The Agreement

I want to thank the people who read the ending author’s note of last chapter, and wished me to feel better. I was a bit confused at first actually. Then I realized I had talked about my medical problems in Asia. It struck me that I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned before that I’m diabetic (type I, the more severe form, also known as Juvenile Diabetes). My medical issues were because eating all the new foods without knowing the carb count screwed up my blood sugar numbers.

The only reason I decided to clarify this was since today happens to be my sixth year anniversary of being diagnosed, I feel strangely compelled to talk about being diabetic. I used to take shots of insulin before I got on an insulin pump, which is a pager-sized machine that is attached to my body all the time. Sleeping with it can be a pain in the butt at times, and it’s definitely not a fashion statement, but it actually makes life so much easier, and I couldn’t live without it. Literally.

Yes, so sorry, for the ramblings. I’m just a bit weird today. Enjoy the chapter!

The Agreement

Chapter 24: Heart-Breaking

Sasuke sat alone in his kitchen, clutching his cup of tea in both hands. He had turned only one of the two kitchen lights on, only ridding some of the darkness of the hour, content to sit in partial darkness as he gripped his cup tightly. The first time he had done it twenty minutes ago, the touch had been almost unbearably hot, but since then the tea had long since cooled. Part of Sasuke had half a mind to reheat the tea to keep clutching it to remind himself that he couldn't do with his hands what he wanted to do.

What he had been doing last night.

A convulsion ran through Sasuke's body, his hands shaking despite the grip he had on the cup in front of him.

He could still feel Naruto's skin beneath his fingers. He could still feel the way that Naruto's body had responded to his touch.

No, the way that Naruto himself had responded to his touch.

Sasuke's breathing sped up at the images that began to run through his head, the feelings inside of him seemingly wanting to choke him with how strong and fast they came.

When Sasuke had forced himself on Naruto, he'd felt so unfulfilled after his release. Last night after his release he had felt almost bursting with emotions, filled beyond the brim with feelings.

He could clearly remember the way that Naruto had moaned his name when he'd run his hands over his body for the second time. They had fooled around on the bed for a while, Sasuke straddling Naruto's body, grinding against Naruto until their erections had become too sore with the force they had thrust themselves together.

It had felt too good, despite the pain to stop. Thrust after thrust of his erection grinding against Naruto’s had been pure bliss.

It had been Naruto who had taken the initiative after that. A part of Sasuke still had a hard time grasping the idea that Naruto had gone from being so uninvolved in their initial foreplay, to joining in so enthusiastically. Sasuke had such a hard time believing it that he actually activated his sharingan to replay the memory from there, since he had activated it as soon as Naruto's demeanor changed. He'd wanted to make sure that he would be able to relive the moment over and over again.

Sasuke's breath shuddered in and out, clutching the cup tighter as he replayed the vivid memory in his mind, remembering it so vividly with his sharingan that it felt as though it were happening again.

Sasuke felt the pressure of Naruto's sweaty hands on his chest as his beloved pushed roughly against his chest. The sudden push caught Sasuke by surprise, and he rolled off onto his side before Naruto rolled on top of him, pinning him beneath him.

Naruto gripped his wrists, clamping his grip tightly around Sasuke's wrists so he wouldn't struggle against him. Not that Sasuke would; he was too stunned with Naruto's action to speak.

"You are being kinda scary. You trying to rub our skin off by friction?" Naruto asked. He'd meant it as a joke, but his voice was husky with lust. It was a tone that Sasuke wasn't used to hearing, especially not directed at him.

Blue eyes traveled down Sasuke's body, looking over everything. A slight blush crept up on Naruto's cheeks as though embarrassed by his desire to look at Sasuke. Sasuke mused that he probably was a bit embarrassed, or perhaps feeling a bit guilty, but it was Naruto, so it was to be expected.

When Naruto finally released one of Sasuke's hands, Sasuke felt frozen, watching as Naruto's fingers began to brush along his chest, slightly tanned fingers running down his pale biceps. He couldn't suppress the shudder than ran through him at the feather-light touch.

