Death is the only way to freedom

Chapter: 14 Feelings

“Dolphin, where are you taking me?” The older nin chuckled as he was dragged through the empty corridors of the academy.

“Shhh… You’ll see,” the brunette whispered as he pushed his silver-haired lover through a door. ”We’re here!”

“… The men’s locker room?”

“Yes… is something wrong with that? I thought you wanted me to have a closer look on your little problem?”

“No problem here! It´s just a bit surprising… that’s all!”

“Why?” Iruka crossed his arms above his chest with a small frown. What was up with Kakashi anyway… he was the horny one here!

“Nothing… never mind, sugar... so you wanna help me out?” Kakashi grinned at the slightly shorter Iruka. His dolphin was a closet pervert though he was always denying it… the quiet ones always are.

“What would you like me to do?” The brunette whispered in a seductive tone. “We have fifteen minutes left…”

“Less talk more-” Kakashi was cut off as his mask was pulled away and an eager mouth claimed his lips hungrily. He felt a familiar tongue lick his lower lips, asking to enter his mouth. As soon as the silver-haired nin parted his lips, their tongues met in a heated battle. Their tongues were sliding against each others… wet and hot.

“Mmmmm,” Kakashi moaned into the passionate kiss as he felt Iuka’s hands caress his clothed body. Hands pinching erect nipples through the older nin’s shirt.

“You want me to taste you?” The brunette whispered into his lover’s ear while stroking the growing problem through the tightening fabric of Kakashi´s pants.

“Mmmmm… yes, let me feel your hot mouth around my cock,” he begged as he leaned backwards to find a supporting locker.

Iruka trailed the other nin’s jaw line to the neck to kiss and nibble at the throat. His hands trailed down Kakashi´s firm but clothed body and stopped at the man’s belt.

“Oh… a little hindrance?” He chuckled teasingly as he licked the spot on the neck he had just nibbled at. Skilled hands quickly unbuckled the belt and moved on to unbutton the pants before zipping down. “Better… but not good enough!” The brunette purred into the copy-nin’s neck.

“Ahh” Kakashi felt like he was in heaven… to be seduced like this was a rare thing, as his lover usually acted as if he was shy. He smiled and looked down as he felt his pants and boxers slide down to the floor.

“Want to watch?” Kakashi couldn’t believe his own two ears… did his dolphin just ask him to watch? Well he wouldn’t let this opportunity slip, that’s for sure! He nodded and watched as his lover knelt down in front of him and grabbed his full erected length with one hand and used the free hand to caress his thigh.

The silver-haired man grasped as he watched his lover’s wet tongue trail his entire length with a slow teasing pace. He swirled his tongue around the head before licking the slit, which caused Kakashi to grasp and dig his hands into Iruka´s brown hair.

“Oh God… that feels so good,” he panted as his dolphin repeated the movement. “Aaa.”

The brunette leaned back to enjoy his lover’s desire-filled expression; his visible eye was half lidded and his lips were slightly parted as his breathing was becoming ragged. Iruka smiled happily at his lover, he felt happy that he could finally do something to please his boyfriend.

“I love you,” Kakashi looked down on the man of his dreams who had just said those three magic words he liked so much.

“I love you too, dolphin… Ahh” Hot lips engulfed his hard erection and he found himself on the verge of coming already. “So hot… “He moaned as he watched Iruka taking in as much of his length as possible.

Kakashi almost cried out in desire as his lover’s tongue worked its magic by swirling over the head before engulfing him again and again. He had to bite hard on his lower lip to keep himself from screaming his lover’s name out loudly from the pleasure he caused.

Iruka could feel that his lover was near his peak as he became harder in his mouth. He moaned to send waves of pleasurable vibrations upon his lover’s erection.

“Iruka… I… I… ahh!” Kakashi cried out as his mind went white from the mind blowing sensation of his lover’s tongue’s skilled movements around his hardness. His fingers fisted around the brown locks of hair as he spilled his seeds into the kneeling man’s mouth.

