, the boy was too upset. “There’s nothing I can do right now Sasuke... I’m only fifteen, no one will believe us; we’re too young. Plus, even if we did do something, there’s no one to take care of us. I would take care of you, but I wouldn’t be able to afford it.” Sasuke sniffed and calmed down a little bit. His brother always knew how to explain things.
“But, do we have to go back there? I don’t want to go back.” Sasuke buried his head in his brother’s neck, never wanting to be parted from the older boy.
“Yes… I’m sorry baby, we have too… But I promise I’ll do something. I’ll be there more ok?” Sasuke felt himself nodding but at the same time hated himself for doing so. If his brother was there more, he would be protected, but then Itachi would be getting the brunt of the abuse… Sasuke clung to Itachi a bit tighter, feeling torn and not knowing what he should be feeling. “I love you Nii-chan.” In the end, that’s all he could really say.
He felt the older boy lead him to the bed and curled up with him under the covers, stroking his hair and kissing his cheek gently. “I love you too Sasuke.”
It was hard for the boy to fall asleep. But it didn’t take long, knowing that his brother was there with him, protecting him. But despite that, Sasuke still couldn’t help the fear that gripped him, knowing that tomorrow; he’d have to go back to that fear, to that hell….
To HIM
The End
… Yeah I know. Not usually something I would write. But I’ve been needing to get feelings out lately and well… yeah. So… I know it wasn’t a very happy ending… but comment anyway? XD
~Sasu