Naruto smirked down at him.

Sasuke licked his lips as Naruto moved his straddled legs lower on Sasuke's, giving himself room to continue to travel his fingers down Sasuke's body. Sasuke's cock was throbbing in anticipation as Naruto's fingers trailed down along his right side, passing his cock that laid hard against his stomach, brushing against the black curls of his pubic hair.

When those fingers gently stroked his dark curls, Sasuke arced his body upward, resulting in Naruto clutching Sasuke’s other hand down hard, forcing him back down onto the bed by pressing his body against his while Sasuke's free hand clutched wildly at the sheets.

A part of Sasuke wanted to stop Naruto from moving so slowly, once again regaining control of the situation, but another part of him was relishing in the fact that Naruto was enjoying what he was doing. It was the only thing that stopped him from grasping Naruto's hips closer to his cock and thrusting inside of him.

Finally, after what seemed like hours of light touches around where he wanted it the most, those wicked fingers ghosted over Sasuke's cock. He couldn't help but gasp, his eyes widening in pleasured surprise at the intense feeling of such a light touch. Naruto smirked triumphantly.

"Come on bastard. Don't tell me the great genius Uchiha Sasuke didn't know how much pleasure comes after pain? You look like you didn't expect that to feel as good as it did after all that friction. For someone who claimed to be scary, you're being pretty tame, letting me pet you down and all."

Naruto was taunting him, and he'd be damned if he was just going to let that go without doing anything about it.

Sasuke pressed his body upward, not bothering to suppress a moan as his cock pressed against Naruto's body in his momentum to thrust his lover off of him. He gripped both of Naruto's arms and jerked them roughly above Naruto's head and pressed hard against him, jerking Naruto into the bed.

"Are you trying to tell me something Naruto? You like it rough and then nice and slow?" Sasuke murmured. His chest was heaving. Naruto's eyes widened at the question, but he didn't wait for Naruto to respond.

He gripped Naruto's arms as he half-rolled off the bed, tugging Naruto along with him. Naruto stumbled at the awkward angle and the momentum of Sasuke's pull, but Naruto didn't have time to truly regain his balance before Sasuke pushed his body roughly chest first up against a wall.

"Mmpf," Naruto grunted as Sasuke pressed his front flush with Naruto's back. Using the wall, Naruto braced his arms against it, attempting to push himself away from it, but Sasuke grabbed his arms, and laid one on top of the other so he could hold both of Naruto's arms with one hand.

Sasuke used his feet to force Naruto's legs wider apart and slightly away from the wall as his free hand steadied himself against Naruto's waist.

"Hard and then soft?" Sasuke asked.

"I never said – tha – aaah!" Naruto's word turned into a pained cry as Sasuke gave no warning, not even bother for preparation as he thrust himself all the way inside of Naruto. Sasuke saw Naruto blink at the start of tears in his eyes. "Ouch," Naruto grunted. For some reason, Sasuke had to stifle the sudden urge to laugh at Naruto.

Sasuke knew that it probably hadn't hurt Naruto as much as it would have hurt if Naruto had shoved right into him since Naruto's girth was quite a bit thicker, but he refrained. Instead, Sasuke held his tongue and remembered his desire to try this position almost two years ago when he had first taken Naruto by force.

Sasuke waited for a moment, relishing in being inside Naruto again, waiting for Naruto to say something. He figured the silence meant Naruto wasn't objecting to anything yet. For that, Sasuke was grateful as he continued to relish in the way that Naruto felt against him.

He had forgotten nothing. Sasuke remembered the exact feel of Naruto's cock in his hand, the way that Naruto's body responded to his. No longer needing his hand to steady his initial thrust into Naruto, he snaked his hand from Naruto's waist to his cock, wanting not just to remember things, but to feel the way that Naruto was thicker than he was, slightly shorter in length, and also just a tad curved. Sasuke liked the feel of Naruto’s slightly curved cock in his hand; it allowed him to grip it better from behind, contouring to the shape of the slight outward curl of his fingers. Naruto gasped slightly as Sasuke gave a light squeeze to his penis.

