A grain of truth

XI

“That was some major constipation you’re having.” And he blinked, the words sinking slowly in him before he chuckled softly, even being an ass, trust Sasuke to come up with a way to make you smile even if it was to the blonde’s expense.

“Bastard. Don’t worry I’d pay for your medication if you get cystitis.”

“It’s not needed, one of the many advantages of being a man is that you can adapt to any situations.”

“If the backyard starts reeking, I’ll kill you.” Sasuke’s answer to that was his trademark smirk and sat in the coffee table inside the kitchen, the soiled dishes piled up neatly on the sink and bags of groceries still untouched lying in the corner of the kitchen.

“Hey, it’d really help if you get your ass here and rinse the dishes on the other side.” Naruto muttered as he slid on his apron and tied the knot behind him, he’d never thought of it before but when he was still a kid he’d always wondered how his mother got to tie something behind her without even looking. He realized you just grow to learn it with frequent tries although you didn’t want to.

“I was thinking you’d say that. Do I get a reward after?” Black eyes turned to one of the department store bags on the floor, looking at the orange jelly inside.

“Psh, you’re not a kid anymore Sasuke.”

“Neji’s a far cry from a kid and you buy him those.” Sasuke mused with a grin as he slipped on a spare frilly apron on the peg, while Naruto wore the more… decent of the two, a white men’s apron and started rinsing the plates Naruto was beginning to wash with soap, stacking it one by one on a neat pile in rhythm with the blonde’s putting the washed dishes in the other side of the double sink.

“That’s different. Can you please not mention him for the time being? It’s pissing me off and I already feel like shit. You’re making it worse.”

“Hn…”

“Hey, hey look uncle Sasuke’s in a frilly apron! Like a girl!” Sasuke stiffened uncharacteristically as he heard the shrill tone of Kiba’s son behind him, not liking what he knew was going to follow after.

“What, what?” Soon Maria came barging in as a response with the call, rushing into the kitchen with Nozomi in his arms, and Hakuto in Nagi’s own ones, Hikari was the last one to come in, hands deep in his pocket, with his indifferent brows who shot up at his hairline before they lowered slowly and a smirk mirroring Sasuke’s own curling on his lips.

“Ne, ne uncle Sasuke, you like wearing girly stuff?” The kids surrounded the two men, looking up at Sasuke mostly while the others were tugging or fussing around the frills on the apron. Yuuhi was a boy of five years, an age where his mouth would always sputter nonsense questions, he looked mostly like Hinata, pallid lilac eyes and delicate features except for the brown hair.

“In our school we have a cooking class, the girls wear stuff like this every time.” Maria poked at the apron, having already put the twins down that were now attaching themselves to Naruto’s legs, whining mama repeatedly.

“Eh? Uncle’s a girl? But he’s got a pee pee.”

“It’s called cosplay. Mom and uncle’s probably pretending. Like when we would play house and Maria’s the mommy.”

“But uncle’s a guy, isn’t mommy supposed to be in the frilly apron?”

“Oh, oh, like when people dress in anime costume and stuff?” Naruto’s shoulders shook the whole time they were washing the dishes and found it hard to control his laugh, which eventually came out. He was sure he’s going to cry again, but for a very different reason.

Hanabi had given the apron to him in his wedding ‘shower’ together with a leather pants and a black mesh shirt, he found no use with the absurd… ‘thing’, then again, he’d received more hideous items before, like a pink vibe from Sakura, a black collar with a chain leash from Kiba that Shikamaru had picked up which he was sure he’d snatched from his pet store, and a pair of shackles from Tsunade, but he realized pretty soon what it was for when he had suddenly found himself waking up on their bed naked with only the apron covering him, a shackle tying his wrist to the headboard and a grinning husband between his legs with… a hideous looking string of… what he thought to be a poorly designed pink beaded necklace he couldn’t throw away because it was the first thing that Shino had given him in the wedding shower, Neji had never been grateful to their friends in his life.

“Kids that’s enough teasing already, you’re embarrassing your uncle here. Go on upstairs and clean up. It’s nearing bedtime.” Naruto said in between fits of barely suppressed laughter as he wiped the rarely used china for the reunion on the clean sink.

“Ha-ha, not funny dobe.” The children’s squeal faded as the heavy overlapping steps and a muffled echo of ‘no running in the corridors’ took over, although the grinning Maria didn’t leave but just took the responsibility of taking out the grocery from the plastic bags.

