The longing to be near you

Don’t GLARE at me
I don’t wanna hear it!

Well you see I haven’t updated because A HORSE SAT on me!
And I was stuck underneath it for TWO days!

*Sakura and Naruto point*
naru saku:‘LIAR!!’
Kri-san: ‘what the hell? Who unchained you fuckers from the toilet?!?!
OH don’t TELL me someone unchained Sasuke?!?! That little ass is hell to catch every time he gets loose!’

No no no I’m not lying it really happened!
And then while I was under the horse I had an epiphany
So I decided to write my Kakashi /Anko piece that I promised you…*pouts* I really wanted to make this sasu/naru but you guys would just be to mean to me if I did that now wouldn’t you? Bastards!

Okies
I don’t own anything Naruto related
But I have my favorite ones chained to toilet fixtures!
Ku ku ku ku!


and well despite the yaoi ness i really think in their mindset it is more het or threesome thing...there is no actual sex with sakura but it is implied.
besides this is my ONLY yaoi piece so you have to appreciate it ^_^
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You call me from a phone booth with tears in your voice
Tell me you've been out all night runnin' with the boys
You say you're cold and tired and lonely
And you got no place to go
There wasn't any phonebook
Mine's the only number that you know


“Sasuke? Is that you? I didn’t wake you did I?” I listened to the low voice on the other end of the line and debated whether to answer or not.

“Sasuke? Are you there?” He was starting to sound desperate and lonely, His emotions always came out when he was drunk as if he couldn’t hold it back anymore his lowered inhibitions breaking through his careful cement mask. I decided to take pity on him even knowing what was coming next.

“Yea Naruto I’m here,” I quietly replied careful to not disturb Sakura sleeping curled around her huge belly her face resting angelically on her folded hands. I admired the soft silver sheen of early morning moonlight riding high on her cheekbone as I listened to the uneven breathing on the other end of the line.

“Hey,” was the quiet rejoinder on the other end all that he really wanted to say most likely.


“Naruto no, I wont not tonight not any more,” that was all, I couldn’t give him any more and I didn’t want to it was harder every time to turn him away.


“Please Sasuke I don’t have any money and the guys all left without me, I don’t have anywhere else to go…please just for tonight I’ll never ask again, I know we cant do that I just…I just need to see you, and to see her. Sasuke…” The last word was breathed into the line like a quiet supplication tugging more strings in my heart then I ever cared to acknowledge.


“Okay okay Naruto, but you know that it cant-“ “I know Sasuke…please”


With exasperation heavy in my voice I got the name of the bar that you had just been locked out of and told you to stay put, then I quietly rolled out of bed flinching when my bare feet made contact with the cold floor. Sakura moaned at the rush of cold air followed by the loss of her comfy pillow. I leaned over and rubbed her belly then eased her leg over into a more comfortable position to keep her from waking, since pregnancy she slept like the dead but that still didn’t mean I wanted her getting up for any reason.


Well I call you a taxi and I'll pay 'im at the door
If you don't mind sleepin' on the sofa or on the floor
And I spend an hour hatin' you
'Til the cab pulls in

I waited there in the darkness after throwing pillows and blankets on the couch, the long hour till you get there gives me enough time to work up anger at you all over again at your careless behavior. Since that day you had spent all your time either on missions or drinking away your hours with friends or alone it didn’t matter, but it was only on nights like this that you couldn’t keep yourself from calling me, waking me to comfort you in any way i could.


And i wanted too....oh Gods i wanted to.


The darkness of the room is alleviated when the headlights of the taxi pull up into the driveway, throwing the shadow of the window in relief against the wall. I head for the door opening it to stand on the door step watching you exit the cab and walk up the driveway towards me your face a wide open book for anyone to read, you'd prolly chatted the whole ride there with the driver telling him anything and everything that came to you. You went to move past me but i stood there blocking you from entering then feeling myself relenting when you gave me your sad face, Seeing you there it all comes back to me and I can’t help but sigh.


Then I hear the footsteps the driver's at the door
He says I look familiar has he made this run before
And I tell him I don't think so
What's it matter anyway
Just tell me what the meter reads
And I'll go and get your pay


Well now it's down to you and me though it don't seem right
We both know where we'll be and what we'll do tonight
And after an hour or two
When the night comes to an end
My heart has found another way
To be lovin' you again


You walk through the door and turn to me just looking at me in that hungry way of yours and I ache to touch you to run my hands down smooth golden skin and tangle my hands in equally bright hair. But i hold back unwilling to give into your charms quite so easily, then taking a deep breath i get the first wiff of you and wrinkel my nose, you stink and I motion towards the shower, you raise your eyebrows at the gentle suggestion that you wash up.