Sasuke recalled from the last time that he had entered Naruto by that depth that he was inside of Naruto that he had hit Naruto's prostate. The question was, how much did it hurt Naruto? He figured he needed to remind Naruto how good it could get.

"You remember bits and pieces of what happened between us from before. You know how good this will feel," Sasuke said, his voice thick with pleasure as he promised Naruto his own pleasure as well. Naruto nodded, and Sasuke moved.

His fingers jerked loosely around Naruto's cock, pulling down as Sasuke pulled out slightly before he thrust slowly back in while his hand jerked upward. Sasuke set a slow pace from the beginning, doing just as he had said: first pain, then slow, soft pleasure. He didn’t bother to thrust shallow as he pushed himself as far into Naruto as he could. Naruto hissed and gasped in pain the first several thrusts, but the gasps turned to moans and the hisses turned to grunts. Naruto began to precum, and Sasuke took no time in using the precum to coat his fingers and the palm of his hand to allow him to slide easier over Naruto's shaft and cock head.

Naruto began to thrust back against him, and Sasuke had to move his hand from where he held onto Naruto's arms so he could give himself better leverage as Naruto's backward thrusts were putting him off balance. Sasuke wrapped his right arm around the front of Naruto's chest, his finger grasping tightly across Naruto's front as he dug his fingers into Naruto's left shoulder, pulling Naruto even tighter against him. Sasuke bit into Naruto's right shoulder. Though it might have hurt, Naruto didn't cry out in pain. Naruto leaned his head forward against where his arms propped him against the wall, he began to pant faster and faster, as the slow pace started to pick up speed.

"Sasuke!" Naruto panted. His name on Naruto's lips made Sasuke moan deeply as he thrust faster into Naruto, moaning Naruto's name before thrusting himself wildly inside of Naruto as his orgasm swept over him. His body jerked slower but harder into Naruto as he came, and Sasuke was only feebly aware of still gripping onto Naruto's cock as he felt the euphoria of his orgasm.

The way Naruto's pants increased followed by his sudden cry and the tightening of his body around Sasuke's let Sasuke know Naruto had found his release too.

Sasuke's body tensed, feeling his orgasm near the surface, and he had to suddenly deactivate his sharingan to prevent himself from releasing in the middle of his kitchen.

Taking a breath in and out, Sasuke willed his body to be calm as he took a long glance around the kitchen, remembering that he had just been reviewing his sharingan-captured memory, not that he was actually in the situation.

He honestly hadn't expected that the memory would be nearly as erotic as the actual experience, and it almost felt like a wave of vertigo hit him as he tried to push the past away from his mind and focus on the present.

"Damnit," Sasuke snarled under his breath, angry with himself. His body was all hot and bothered again, and that hadn't even been the most pleasurable of the experiences from the night before. Frankly, Sasuke had lost count of how many different positions they had tried last night. After waking up this morning he had come down here in order to escape his body's desires to repeat the exact same thing.

It was too damn hard.

Naruto's stamina was something that Sasuke had thoroughly enjoyed last night, but in the end, it had worn both of them out.

Waking up tangled up against Naruto's naked body had made his libido want to ignore three very important things: one) he really should let Naruto sleep so that both their bodies could rest two) fucking Naruto while he was asleep would be like raping him – again.

So Sasuke sat in his kitchen, grasping his tea, watching his knuckles turn white as he appreciated the sturdiness of the cup clenched in his hands, idly wondering if he could break the thick ceramic around the cup. Sighing, he got up from the table and reheated his tea so that he could grasp the hot drink to remind his hands that he needed to keep them to himself for the time being if he wanted to –

"I wondered where you'd gone to," Naruto murmured sleepily as he padded barefoot into the kitchen and helped himself to making ramen. "It's not even 5:00 yet. The quads won't be up for at least another two and a half hours."