“What, it suits you.” Naruto said amusedly while putting the grocery bags on the table, getting acquainted with Maria’s hands quickly as he took the stool and carefully stood up on it, opening the high built in cabinets on the wall above the sink.

“Oi, careful. They’d kill me if you die in such a lame accident.”

“Fuck off bastard. Are you saying I’m fat? I’m perfectly well proportioned thank you. Hand me the glasses first, one by one.” Sasuke stood behind the blonde, if Sasuke didn’t knew Naruto better, he’d think he was seducing him but being the dobe that he was, the blonde never really learned to look at himself carefully with proper judgment.

“Muscles take more weight than fat dobe. Did you work out?” The strip of flesh on Naruto’s abdomen would repeatedly pop in Sasuke’s vision every time Naruto would raise his arms to arrange the glasses in the cabinet.

“It’s a part of being a teacher, we get morning exercises with the kids besides having to climb those damn stairs in a four story school. And I’m almost always working as a substitute p.e. teacher in the high school department, that p.e. guy Kakashi’s as lazy as hell, not to mention he’s always late, he should get acquainted with Shikamaru.”

“I’m sure they’d get along well.”

“And there’s this teacher, Ibiki, he’s the students’ worst nightmare, he does this one-zero grading system, more likely the kids would pass out of fear more than their determination to graduate.”

“One-zero?”

“One-zero grading system, like in a binary. You get one point with every pass, but when you skip one class, be late once, all those points you accumulated would be zeroed. Nobody’s ever failed his class though. It’s ‘coz when you don’t get to pass you just don’t spend your summer and Christmas holiday with his supplementary lessons, you get the same damn teacher for the subject you failed, and that means hell on earth with Ibiki, I’ve never been so glad I didn’t meet him as a student.

“It’s a nightmare uncle. He’s got those scars, and his head’s shiny like a hard boiled egg with a huge body.” Maria rubbed the top of his head to emphasize this while separating the foods that needed to be refrigerated, and the ones that had to go to the cupboard for stocks.

“He’s close to mommy though. They always eat lunch together with the lazy sensei and the boobsy woman.”

“More like being dragged into it. Maria get the oil and the seasonings he-” What followed next was an unexpected yelp, it turned out that the strap on Naruto’s slipper snapped and his foot slid down on it, had Sasuke not been there he’d have made an untimely leave of absence because of a sprained foot.

“Crap, I knew I needed to buy new ones.” Naruto glared at the snapped strap of slipper on the floor. Before he became aware of the closed distance between them, while his bare foot was hanging on the chair nearly meeting the floor, his leg was bent supporting his weight on the stool with one foot, and his arms wrapped around Sasuke’s neck while the raven’s hands were holding him by the armpits. “Clumsy dobe.”

Naruto could feel the man’s breath on his neck, it was because he was looking down at the broken slipper on the floor that his neck was strained in that direction and completely exposed in front of Sasuke’s face, and when their gazes met, he cautiously pulled away. He moved with awkward movements to carefully sit on the stool, putting both feet flat on the floor and quickly removing himself from Sasuke’s hold. “That’s so cool!!!!”

Maria said in awe, his uncle was like a knight in shining armor while he was carrying his mommy, if you’d just walk behind them earlier you’d mistake it for the guy carrying Naruto bridal style. “What’s so cool about seeing your mother embarrass himself huh?”

The blonde groaned, looking at the ceiling as it created sounds and looked as if it was threatening to collapse over him from the floor upstairs, no doubt the kids were wrestling with Kiba and the others. He could already see himself cleaning up the fiasco those kids had caused.

“Never mind, Maria give me the dry foods okay?” The blonde boy only nodded with the excitement from earlier in his childish mind still not fading, Naruto placed the stool to level the empty cabinet beside the one which held the china wares and stood barefooted instead, not expecting for broad hands to wrap securely both sides of his hips.

“Bastard what the fu-”

“We don’t want you falling again. Cooperate with me and let’s get this over and done with.” Naruto quickly snapped his head to glare at the empty cabinet, he wasn’t used to being held at that part of his body, hell he didn’t let anyone touch him that intimately expect for Neji and the kids. “You have stretch marks… I didn’t expect-”

“Yeah, got a problem with that?”

“Actually I find it rather sexy.”

“Bastard.”

