Death is the only way to freedom

Chapter 11: Visiting Sasuke:

“My thing for Sasuke was an illusion… the only one I really wanted all along was you. I was just too blind to see it… I love you, Uzumaki Naruto!” Naruto dropped his jaw to his chest in surprise. He liked Sakura-chan a lot… hell he had even had a mayor crush on her once… at the age of twelve to thirteen.

He had then realized that even though he liked girls… he preferred… well… men. It had come to him during his travels with ero-senin and their frequent visits in the red light districts. It had not been just any kind of male company he craved for in bed… no, he preferred the raven-haired and slender type.

“Um, Sakura-chan… I´m…” He didn’t know how to tell her that he loved her like a sister and that he had just come out of a… hot relationship the now dead and gone Uchiha Itachi.

“Yo!” Both Sakura and Naruto jumped as their former sensei put his hands on their shoulders. “What are you doing here? Aren’t you supposed to be on your way to Sasuke´s place right now?”

“Are? Sasuke´s place… why?” Naruto glared at the copy-nin as he didn’t quite understand.

“…Eh Naruto… remember the visit I told you about?” Sakura said. The inner Sakura threw all kinds of deadly glares and cursed towards the silver-haired nin because of the interruption. She wanted to hear Naruto´s answer.

“…What? You wanted to trick me into going to see Sasuke… Why?” The blonde growled at her.

“I doubted that you would have come along if I had told you the truth, O-nii chan!” She said as she made pretty eyes at him.

“Well we’ll never know now… come I’ll go with you!” Kakashi chuckled. He knew very well that he had interrupted their conversation and he had done it on purpose at Naruto seemed a bit uncomfortable.

“Sure, sensei!” The blonde growled with irritation as he paid for his dinner though the pink-haired girl had promised to pay.

~ # ~

Sasuke stepped out of the shower, grabbed a towel from the rack and wrapped it around his waist. He took another one and used it to dry his hair as he walked absentminded into his bedroom.

“I wonder if some of my old clothes still fit.” He asked himself, though he knew that it wouldn’t as he had grown quite a lot in the last few years.

He scratched the back of his head as he went over his options. His old clothes was definitely too small, the ones he had been wearing were dirty and soaked with dried blood… so what to do?

He drew in a deep breath and walked towards his parents’ bedroom. He smiled sadly as he entered the dark room; everything was exactly the way he had left it.

“I´m so sorry that I wasn’t strong enough to save you… please forgive me!” He whispered at he want to the closet and opened it.

Everything had been neatly packed in plastic bags to keep it safe. Even after all these years the clothes were still like it had been back then, it even slightly smelled like his parents.

“I miss you!” It was merely a sad whisper. He found a pair of black pants, a fishnet tee and a short blue yukata (Stopped just below his knees) that had belonged to his father.

He brought the clothing along with him as he left his parents bedroom. He felt strange with his fathers clothing in his arms. But he had to get dressed and look good when Naruto arrived and he would rather wear his father’s clothes instead of Itachi´s, though Itachi´s clothes would probably fit him better.

His own boxers, though a bit tight, still fit him. He would rather have worn none than to wear his father’s… it just wouldn’t feel right.
Sasuke put on the black pants (they were a little to big) and strapped his belt before dragging the fishnet tee over his still moist hair. It too was a little too lose.

Pale hands caressed the soft blue fabric of the night blue yukata. His ringers rested on the symbol of his now almost extinct clan; the Uchiha fan in red and white.
“Everything ends with me… I´m the last one… Our secrets and pain will die with me!” The heir said like he was making a promise to the ghosts that lingered in his mind.

He sighed deeply before putting on the yukata and wrapped the black girdle around his waist. Stepping in front of the mirror, he checked if everything was like it should be.

“I have to tell him how I fell… I have too!” The raven-haired tried to convince his mirror image. He had been on the verge to lose the blonde. He had almost lost him as Itachi had attacked him.

´He died… Thank Kami that Kakashi and Sakura brought him back to life… back to me! And now he probably hates me because I kissed him like that in the hospital! ´

~ # ~

Kakashi looked lazily up from his book on the two silent teenagers in front of him. He sighed and shoke his head before burying his nose in his Icha Icha paradise special edition again. He was certain that everything would solve itself in due time.

“Naruto?” She whispered as she moved closer towards the blonde as they walked slowly towards the Uchiha district.

“Hmmm!” The blonde mumbled. He didn’t move away from her but didn’t spare her a glare either.

“What do you think of me? Of the things I… said back at Ichiraku´s?” Her voice filled with a hint of frustration.

“… Sakura-chan… I… I´m very flattered and happy… I love you too but like a sister… not a lover!”

“Oh… there’s someone else in your life isn’t there?” The pink-haired girl whispered sadly.

“There used to be… It ended not to long ago!” He sighed. His heart ached from the loss of his lover. Itachi might have been a cold prick sometimes… but he was also very passionate and carrying, though he only showed it when he was alone with the blonde.

“You loved her?” Sakura looked at his sad expression. It pained her heart to see his normally cheerful face filled with the pain of loss and a broken heart.