“The smell…. it makes her sick since she got pregnant.” You only nod and head towards the bathroom hanging your head at the mention of her, it still hurt even now and ill never ask your forgiveness but I’ll always want it.


Though i know you spend all your free nights drinking I know there has never been anyone else as if a life of faithfulness and solitude will take things back to the way they were, as if that could atone and make things right once more you’d spend every day of the rest of your life alone.


I hear your footsteps as you come down the hall wearing some of my clothes that you just barely fit into. It used to be a joke among us, both of you wearing my clothes around the house and pissing me off when I could find nothing to wear. But I didn’t mind, I thought it was sexy when I could smell either of you on clothes in my drawer I had thought were clean, I’d wear them anyways just to smell you on them all day.


You stand in the hallway watching me and I can’t deny what’s going to happen between us, I guess I couldn’t deny it the minute I answered your voice on the line. I hold my hands out to you and you come to me your eyes half lidded and face slack from alcohol, I look into your eyes and can hardly see any blue your pupils are dilated wide in anticipation. I hold your warm hands to my cheeks and kiss your wrists. The most kissing i ever allow myself teasing those gentle slashes that marked the veins there, a mark to one of the most horrible times in all three of our lives. It had taken a long time for all of us to get over that and it forces me to remember the pleasure it had brought about forcing me to acknowledge my feelings for you the fact that i didnt want to live without you in my life. I threatend you then that if you ever tried anything that stupid again I'd do somthing so outrageously stupid that everyone in the village would point and laugh....and you would miss it. It made you laugh, and we both smiled as we remembered. His hands drifted into my hair pulling me closer, i tugged at the towel covering his loins and slowly took the flaccid memebr in my mouth sucking hard to pull blood into his groin.


And every time is the last time
And every time is the first
Everytime is the last time with you
Oh it never gets no better
And it couldn't get no worse


I leave your lap and my hands slowly travel up your arms and I tug on your shoulders to pull you down on top of me on the couch, to feel your weight on top of me again is beautiful and I allow myself to bury my face in your hair smelling her soap. Your lips meet my ear in the darkness and I lean back to give you access as I lift my knees and open my legs to allow you to rest there in the shell of my body.


We take our time pulling the blankets and pillows around us tucking them in tight so there was no way to move away, so there was no space or coldness left between us. You tell me my eyes are dark and beautiful in the moonlight and you give me the same old insult and smile when you tell me I look better in moonlight pale with shades of black and blue, then still smiling the corners of your eyes turn down “Sakura is the one who looks good in candlelight.”


He was right with her skin and hair she did look good in candle light, its why he spent so much money making sure there were always enough around the house despite the way it made everything stink. His favorite scent had been vanilla and he always bought vanilla candles and every time I came home and smelled them my cock twitched and grew hard with anticipation, if I smelled them even now…. I’d thrown out every vanilla candle in the house.


I shift lifting my legs so they pinched up high on your waist insead of just open letting your hips settle more firmly into mine, you rub yourself in there your cock finally raising as your belly scrapes against me, making me feel as if I will go crazy if you stop and insane if you keep on.


We don’t kiss, I’m not a big kisser and the both of you learned that early on so you stare down at me as your hands drift over my body remembering old scars and gently teasing the sensitive pink of new. I love staring at you while you fuck me, both of you. Sakura had hated it at first and would tell me to look away or close her eyes insisting on turning out the lights, but i would force her back holding her gaze as I grabbed her hips and pumped into her. Sometimes you’d help me holding her head making her, you knew how much it turned me on because there is nothing you can fake and nothing you can hide in that time and her walls would clench and she would want to shut her eyes but I wouldn’t let her any more then I would let you. You never wanted to though you’d just stare right back at me sometimes with love and sometimes in challenge, it was why no matter who topped we always faced one another because you knew I needed that to want to be intimate.