“Hn, nice view.” Sasuke smirked, looking up at the blonde’s bottom shaped with the restricting denim and feeling the strip of smooth skin under his palm. He said that playfully but in truth he wanted to swallow the blonde right then and there, but he already knew his place, and that’s just about how far he can do things with the limitation of being friends.

“Closet pervert. Get a life.”

“Mommy, I heard uncle say earlier about something like, ‘old days’, did you know each other for a long time?” Naruto held out his hand without looking down at his son and put the plastic pack of something which turned out to be a packet of Lays for snacks.

“Hm? Yeah, seven… eight years to be exact.”

“Seven? Uh… that’s… I’m turning eight in four months, uh…”

“They met a year before you were born dobe.” The three looked behind them to see Hikari walking towards them, volunteering to help together with Nagi in the kitchen and helping himself with the broom while the quiet one wipe the table filled with crumbs.

“How’d you know that?”

“Fundamentals older brother. Fundamentals.” Nagi said in a matter-of-factly voice, a quiet smirk surfacing in the boy’s stoic features for the first time in a day.

“I second the motion.” Hikari muttered, washing his hands on the sink after placing himself over the low stool to reach it.

“Hn, so you met uncle before dad? That’s why you’re so close? Did you meet dad because of him?”

“Uh… kind of. Maria put the wet goods inside the fridge will you? Have Nagi help you up. The living room’s a friggin’ mess…” Naruto trailed on his words as he saw the back of his departing husband already motioning to climb the stairs, pausing midway from getting down and not noticing that Sasuke’s hand was still on his waist and his own was braced on the raven’s shoulder to balance himself as Sasuke was helping him get down safely.

The idiot didn’t even say a single ‘hi’!

Fine. You want a war? I’ll give you a fucking WAR.

It was an understatement to say that Naruto was tired, he was dog-tired in Kiba’s opinion. Besides Neji’s constant bitching all through out half of the day, he had to make up the guest rooms, cook dinner, clean up and bath the twins and tuck the children to sleep. If Neji’s frowning face didn’t welcome and piss him off in their bedroom he would have collapsed on the bed and didn’t care if the asshole was there. But still, he wanted to take a bath with all that sweat and dust he’d collected in the streets earlier. The jerk could drool over him for all he cared…

The problem was, the moment he went out the bathroom inside the master’s bed room, Neji was already absorbed in his own world in front of his friggin’ laptop.

“Jerk…” Naruto sneered in a low hissing tone as he stood before the closet spanning the entire east wall, pulling out a pair of pajamas, unaware of the cryptic gaze he was being secretly given by the long haired man on the bed.

The muscles on his back flexed with the movement, water glistening his skin with the reflection of the light although the way Naruto was dressing had him distracted, he was actually getting dressed? Almost as if he was dressing with a stranger inside the room, didn’t Naruto like to sleep naked? Without stripping the towel wrapped around his waist, the blonde took another towel to dry his hair and wipe the beads of water on his body, slipping on his underwear and the loose pants after with the towel still on and removing it only after he’d dressed halfway.

And what had Neji feeling more shocked was that Naruto looking as worn out as he already was, didn’t flop on their bed quietly and instead proceeded to walk towards the door. “Where are you going?” Was the stern question as Naruto’s hand paused midway from turning the door knob and pulling the door open.

“I’m going to sleep with the kids.” Naruto sighed, finding talking tiresome even. “Good night.”

“Wait.” At that Neji’s lap left the laptop and was placed on the bedside table and quickly he walked towards the blonde. “Why?”

“Neji, I’m tired okay? I just want to get some quiet.”

“And you couldn’t do that here? What’s your problem? You’ve been acting like a stranger ever since you’ve given birth. It’s been a year already, and I understand if it’s post partum, but-”

“Who’s acting like a stranger!? A problem? You’re asking me if I have a problem? So I’m the one who’s got a damn problem now?” Slowly, degrees by degrees Naruto’s voice rose as he turned with intense blue to glare at Neji’s darkening features. “Weren’t you the one who’s constantly bitching about me and couldn’t keep his fucking PMS to himself?”

“If you didn’t get late earlier then I didn’t have to BITCH about things! Did you know I had to leave my work just to entertain them? I even had to ask a favor for Naomi to cook for us when she wasn’t supposed to do anything. If she wasn’t there then-”

“Yeah? Why don’t you ask her to cook for you for the rest of your life then! Let her do the dishes and all the household chores since you’re so proud of her! Let her take the kids to school too while you’re at it! Go sleep with her for all I care!”