“Yeah… I guess I loved him!” He sighed deeply. Now he said it. It felt good to finally tell someone of his sexual preference.

“… H…Him?” Her green eyes went wide as she realized what he had just said.

“Yup!”

“You like… guys?” She stopped moving and turned to face the blonde.

“Yup!” He repeated calmly.

“Oh God!” Her face went pale. “You’re gay?” She cried out. Kakashi´s brow rose at her cry and stared first at the pink-haired girl then to the very calm blonde.

“So?” Naruto said as he shoved his hands in the pockets of his black pants. She just continued to stare at him in disbelief.

“Cool, Naruto-kun!” The copy-nin grinned at the blonde beneath his mask. “Let’s go, Sasuke-kun is expecting us!”

Sakura watched Naruto and Kakashi as they waked past her. When this happen… why did all the men she liked have to turn out to be either gay or asexual. She felt her heart break into a million pieces. Naruto liked men and Sasuke had always preferred to stay alone, the only one that the Uchiha had allow to come close to him was Naruto… they had even shared their first kiss!

Was that the reason for their resentment towards girls? Had Sasuke and Naruto liked that kiss so much that they had only had eyes for each other without knowing it themselves? Her knees suddenly felt like jelly and her head was spinning. Could the answer really be that simple? That Naruto and Sasuke wanted to be together? That they secretly loved each other without the other one knowing it?

“Sakura-chan… come on or we’ll leave you behind!” The silver-haired nin called out to her from where he was standing next to Naruto, who was looking the opposite way.

She managed to pull herself together and staggered forward to walk beside them.

~ # ~

He knew they were on their way as soon as they entered the gates to the Uchiha district. He could sense the calm chakra signature of his former sensei.

Sakura seemed to be upset and confused as her usual well controlled chakra seemed to be in turmoil and out of control and Naruto´s usual blue chakra was mixed with anger filled red that pulsated through his strong body.

Sasuke wondered what had happened. Was Naruto angry because they forced him to come here? Did Naruto really hate him? No! He didn’t want to believe that his Dobe was capable of Hate. And what was up with Sakura?

“Yo! Sasuke-kun!” Kakashi waved at the raven-haired teen. He seemed happy with the change of company.

“Come in!” Sasuke opened the door and motioned to his guests to enter his home.

Neither Sakura nor Naruto looked at Sasuke as they entered through the door. They walked into the kitchen in silence.

“What’s up with those two?” The Uchiha asked the copy-nin. Normally he would just have ignored them, but something made him want ask

“Sakura told Naruto that she loved him,” he whispered.

“WHAT?!” Sasuke cried out in surprise, earning an annoyed glare from Naruto and Sakura.”She said what?!” He stared at his two former teammates.

She stared at Sasuke then at Naruto. Sasuke looked directly into Naruto´s slightly red eyes. A sob trembled trough her body… she couldn’t stand to be here right now!

“I´m leaving!” She hissed as she stumbled to her feet and ran past Sasuke towards the exit. Sasuke just looked at her as she rushed past him.

“Sakura, wait!” Kakashi gave the two young males’ a glare and turned to run after her. “I expect you two to behave while I´m away!” He said firmly as he rushed trough the door to follow the heartbroken girl.

Naruto and Sasuke just stared at the open door for a few seconds before Sasuke left out a deep sigh and went to close the door.

“She really told you that she loved you?” Sasuke walked towards the kitchen table and sat down on the chair opposite of the one the Naruto was occupying.

“Yup!”

“So… what was your answer?”

“Guess!”

“You turned her down? Why? I thought you had a crush on her?” The raven-haired asked with a hint of curiosity.

“I had a thing for her at the age of twelve… things change!”

“I see!” Sasuke rested his elbows on the table.

“Hnnn!”

“That’s my line, Dobe!” He smirked.

“Like I care, Teme!” The blonde growled. His blue eyes were still graced with sparks of red.

“So why not make use of her offer anyway? You could’ve got laid and then dumped her!” He said calmly.

“That’s not who I am, Sasuke. I don´t use people like that… besides she’s not my type!”

“And what is your type then?”

“Why do you wanna know, Teme?”

“Just curious, Dobe!”

“Hnnn… she has the wrong gender!” He said calmly with a small smirk on his lips. This would surely make that cold bastard freak out.

“Oh that’s the reason for her to freak out like that!” The Uchiha smirked. `Naruto liked men heh… heh, then he still had a chance to win the blonde´

“You don´t care? Aren’t you disgusted, like she was?” The blonde asked as he crossed his arms above his broad chest. He was a bit disappointed because of the lack of reaction from the Uchiha.

“No!”

“And why is that, Teme?”

“Why don´t I just show you, Naruto?” The Uchiha rose to his feet and walked to stand next to the blonde. He licked his lips, as he secretly wondered what the blonde tasted like. It had been a long time since their first on only kiss and Sasuke had craved for a rematch ever since.

“Are?” The blonde stared at him with frowned brows as the raven-haired heir leaned down; closing in on his face. “What are you doing, Teme?”

“Kissing you!” He smirked as he pressed his lips against Naruto´s.

#So plz tell me what you think XD#