There is very little foreplay between us and except for the shifting of bedding and harsh breathing everything is silent in the house. My shorts were already gone and your towel lay somewhere beneath me to keep from staining the couch, we had learned that lesson early on. Your fingers went down and grazed along the head of my cock spreading the pre-cum onto the head and shaft, I always had a lot of precum always making you laugh saying it was probably because I was to frigid to ever touch myself so I had ‘unhealthy backups’ but it worked out well for nights like this, there was more then enough slickness for you to reach down and gently insert a finger inside me working the hand back up to allow more to slide onto your fingers then reaching down once more to work a second finger in.


You lean over and start rubbing your cock against mine stimulating me to moan and arch my back as you hit that sweet spot up high, I admired your length relishing in the difference between us, while I was long and rather thin you were about an inch shorter then me but VERY thick I was always stretched horribly after you had used me and it always took me days to get the full elasticity back.


Its now or never and you raise my legs higher and enter me with few preliminaries, I allow this relishing in that first feel of your penetration despite the biting pain, and wondered again if this was how women felt, tender at first at being stretched but always relishing that full feeling. Naruto was perfect for this there was no way anyone couldn’t feel full with a tool like that up your ass, stretching you tight around him. I hiss in pain to give him what he wanted to hear but I still love it despite that, and I try to relax to ease him in.


It was quick and hard with no words of love or talking as the couch slowly creaked back and forth as he continued to work me into the cushions pushing me deeper in with every shove of his hips. I couldn’t take it any more the feel every time your head nudged my prostate the feel of your belly rubbing my cock, and I rocked my hips back up into you and came over your belly and chest a small dribble even hitting your nipple my eyes forcefully locked on yours as my muscles clenched down on you forcing you to stop moving. The only sound that could be heard then was your grunt and muffled squirting as I felt cum rush into my bowels causing a familiar discomfort deep in my belly. I hated when you came inside I think you did it just to punish me you asshole and my eyes shoot sparks in reprimand but you just quirk that stupid grin at me as you wiggled just a bit to make me feel it all over again.

"Oi, Sasuke you didnt really need to tear my back open!" your voice laughs and your eyes laugh with it and i blush realizing i had clawed my hands down your back in my excitement.


But the lassitude of the moment settles down over both of us and I reach up and pull your head down into my neck, even now we don’t kiss but I just want you to be close to me for now…until morning when I would force you out the door into the cold once more, just like every other time before tonight. I can’t deny you in the middle of the night that’s why you always chose your time to call well. It doesn’t matter because I’m determined to have you gone before she wakes and you can see it in my eyes.

It pisses you off doesn’t it? That I wont let you see her? Yea I can see that it does and that this isn’t enough for you, you want to punish me for being cruel but you love me instead and I can understand, that love of yours is its own kind of punishment to me.


I know she thinks about you sometimes when we make love. She closes her eyes as I pound into her and I know its you she feels deep inside her, that its your eyes she stares at when she goes blank with no expression when she comes. She misses you as much as you miss her she is just to stubborn to admit that and she doesn’t want to hurt me by letting me know, to make me think that she might like you over me.


Its ok I know my faults I don’t try to deny them, or the fact that I will never be able to give her as much as you could, to be able to love her in a way the you would be able to. She always wanted me but in a way we know she just settled for second best just cause second best was what she was prepared to handle and what she always thought she wanted. Damn she could be so stubborn. You could always handle her when she got like that but I can’t I just close up and abandon her which I know is wrong, I disappoint her but I don’t know how to make myself stop when your not around to help be the buffer between our emotions and pain.


I know that there should be more to say I'll just read your mind
Let's save what's left unsaid for another time
'Cause I know there'll be another time
So until then
My heart has found another way
To be lovin' you again


A soft sound breaks up our staring contest and I look into the shadows with dawning horror, there she sat in the chair watching us laying together with my legs wrapped around him, the fact that he still lay deep inside me more then obvious. She had always liked to watch us and would insist on staying in the room but I would never let her when he topped I just couldn’t stand to have her see me open and vulnerable that way and there she sat watching us, Me spread like some whore beneath him.


Sitting there naked with her belly stretched out before her, and I wait for her to cry to yell and hate me for allowing myself this thing I had denied them both all this time. Naruto shifts above me looking over at her, and smiles reaching a hand out to gently coax her over to us not bothering to leave me despite my wiggles and increasing protests, I just wanted to run to get away from the accusation I would see in those green eyes.


I grow still as I feel her stop at the head of the couch and Naruto’s hand leaves the warmth to reach out and gently rub her belly feeling the round softness I had grown so familiar with these last eight months.