“Look who’s talking, weren’t you the one who’s got the nerve to flirt with that bastard in front of the kids!? Right to my face you were wiggling your ass in front of his nose!”

“For Christ’s sake Neji! He was just helping me not fall off! You’re the one who’s putting meanings behind it! Give me a break… if you’re so damn intent on looking for a perfect wife in me then get yourself a new one, someone you could brag about your family and friends, and who doesn’t need to beg for your trust every fucking minute that you see her with other men…”

Naruto turned the knob roughly, almost breaking it as he pulled the door open only for his arm to be twisted behind him, turning his body forcefully to face the angry man. “We’re not finished yet Naruto Hyuga! You’re going to stay here until we talk-” And those hard orbs of pale lilac softened the moment he saw Naruto’s tears flooding his face, wetting the neckline of his top.

“Naruto…”

“I’m doing all the best I can for you Neji… but somehow, I couldn’t help but feel like whatever I do it wasn’t enough for you. You wanted your own children… you wanted me to quit university, move here, away from my friends, and yet-I’m not a woman Neji, I don’t have soft breasts for you to rest on when you’re tired.” Naruto’s face sunk in Neji’s clothing, shoulders despite the tight embrace shook with the sob. He’d given up those things, the comfort of being in a place he’d been all his life, the amount of effort it took to get extra credits for college, reside himself to learning and doing household chores he’d never imagined he’d do in his life… and endured once again the hardships of pregnancy, he’d given them up without any hesitation because he wanted to be with Neji.

I love you Neji… and I’m not sure if I can still stop the urge to follow those words with a ‘but’.

“My hands are calloused, I’m not someone who’s intelligent enough to make a sensible conversation with you like Naomi… my skills are limited to making average meals. I…” The blonde’s words trailed off to a light gasp as he felt Neji’s palm sliding underneath his shirt, his mouth giving butterfly kisses on the crook of his neck, but the touch didn’t make the pain go away, in fact, Naruto felt even worse. One comforting touch wouldn’t be able to gloss over the pain he was suffering right now, can’t Neji understand that?

“Are you jealous?” The man said with a soft smile, something Naruto didn’t see because he was being embraced by the taller man.

“I’m your wife aren’t I? I’m supposed to get jealous… Ne-Neji…” The blonde faintly placed his palms flat against the man’s chest and pushed, but the man didn’t budge and already he could feel his husband’s fingers behind him, sliding under the waist band of his underwear.

“It’s been so long… more than a year’s passed.”

“Neji… I don’t want to do this right now, I’m tired… and my body aches all over.” One of Neji’s habits, was using physical actions to gloss over little arguments, usually Naruto would concede and eventually forget about what they were exactly fighting over without doing any talking.

But this was something which no amount of pleasure could make him easily forget. It’d just make it worse.

What did he want Neji to do? He was sure he didn’t want to have sex right now.

Did he perhaps, in some part of his mind, wanted Neji to tell him too? Wanted his husband to confirm his love for him?

“You said we can already. We’re you lying then?”

“No but… Neji stop. I want to sleep.”

“Me too, with you of course.” A skitter of electricity ran down the blondes spine as Neji’s finger trailed down his earlobe, massaging the nape of his tired neck and he couldn’t help but let a moan escape his lips.

“See?”

“Neji. I seriously want to sleep. You can do whatever you want tomorrow, just… not now.”

“How sweet of you-”

“Neji!” Naruto quickly backed away, his back colliding with the door, and hand slapping the back of his shocked husband’s hand by reflex as he hastily went to clutch the opened top of his pajama close.

“What, so you don’t want to sleep with me anymore?” Neji growled, not liking how his hand stung with the slap, no, the fact that Naruto had outright refused him was the thing that made his anger from earlier resurface. “You didn’t have any problems showing off your ass to that bastard.”

“I-I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you. Just… I’m not in the mood.” Naruto lowered his head with a sigh, even when he was tired he’d always let Neji, why was it that he was having difficulty letting him now? They’ve been wanting to do this all year round when he was still recuperating right?

“You had no problem flirting with that Uchiha worse than a cat in heat, but you’re refusing to let me see you when I’m your husband!?” Naruto gasped in pure fear as he was cornered between the door and Neji’s body, letting out a pained yelp as the back of his hands met the door, his legs being kicked wide with Neji’s knee while the man gave him a not so hard bite at the crook of his neck, leaving a teeth mark on the tanned skin.