Sasuke took a gulp of his reheated tea, allowing it to scorch along his tongue so he also remembered he really shouldn't pounce on Naruto, crush his lips against Naruto's and demanded his tongue entrance to mouth rape Naruto. He took a deep breath.

Even if he hadn't scared Naruto last night, he was sure as hell scaring himself with his flimsy self-control now.

In an attempt to regain control of his composure, Sasuke settled with just enjoying watching how Naruto seemed so at home here, moving about the kitchen. Sasuke and Hinata had made sure to let Naruto know he was welcome to help himself to anything and everything in the house when he visited. (The ramen stock was specifically for him.) For some reason, watching Naruto so at ease here pleased Sasuke and warmed his heart in pleasure rather than his body.

"Did you check up on the quads before coming down here?" Sasuke asked, already knowing the answer. Naruto nodded.

"Sound asleep," Naruto added.

Sasuke nodded then too. He had also checked his children before coming downstairs.

"You know, part of me expected to get woken up by you molesting me," Naruto confessed after a few moments of silence. He laughed a bit nervously after his confession.

"I thought about it," Sasuke admitted. Naruto rubbed the back of his head, seemingly unsure of himself. Something about the way that Naruto's body moved, the tension in his usual actions put Sasuke on guard, and he suddenly felt anxious.

"Last night," Naruto began hesitantly, and those words put Sasuke even more on edge. He feared what Naruto might say. "It-"

"Did you enjoy it?" Sasuke interrupted. He suddenly felt the need to stop Naruto from talking. Naruto seemed taken aback by the abrupt interjection, though he recovered quickly with a roll of his eyes.

"Obviously," Naruto snapped, though he blushed, and then mumbled. "Did you?"

"Obviously," Sasuke said, and he couldn't help but smirk at Naruto – and himself. They were acting like insecure, first time lovers who both feared rejection. Sasuke felt he had good reason to fear rejection, but he had a feeling he understood Naruto's uncertainty at the moment.

The fact that Sakura cheated on Naruto had not only crushed his heart and his sense of trust in her, but it had also made him doubt himself. Sasuke had felt that doubt when Naruto had shared the pain of being cheated on. Sasuke could relate to a certain degree. The fact that Naruto had seemed to know what he was doing to Sasuke’s body sexually, seeing how experienced he acted, had made Sasuke feel slightly insecure.

Lovers who only had one partner their whole life never had to wonder if they were better or worse than their lover's ex partner(s). It was a factor that Sasuke had known about when arranging everything. He'd actually read into some psychological studies, doing research as he tried to gauge how Naruto might react to the news of finding out he'd had children with someone other than his wife. During that research, Sasuke had stumbled upon a few non-related studies that dealt with relationships. One such study explained how some people felt a need to prove themselves to their partner: the need for reassurance if the partner was a virgin and was with a lover than had had previous partners. The study went on to say that the need for lovers to prove themselves sexually capable also cropped up when an affair had occurred. If a person got cheated on, said person always questioned what wasn’t good enough about themselves to keep their partner satisfied, and that a lot of times one of the insecurities was their bedroom performance.

Sasuke had actually scoffed at the article's findings. If you really are in love than a person shouldn't have to worry about how the other person views the sex. A relationship is about love, not sex, right? However, even Naruto had been insecure about how Sakura would react to him sexually now knowing that she'd slept with Lee.

Now that Sasuke had slept with Naruto, he truly appreciated the feeling of wondering whether or not he could truly give Naruto everything he'd sexually had with Sakura. Stupid, stupid, unnecessary insecurity, but one that would nag at him.

Sometimes the consequences of lust could suck. Sasuke detested feeling insecure.

"Earth to Sasuke," Naruto said, waving his hand in front of Sasuke's face. Sasuke snapped back to attention.