“Feeling better?” The brunette chuckled as he licked the last drops of cum of his lips with a smile. Kakashi smiled back and nodded at him with a foggy look in his visible eye.

“Yeah, guess I can manage to restrain myself from jumping you till you get off from work!” He saw a slight blush gracing Iruka´s cheeks. He really looked very cute and f***able when he was blushing.

“This was so hot… just like page thirty-one in vol. nine of Icha Icha paradise… really naughty of you my beloved dolphin!” Kakashi grinned as he regained his breath and his mind slowly began to return to normal.
“I’ll have a little something prepared to you when you come home…” The copy-nin smiled happily at the idea that just came to his mind; to be licking chocolate sauce and wiped cream of Iruka´s naked and willing body.

“… Looking forward to come home then!” The brunette gave his silver-haired lover a soft kiss before leaving the room to teach.

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He dropped to his knees, his hands clutching the Akatsuki cloak that the dead man still wore. “I… you are so alike… and then again not… I just don’t know what to do anymore… Itachi… What do I do from here?” He let the tears run freely down his whiskered cheeks and let out another sob.

He closed his eyes and thought about the past:

A vision of the past:

“So you are out looking for my stupid little brother again, angel?” Said the taller man with the raven-colored hair.

“Yeah, so what is it to ya? It’s not that you feel anything for me other than lust, Uchiha!” The blonde slipped on his black t-shirt with a low growl.

“… That’s not true. The sex is beyond great and I think you are a worthy opponent to me… but there is more than just that…”

“And what would that be?” The blue-eyed male looked at the barely dressed man who was resting on the bed.

“You are precious to me… I once wanted you because of the Kyuubi. To extract it from you delicious body and use it’s power to destroy the world…”

“Once? What changed?” Naruto frowned as the older male patted the bed beside him; inviting the blonde to come and sit next to him. None the less he decided to go and sit next to the Uchiha.

“… You don’t use the knowledge of my past to blackmail me, and I’m sure that you never would… because that’s just not the way things work for you, Naruto. You don’t push me away when I touch you… even though you should hate me for the things I did to you, your beloved Sasuke and others close to you…”

“And?” The blonde looked a bit puzzled at the usually cold and emotionless Itachi. He couldn’t help to smile softly as he felt the Uchiha´s arm around his waist.

“You changed something in me… you make me feel something other than hate and despair. You make me feel warm inside every time I see you… I even feel it when I think of you. I feel like dying when you leave… and I feel… jealousy because I know that it is not me you really want.”

“Itachi, you-” Their lips met in a heated kiss, and the shirt that he had just put on, quickly found its way back on the floor.

“Run away with me, angel. I will do everything for you to make you happy forever… please don’t make me become an unfeeling monster again-“

The present:

“Naruto? NARUTO?” A familiar voice forced him to return from the vision of the past.

“Naruto, are you alright?”

“Sasuke?” The blonde took the hand that the last remaining Uchiha offered him and allowed the other to pull him to his feet.

“You called out his name, Dobe. What really happened between the two of you?” The raven asked with a sad voice.

“Not now, Sasuke…. I don’t feel like sharing more of my past with you just now,” the blonde wiped the last tears from his swollen eyes.

“… I can wait… but eventually I want to know, Naruto!” The Uchiha said in his usual cold tone.

“Whatever you say, Sasuke,” Naruto picked up the items that now belonged to him. He tied the hitai-ate around his left shoulder, hung the necklace around his neck and carefully placed the Akatsuki ring and a few other tokens into his pocket and turned to face his former teammate.

“You want me to leave as you say goodbye?” The blonde asked coldly.

“If you don’t mind? “ Sasuke wondered if what he suspected was true or not. No one would be so consumed in grief and sadness if they just respected the other person’s power. He was a genius after all and the scenario that played in his head wasn’t one he was found of. Sasuke suspected that Itachi and Naruto… that they… might have been intimate with each other. That Itachi was that lost boyfriend that made the blonde distance himself from him.

“No prob. Is Baa-chan still outside?”

