I like to watch him sleep

 A/N I changed the order of the chapters because I realized I didn't have a chapter of Naruto's POV between Sasuke's chapters. I'm all about symmetry I guess.

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I’m starting to get used to having Sasuke back in Konoha. And I’m actually starting to get used to spending time together. At first I was startled every time I would see him in town. Like I should grab him so he couldn’t escape. I guess I spent so many years searching for him that it’s a hard habit to break.

I’ve noticed something else too. He looks at me a lot. He used to avoid my gaze. Now it seems like he is always trying to catch my eye. I just wish I knew what he was thinking. I’ve waited for so long to have him look at me but now I don’t know what it means. Is he wondering why I’m always hanging around him? Is he wondering what ever made us become friends? Maybe he’s just trying to figure out why I seem to be looking at him so often myself.

I feel unsettled and confused. I don’t want to think about it anymore. I just want to be close. Close enough to touch… close enough to hold… close enough to feel every breath that leaves his lips.

Ah…his lips. I love to watch his mouth. I like the careful way he forms his words. I like the smiles that come so infrequently. I like the smirks that I now seldom get to see. I can’t figure out why he doesn’t seem to smirk very often anymore. When we were young his smirks were about the only expression he seemed to have around me.

Careful… it’s like he’s being too careful. I don’t want careful. I want his emotions. Anger, contentment, competitiveness… whatever wants to come out would be fine with me. I feel like pushing him. Pushing him to react. Now that he’s finally looking at me, I want him to do something. He has to do something because I can’t.

If I did what I wanted to do… I’m afraid he would leave again. I’m always the one to act. I’m always the one to charge right in and think about the consequences later. But I can’t this time. The risk is too great. And the loss would be more than I could handle.

I want him to do something to change this stalemate we seem to be in. I need him to do something. Anything. It can’t stay like this.