Reckless Hearts

Warnings (for this chapter): HET, SasuKarin, some masturbation, voyeurism, YAOI, SasuNaru. You’ve been warned.

 

 

A/N: Yay, update! I’m hoping to finish this within the next couple months, because this thing is already two years old and that’s crazy! Anyway, enjoy this chapter and FINALLY the yaoi.

 

Not beta’d. All mistakes are my own.

 

 

Reckless Hearts

Chapter Twelve

 

 

The DVD, the security footage of his mistake, was sitting innocently in the open CD drive of his laptop, still warm from use. He hadn't been able to sleep, so frustrated by that damn dream that he'd left the apartment, Karin still sleeping in their - his - bed.

 

He hadn't even really thought about it; just threw on some clothes and grabbed his car keys from the bowl on the kitchen counter. He wasn't considering the consequences, nor was he thinking about how this would affect the people around him. Once he got the bar open and up to his office, he booted up his laptop and pulled the DVD out of its hiding place.

 

It was a plain disc, with silver highlight on the front that read SONY. There were no black, bolded words that proclaimed what was on it, but he knew and that meant more than he wanted to admit.

 

He shouldn't have watched it. He should've destroyed it when he had the chance; should've fed it through the shredder in his office or broken it into several or so pieces.

 

The DVD sat innocently in the open CD drive, mocking the sweaty hair that still clung to his forehead, the sticky mess on the front of his t-shirt. His heart had stopped racing but he couldn't seem to get his thoughts to do the same. Every part of him was screaming and he couldn't fight it anymore.

 

He needed to talk to Naruto.

 

~*~

 

It was probably one of the stupidest things he could do, tracking down the blonde teen that had almost certainly flipped his life on its side. He couldn't begin to rationalize why he did it, but there was this - something like an itch that he couldn't get rid of no matter how many times he scratched it.

 

"No. Sasuke, please tell me you're joking."

 

It was closing time for the bar and Ino was just stacking the chairs at the tables when Sasuke dropped the bomb on her. He'd needed to tell someone and who better than his business partner?

 

"I'm not." he told her defiantly, feeling like a disobedient child, and in a way he actually was. Ino just gawked at him for a few minutes before dropping into the seat next to him in the booth.

 

"Sweetie," she started, taking his hands in hers, "is this some kind of mid-life crisis? Do I need to have you committed?"

 

Sasuke rolled his eyes and shook her hands off. No, he wasn't crazy, but sometimes he wondered why he thought about half the things he did.

 

"So let me get this straight. You tracked this kid down?" Ino asked him. Sasuke didn't answer but she went on anyway. "You tracked this kid down to a high school about two miles away and you're planning on confronting him? Tomorrow after school lets out?"

 

Sasuke stayed silent, but she had her answer anyway. He'd told her as much, but it was a lot to wrap your brain around. His plan for the past few weeks had been to forget about his transgressions, not go to the source and relive them.

 

Ino put a hand on his shoulder and Sasuke turned away, hating the pitying look she was shooting at him. He didn't want - or need - her pity. There wasn't anything to pity him for anyway.

 

"Are you sure you wanna do this?" she asked him again.

 

"I need to know, Ino." he told her resolutely. She sighed and finally got up from the booth, grabbing the rag from her back pocket so she could wipe the rest of the tables down.

 

"I really hope you know what you're doing, Sasuke." Ino sighed after a while, stopping in front of his table, her hands on her hips. Sasuke tried not to roll his eyes, but she was the last person he would ever take advice from.

 

He got up from the table and handed her his empty glass before making his way towards the back of the bar where his office was.

 

"Hey, wait! I wasn't done talking to you yet!" The blonde called after him, an obvious pout in her voice. Sasuke just waved over his shoulder at her then disappeared up the stairs, shutting the door behind him. He knew what he was doing was stupid; she didn't have to tell him.

 

Sasuke unbuttoned his jacket and slipped it off, slinging it over the back of his chair. His tie followed and the sleeves of his button-up were shoved up to his elbows. As he sat down at his desk, his eyes fell to the drawer holding the evidence of his illicit activities and wrapped in a plastic, reflective disk. He'd thought about it all week, even when he was being intimate with his fiancé.

 

It called out to him, begged him to pop it into his laptop and watch it again. After the first time, he'd felt so guilty afterwards that he didn't go home. He'd hidden the disc away again and avoided going into his office unless he could help it.

 

He wasn't naive, so he knew what the itch meant. He'd have to be completely oblivious to human nature not to know what it was.

 

Sasuke's fingers were nimble as he plucked at the buttons on his shirt, easing the material over his shoulders and hanging it behind him on the chair. His laptop was already on so he tapped it awake and pulled the DVD out of his drawer, his hands shaking minutely as he opened his CD drive and put the disc inside.