"Just thinking about a psychological study I wasn't sure if I agreed with the findings," Sasuke murmured. Naruto raised his eyebrows at Sasuke.

"Er, really? Before 5:00 in the morning? That's not like you to think so much so early especially about whatever it was you just said. You're not a morning person," Naruto mused, and Sasuke glared at him. "That was why I came to see what was wrong," Naruto murmured. Sasuke's glare died instantly.

"What?"

"You weren't next to me when I woke up. You don't get up out of bed early in the morning if you can help it, unless it's something important or if there's something bothering you," Naruto said wisely. The worry made Sasuke feel less anxious. Not only was Naruto concerned about him but it also always felt good when Naruto let on how well he knew Sasuke.

"It took me off-guard at how willing you were last night," Sasuke said bluntly. Naruto didn't answer for a moment as he poured his hot water into his cup of ramen.

"What do you want me to say Sasuke?" Naruto said, sounding slightly bitter. "You're my most important person. With all the thoughts you pushed into my head, it made it kind of hard not to want to see what we could do together. Sometimes I don't think you realize how much I've obsessed over you," Naruto murmured.

"Coming after me when I left Konoha-"

"Not just that," Naruto interrupted. "Mostly, and more recently, the quads," Naruto said.

"What do you mean?" Sasuke asked slowly, slightly confused. Naruto rolled his eyes.

"Come on Sasuke. Do you think I would have offered myself to baby-sit so much if it was anyone else but you? I loved the quads because I thought they were yours. I never had a family Sasuke, and I know how much losing yours hurt you. There was no way I could not be part of the quads' lives if I wanted to make sure I was part of what would be key in making you happy. Knowing that you wanted it to be me that gave you your family…well…that means more to me than you realize."

Sasuke couldn't think of anything to say. It seemed too surreal for Naruto to confess all of this to him. He felt numb. Thankfully a small part of his brain was still working, registering that what Naruto said made a whole hell of a lot of sense. It was actually rather heart warming.

The fact that Naruto had been more pissed off that Sasuke had lied to him than the fact that he had raped him was reiterated with Naruto's words. The mystery of why Naruto had been so adamant about helping with the quads' right from the get go was answered, though Sasuke would still always like to think that part of Naruto knew had subconsciously known that the children were his and that was why he wanted to be around them so much. Naruto's deep in take of breath brought him back from his musings.

"Listen, last night-"

"G-good morning."

Sasuke and Naruto both jumped slightly, startled by Hinata's timid voice. They both muttered a good morning response, but neither could look Hinata in the eye.

Upon waking up that morning, the third thing that had kept Sasuke’s libido from taking over and jumping Naruto had been the sound of Hinata's quiet, heart-breaking sobs.

Sasuke looked over at Naruto, and saw that he looked slightly ashamed of himself. It appeared that Naruto had heard her too. His guilt made it hard for him to be angry that Hinata had interrupted their discussion. There were still so many things he wanted to ask Naruto.

Then again, perhaps it was good that Hinata was here. They had a lot to talk about, though Sasuke knew it wasn’t going to be an easy discussion. In some ways, Sasuke would rather face Sakura than Hinata. It was easy to get mad at Sakura, but almost impossible for him to get mad at Hinata.

Sasuke took a calming breathing, pushing away the guilt that told him that he had asked for Hinata’s help, and he had caused her pain. First things first. He and Hinata needed to know: was Naruto going to stay with them?

Or would he go back to Sakura?

Sasuke wasn’t looking forward to this discussion.


Next Chapter: So Many Questions


FYI, the next online update will not be until Sunday because I will be at Otakon this weekend. For those of you who don’t know what that is it’s an anime convention. For those of you who are going, since I am already printing out a copy for my lovely friend, and fellow author, lL0tus, if you have any desire to get a paper copy on Saturday, let me know. I’ll be dressed as a (clothed) “version” of Naruto’s sexy no jutsu. (My fiancé might even be dressed up as Sasuke!)

Till Sunday! ~ Jelp