He was dragged helplessly towards the bed, feeling his head start to throb as Neji literally threw him on the mattress and not being given a chance to get up, Neji’s hand quickly snatched the tube and condom inside the drawer under their bedside table, the man’s built weighing over him.

I didn’t want him to see.

I didn’t want him to look.

My pitiful face.

The scar on my skin.

My pruned hands.

My tired face.

I didn’t want him to see the me now.

I had wanted to remain the old Naruto to you.

The one you said to be the beautiful Naruto you had fallen in love with.

“Neji stop I said I didn’t want to! It’s embarrassing!” His muscles ached from carrying the kids earlier with the slightest effort of pushing the man off him, he would pant even with faint resistance and eventually he resigned to his husband’s forceful ministrations and just lay completely panting flat on the bed.

Saw how those loving eyes which used to look at him with tenderness now stare hard at him, gentle caresses replaced with rough strokes, and restraining hands.

To you what am I? Seeing you talk to that woman, seeing you laugh with her, play with the children, I was the one who looked out of the picture, someone who just existed to wash your clothes, cook your food and lie on the bed beside you every night.

Now I am beginning to understand, how unconsciously I had hurt you in the past, I wasn’t keeping my word…

Since when was the last time I told you I love you? And heard you answer back with the same tender words?

Neji’s ragged panting, the creaking of the bed, the feeling of something being slid in and out of him while his hips hurt with the way his thighs were pushed wide and apart, that was too tired to move as he panted with tired lids already threatening to close, he stared with a blank expression on the vase on the bedside table. Only the exchanging of the body fluids and the difficulty of breathing burning his lungs seemed real, before his consciousness finally gave out and the bed continued to creak.

*When you’re exhausted, my cousin said you wouldn’t get to feel anything. Yes, I interviewed a lot of people and didn’t care to embarrass myself with perverted topics. I even got asked why I was bothering myself asking. ‘you know it’d be a lot easier for you to experience it. It’s the best teacher after all.’ I answered with a timid, ‘someday.’ Yeah, like when hell froze over. I just want to be an old maid and keep drooling over handsome guys making out.

“Oww… who raped me?” Naruto groaned as he rubbed his lower back, the pain was even worse than when he first had sex, well he was drunk then so it numbed the pain and intensified the pleasure. The blonde had already expected Neji to be gone, and found his whole body feeling heavy especially his head as if he had just let out loose all the wildness in him and drunk to his content last night.

He didn’t want to get up, didn’t want to cook breakfast, sweep the yard or water the plants. “Just how many times did that jerk screw me over?” He didn’t want to do anything but lie there and sleep, well at least he was thankful Neji dressed him after.

But that dream faded with the ear splitting squeal from Maria bursting inside the bedroom, followed by Nagi who was carrying a tray of food and Hikari carrying a pitcher of orange juice while Yuuhi was carrying a small bowl of what seemed like fruits cut and put together in a bowl.

“Hi mommy!” Maria jumped on the high bed, giving Naruto a hug and staying like that with his body over Naruto’s own with the comforter separating them.

“Hey… morning.”

“It’s afternoon already mom.” Hikari informed, Nagi shooing Maria away so that he could place the tray on Naruto’s lap.

“What?”

“Dad said you need a day off, it’s Sunday so get a lotta rest nii-chan.” Yuuhi smiled, putting the bowl of fruits glazed with something brown and sweet looking on the bed side table together with the pitcher of juice.

“Mommy, you’ve been sleeeeping for the whole day, you’re like a vampire!” Maria said, getting under the covers to lean on Naruto’s side. “Look you’ve got lots of bites on the neck!”

Naruto’s hand quickly shot towards the area where his son was pointing to and blushed a deep crimson, shaking his head to shake off the images popping into his head. “Who made this?”

“Uncle Sasuke did! Dad’s downtown to get some medicine! And gramps’ taking care of the kids!”

“Mmn, Mari, could you lower your voice down a little?” The cheery blonde turned bashful then, laughing shyly as he rubbed at the back of his head only to glare at Hikari who muttered ‘dobe’.

“Mom and dad went on a date so we’re gonna take care of you till nii-chan gets better.” Yuuhi grinned, offering the huge helping of ham, bacon and eggs on the tray to him.

“Thanks, I’ll eat.”