 

He sighed as he ran a hand through his hair, embarrassed that he was half-hard even before the video had started.

 

"This is insane." he muttered to himself, pulling his laptop closer and clicking into the files where the video was. When the video popped up, he skipped ahead two hours and sat back in his chair just as his office door opened in the video. He watched himself usher the blonde inside; watched as his hand went to the small of Naruto's back and turned him around.

 

His lips tingled as they kissed, remembering the phantom pressure. Thinking back on it, and as he saw the proof right on the screen, Naruto really did have no idea what he was doing. That's should've been Sasuke's first sign that something wasn't right.

 

A few minutes of video passed and Sasuke watched himself touch Naruto in tones of black and white. He remembered all of the touches shared between them, the feel of Naruto's skin underneath his fingers. He could still feel the weight of the blonde’s cock in his palm as he watched himself jerk Naruto off.

 

Sasuke sat back in his chair and rubbed the heel of his palm against his erection, his tongue dipping out to wet his lips. Things were just starting to get more serious on the video; Naruto was taking off the rest of his clothes and his image was going through the pockets of his pants for the condom and lube Ino had given him.

 

He remembered having his fingers knuckle deep inside the teen's body, stretching him to accept his cock. Sasuke shuddered as he unzipped his pants, sliding them down enough so he could wrap his fingers around himself. One solid pump made his hips buck and he hissed in a breath as a single bead of clear fluid formed at the tip of his erection.

 

"Shit." Sasuke groaned, watching himself sink into Naruto's body. His fist tightened on his erection and he kept pace with his movements on screen, his eyes stuck on the area where they connected. His cock twitched at the visual and he moaned as another bead of precum formed on his tip and rolled down the side onto his fingers.

 

His zipper brushed his pinky with every down stroke as he jerked himself off to the security footage of that night. Sasuke gasped when his thumb nail caught on the sensitive ridge under the tip of his dick, making stars burst in the edges of his vision.

 

Sasuke came with a shudder, hissing out a breath between his teeth as his release coated his fingers. He reached over with his clean hand to pause the video, right when Naruto was arching up underneath him as he climaxed.

 

He shut his laptop and sank back in his chair, staring down at his messy hand with unfocused eyes. Maybe Ino was right and he was having some kind of crisis. It would explain his sudden and unexplained obsession with that blonde punk.

 

Sasuke looked at his hand for another moment before he wiped it on his shirt and pulled his pants back up. He went about cleaning up after himself, replacing the security DVD back into the locked drawer and shutting down his laptop.

 

A knock sounded at his door and Sasuke took a moment to slip his dress shirt on before he called for the person to come in. Ino popped her head into the room and looked around like she was expecting someone else to be in there with him.

 

“I’m heading home. Just thought I should let you know.” she smiled. Sasuke only nodded and she left without another word, shutting the door behind her. After a second it opened back up and she looked him up and down with her lips curled up in amusement.

“Next time use a tissue.” she giggled and then she was gone again.

 

Sasuke blushed in embarrassment, buttoning his shirt to hide the stains on the one underneath it. He grabbed his suit jacket and slung it over his arm, then grabbed his laptop and headed for the door. He made sure all of the lights were off and that the front door was locked before he followed Ino out to the parking lot.

 

“Are you sure about confronting that blonde kid?” she asked him just as she was unlocking her car.

 

“Good night, Ino.” he said back loudly, slipping into the drivers’ seat of his own car and slamming the door. The blonde drove away first, leaving Sasuke alone in the parking lot, trapped in his thoughts.

 

He wondered again if she was right, but that stubborn part of him violently shook off the doubt and started the car. He’d think about everything when he came face to face with Naruto.

 

*~*

 

He didn’t crawl into bed with Karin after he got home. He kicked his shoes off by the door and hung up his jacket, but he didn’t step foot into their room. Instead, he collapsed onto the couch with his clothes on – stained shirt and all – and fell asleep with his head rolling against the back of it.

 

The next morning, he woke up to the smell of flowers and when he opened his eyes, Karin was flitting about the living room straightening things up. There was a vase of fresh lilacs on the coffee table in front of him.

 

“Good morning, sleepy head.” she smiled at him, leaning down to press a gentle kiss to his temple. Sasuke tried not to groan as he sat up; the crick in his neck was incredibly unpleasant and his clothes were twisted around his body.

 

Sasuke rubbed a hand over his face and glanced at the clock to check the time and was surprised to find that it was already passed noon. Karin hummed to herself as she ran her fingers through his hair, straightening the tangles at the back of his head.