“Yeah,” he softly said. Why had he left Naruto alone back here? The dobe had begged him to stay and tried so hard to bring him back home with him. Had Sasuke’s continual rejections driven the blonde into Itachi´s arms?

“Sasuke?”

“Yeah?”

“Thanks!”

“… What for?”

“Thanks for letting me have his stuff and for making the funeral a private one. Thanks for not putting him to rest next to them… and thanks for being here with me,” the blonde smiled sadly at him. The deep blue eyes were filled with sadness, but genuine gratefulness and hope was there to.

“… Naruto?”

“Yup?”

“Can I… can I hug… you?” Sasuke stared at the grey tiles at the floor, blushing slightly from the request he just made.

“…” The Uchiha sighed as there was no response, but then he felt the other teen’s body pressing against his own and felt slender arms around his neck.

“Sure thing, Sasuke,” the blonde hugged the taller raven tightly against his chest. He needed this closeness as much as Sasuke. They both longed for the comfort of someone else.

“I’m sorry for your loss,” the raven softly mumbled into the blonde’s ear, as his hands clung the orange fabric of the blonde’s colorful jacket.

“Did you… did you love him?” The words were merely a sad whisper.

“… Yeah… I think I did love him… I´m sorry, Sasuke.”

“… Do you… Did you ever… “His strong voice cracked as tears filled his dark eyes. He realized that he was crying. He had not cried since the day he lost his family… and now… now he was really all alone in the world.

“Did I ever love you?” Naruto whispered into his ear. “Yes… guess I always did, Sasuke… but things where always… so complicated.”

“… How do you… feel about me… now?” Sasuke couldn’t believe that he actually asked the blonde that. He would only get hurt again… it was better to be alone… wasn’t it? But this longing was so strong.

To be this close to Naruto; to feel his heartbeat against his own pounding chest… It was intoxicating… He longed to feel Naruto´s soft lips against his like back in his house. He wanted to touch and taste this delicate tanned skin.

“Sasuke, I…”

Sasuke slipped a hand under the blonde’s jacket and felt the firm and muscled back against his palm. Naruto´s skin was so soft and warm and he could feel that his body was staring to react on the closeness of their bodies.

He knew it was wrong to feel him up… but his mind had a will of its own. The other hand found its way underneath the shirt as well and began to caress the hot tanned skin.

“Sasuke, what are you doing?” Sasuke looked down into narrowing blue eyes at the harsh words. They very not filled with passion or lust, but anger. Naruto was not embracing the Uchiha anymore, but his hands were still on his shoulders.

“… I… I... “Sasuke was speechless. ´Damn, I’m stuttering like a woman…I’m a god damn Uchiha, and we don’t show that kind of weakness! `

“I do feel for you, Sasuke… I really do… but things have changed… I have changed. Are you even sure that you want to throw the whole ´I want to revive my clan´ thing away just like that? We need to think things over… both of us, Sasuke.” Naruto removed Sasuke´s warm hands from his back and stepped away. “See you tomorrow at the funeral!”

Sasuke stared at the blonde’s back as he left the room without another word. He felt alone and lost. Had he messed up and lost his last chance to win Naruto´s heart? If Naruto kept on rejecting him he would have no reason to live anymore. Sasuke knew that Naruto was moaning his loss.

That suddenly made him think about his own reaction on the confirmation that Naruto gave him. Naruto had loved Itachi… They had been lovers; why was he not more upset about it? Was it because he suspected it?

Confusion overwhelmed him as a tidal wave. There were too many questions and too few answers.

´Do I want to revive my clan?, even though I can’t stand women? ´

´What are my feelings for Naruto? Do I love him or is the fact that I lack to react on his relationship with Itachi a sign, that I only want his body? ´

´Do I want to give Itachi his peace in death away from his tormentors because he was my brother… or because I wanted to please Naruto? ´

´Why didn’t Naruto beat the shit out of me for groping him just now? Does he really… like me after all I have done to him? ´ Sasuke walked towards the frozen corpse and stared at his brother’s peaceful face.

´Itachi… What can I do to make him love me… like he loved you? ´