“How is our baby doing Sakura? Are you all right?” his eyes grew bright with happiness and unshed tears, “God baby I missed you so much.”


She just continued to stare down and I refused to look at her burying my face in Naruto’s shoulder waiting to hear her voice raise with anger, but to my surprise she just leaned over playing with the ends of narutos damp hair with the other coming to cover Naruto’s still stroking her.

“Our babies are doing fine Naruto…did Sasuke tell you that its twins?” she softly replied.


“Hai, he told me… congratulations,” his voice cracked at the end emotion flooding his voice Sasuke then felt the cool long fingers drift into his own hair and tug on his ear in gentle reprimand making him flinch but also easing his tension somewhat.


“Come on boys, the bed is more comfortable I’m not going to try to fit this big belly of mine on the couch with the two of you. Plus it’s cold in there all alone.”


She softly padded back to the bedroom leaving the men to stare after her, they looked at one another with astonishment then Naruto smirked in triumph as he quickly pulled himself out of Sasuke as he headed for the bathroom and then the big comfy bed waiting for him with warm arms and warm welcome. Sasuke lay there all the while hearing Naruto wash up in the bathroom then throwing himself on the bed with exuberance making Sakura giggle.


My heart has found another way
To be lovin' you again


I slowly crawled off the couch aching in spots that hadn’t ached this way in months, and limped over to the bathroom expelling what was left of Naruto out of my body. The bedroom was waiting for me and I walked in to see Naruto lying spooned behind Sakura with his head pillowed on her shoulder as if it hadn’t been 8 months since he had lain there last. I stood in the doorway feeling left out wanting to be apart of this…I had thought if I pushed him out if I made him go away I would have this all to myself and I wouldn’t have to share it with him anymore but it just didn’t work that way. And I looked away hating myself for denying them all for so long and wanting to just leave and walk out in the night…they didn’t need me to love each other but I needed him to love anything.


“Teme!” Naruto barked as Sasuke turned to go, he paused looking back as Naruto just lifted the sheet inviting him in “come on Sasuke this belly is gunna get cold without you.”


And just that easily I was invited back in to the inner circle forgiven for my mistakes, I lay down with Sakura’s knees nudging my thighs, my stomach cupping hers as I stared at Naruto over her shoulder feeling their warmth seep all the way back into my bones.


And Naruto stared right back at me and smiled and i allowed myself to breathe knowing that suddenly it was all okay…

Oh, my heart has found another way
To be lovin' you again


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So This is all from sasukes POV and he is a bit of an EMO person, basiclly if you didnt understand some of that here is a break down. Sakura/naruto/sasuke were in a relationship together. When sakura found out she was pregnant with one of their babies Sasuke got jealous of how close sakura and naruto were, the fact that they could be so close. So sasuke tells naruto to hit the road and that the two of them would do better with out him "blah blah blah the baby should have just one father and all that" Sakura is quite aware of any relationship between sasuke and naruto so no its nots cheating really. But sasuke loves naruto and naruto loves both of them and knows sasuke cant resist when he calls int he middle of the night, so he calls and just want to see sasuke because they are the only family he has, he stay away so sasuke can figure out his problems. But in the end it comes down to sakura who made it easy for Sasuke to accept naruto back....so everything is better

Were you disappointed that there was no real Kakashi? did you like how i abused him so? HA! That makes me laugh!
I laugh at your pain ha ha!

This song which most of you Narutards wont know is performed and I think written by Emmylou Harris a country western/blue grass singer. But this song is really great and I listened to it again on the ride home, it’s a very slow song and you can hear how lonely she is and upset to have this guy call her even after they have broken up…but she also cant resist him when he asks her like that. She wants to be apart from him but she wants to be together…she wants to be wanted and he does.

So I will leave you with this!
Yamanoue No Okure:
A dialogue on poverty

On nights when, wind mixes in, rain falls
On nights when, rain mixes in, Snow falls

Profound yes? HA HA I just made you smarter despite all your efforts to the contrary! I WIN AGAIN!!
And my own personal quote

“May God protect me from common sense. Common sense would finish me off in a week, and it would be the most miserable death imaginable. Common sense destroys anything of meaning within me, common sense saps my vigor, erotic and intellectual alike.
God Save me from Plague, Typhus, And Common Sense”