 

“You okay, baby?” she murmured. Her fingers scratched lightly at his scalp in a soothing manner and Sasuke felt his body melt under her touch. No matter how twisted up he was about Naruto and the things he’d done, Karin always knew where to touch. It made him feel even more self-loathing than before.

 

Sasuke leaned his head forward and let his fiancée curl her fingers into his hair. He wanted to apologize, but he couldn’t quite open his mouth to force it out. She deserved so much better than him. Karin had never done anything wrong.

 

“Yeah, I’ve just got a headache.” He sighed, rubbing his hand over his face again. Karin huffed out a breath and her hand left his hair to land lightly on his shoulder.

 

“Okay, I’ll get you some aspirin.” she smiled, pressing her lips to his forehead and slowly making her way into the kitchen. Once she was out of site, Sasuke dropped his head into his hands and let out a slow breath. He was insanely nervous about confronting Naruto later. He didn’t know what was going to happen; whether he was going to lose his collective shit when he saw the teen again and made an ass of himself or if he kept it together and powered through it.

 

Karin came back into the living room with a glass of water and two aspirin tablets in her hand. Sasuke took them when she reached him and he quickly took the pills with a sip of water.

 

“You look pale.” The woman whispered, pressing a hand to his forehead to feel his temperature. After a few seconds, she tilted her head to the side and frowned. “You don’t have a temperature.”

 

“I’m fine, Karin.” he assured her. He handed her the glass and she took it back to the kitchen, throwing a worried glance over her shoulder. Sasuke stood up from the couch and stretched out, feeling older than his twenty-three years. He probably shouldn’t have slept on the couch.

 

He started when Karin wrapped her arms around him from behind, pressing her front flush up against his back. Her cheek pressed into the center of his back and it was quiet for a moment as they swayed from side to side.

 

Sasuke sighed to himself and looked around the room guiltily, wondering why he wasn’t happy with this right now. Karin already loved him unconditionally, so why wasn’t it enough? What was wrong with him?

 

He chanced a look at the clock and felt his heart skip a beat. If he wanted to confront Naruto it was now or never.

 

“I have a few errands to run this afternoon.” Sasuke said softly, pulling himself away from Karin’s embrace and picking his suit jacket up from the floor. “I should be back in time for dinner if you want to go out, but then I have to return to the bar to help Ino with the new orders.”

 

He looked away when he saw Karin’s face fall, just knowing that she had planned something already and felt guilt curl in his belly. He went back over to her and kissed her gently on her the forehead without meeting her eyes.

 

“I’m sorry I haven’t been spending much time here, Karin.” He told her.

 

“It’s okay. I know you have a business to run.” She whispered back, smiling weakly up at him. He kissed her on the mouth this time, then nodded curtly to her and quickly made his way to the bathroom.

 

He felt like such an asshole.

 

*~*

 

Konoha Academy was the same as always. Sasuke had chosen the parking lot near the back, where most of the students’ cars were and where he thought Naruto would come out. He thought he’d have to wait a little while longer, but ten minutes after he’d parked the students started filing out of the doors. It was another five minutes before he saw Naruto come out with two other teens.

 

Sasuke got out of his car and shut the door as he leaned against his. His eyes roved over the blonde as he laughed to his friends. Sasuke felt heat prickle over his skin as Naruto finally noticed him, and he couldn’t say for sure if he was excited to see the teen or itching to punch him.

 

He decided on anger just in case, but the closer he got, the hotter he was. Besides, it was amusing to see the blonde hide behind his friends like that would keep Sasuke away from him.

 

“Dobe.” Sasuke breathed the word out when they were finally within range and the raven felt dizzy when their eyes finally met. Naruto’s were so much bluer than he remembered them being. He

 

Naruto moved out from behind his friends and regarded Sasuke with a wary look. Sasuke’s breath hitched as he grabbed the smaller man by the lapels of his jacket and pulled the blonde into a bruising, angry kiss.

 

“You little shit; I should beat your face in for that stunt you pulled on me.” Sasuke hissed at him.

 

 

“I’m sorry! Please don’t kill me!” Naruto begged him, holding his hands up in front of his face. The two teens on either side of him burst into laughter and Sasuke felt his cheek twitch with the beginnings of a smile. He sighed and rolled his eyes, then leaned down a little to swipe his tongue over Naruto’s bottom lip.

 

 

“Can we go somewhere and talk?” Sasuke whispered, throwing a glare over at the boy giving him a suspicious look. “I’ll give you a ride home if you want.” he offered.

 

 

Naruto glanced back at his friends and then back to Sasuke, seeming to think about it before he gave a small nod. Sasuke felt relief and dread flood his body, but he pushed it to the back of his mind as he guided Naruto to his car.

 

 

He wasn’t sure what he was going to say, but he supposed he had a few minutes to think. He just had to keep his wits about him.

 

 

tbc