“You’re always taking care of us, and dad’s mean to you yesterday so we wanna pamper you too.” At that the triplets all climbed on the bed, narrating their adventures last night on their bed room as Naruto ate, how Hikari would secretly crawl under Maria’s blanket to scare the shit out of him, or how Nagi’s stoic face looked creepier than usual with his smile being illuminated with a flash light in the dark room, it seemed smiling refused to suit him.

Seeing them, hearing his children laugh like that in front of him trying to cheer his spirits up, though Neji may think he wasn’t a good wife, he was more than convinced that he did his best for his children to grow up with proper care, attention and discipline.

And he will continue to do so, even if one day there comes the time that he should do it alone.

+++

“How’s your body?” Naruto only blinked at the approaching form towards him, he was wearing his suit suggesting he just got out of work, his immaculate face was strained with lines of age below the eyes and across the forehead but that didn’t decrease his charm. And Naruto couldn’t help but smile and welcome his husband home even in the last moments of his subsiding fever.

“Welcome home. How’s work?” The blonde slowly got up despite Neji’s protest, snaking his arms around the surprised man’s neck to give him his welcome kiss which turned to a tight embrace lasting for a couple of minutes before the two of them landed softly on the bed.

“I’m sorry…” Neji muttered apologetically through the blue material on Naruto’s chest, tightening his embrace to the blonde and burying his face more as he felt the soothing rubbing of Naruto’s hand over his back, callous they maybe but those hands were hands that know of labor, those hands would always take care of his needs, the children, rake his hair comfortingly.

“Forget it, just… I don’t want to experience that thing again.”

“Naruto I may be a jerk but, every time I see you jealous, it makes me want to work you up more… I’m the worst.”

“You’re not. Since I finally realized how you’ve been feeling in the past, or even up till now. I understand now what you feel towards Sasuke. Love is just like that I guess, it makes me want to monopolize you for myself.” The long haired man smiled softly at this.

“I feel flattered, although I’m the same as well.”

They had stayed like that for a little while, before Neji had himself changed to sleep since it was already midnight.

“Neji?” Naruto started, thoughtfulness in his eyes as if he was thinking of what he should say.

“Hm?” The blonde couldn’t help but sigh, dismissing the thought in his head, he had missed this when Neji had to go to Tokyo for a hearing. After that time they acted pretty much like strangers to each other, his husband left with a sour distance between them but rushed to get home the moment Nagi called about Naruto falling sick and his brothers not being able to attend school because they had to take care of the twins and Naruto.

He had never thought that Naruto was feeling worse than jealousy over Naomi, he knew he was being an ass, but when he saw his wife getting off Sasuke’s car and the fact that the blonde was late, he immediately jumped into conclusions that Naruto lost track of time because of Sasuke, or that they had planned to meet up secretly…

Neji was being an idiot really, just that he couldn’t help feeling flattered to see Naruto glare at Naomi because he was being obviously jealous, it’s because of that happy feeling like his heart was swelling, and a confirmation of Naruto’s love for him although he got over board, he hadn’t expected to see Naruto and Sasuke in that kind of atmosphere. He hadn’t been thinking straight that time… and the only thing he thought of was himself and not about how Naruto could have been feeling because of him.

And yet, Naruto’s love was so great, by the end of the day he would always let Neji return to his forgiving arms.

“What is it Naruto?”

“Nothing, let’s just sleep.”

“Hey.”

“Hm?”

“Love you.”

“Me too. G’night…”

*And here comes another installment of A grain of truth! Actually I already planned to end it with an epilogue, the manuscript for the epilogue was already constructed and edited, proofread and commented by my trusty ol’ friend here. She said, ‘if males can get pregnant, I wouldn’t mind marrying one. So they can take the shit for me and I won’t say a damn thing about hiring a baby maker for him.’ But being a little fickle, when an idea to torture the lives of those two popped up inside my head, I just couldn’t stop my hand from moving. I thought it’s not fair to torture the seme only… and besides, they always get to make up in the end ne?

Actually when I wrote the epilogue up, after I read it, it helped me cut those up into chapter plots and all I had to do was think up of fillers, so this story’s ending is pretty much already destined to its tragic fate. Nya! Just joking about the tragic part, for it to have a happy ending or not is up to YOU! Yes YOU! If you convince me enough with the reviews that is. Hate the lecherous me. Actually this has eight possible endings… the good, the bad, the normal ones… I still haven’t figured out which is the best.