Broken Kunai

DarkAngelJudas: (Got your message btw ^_^) He's not JUST jealous. There's some plot being laid. *dramatic music* Sasuke's a trooper. And I think there is one thing we can all say about Sasuke: He does not give up.
borderlinecrazy: I love beating up on these two emotionally.
elhan: ^_^
ReaperninHiro: Is it jealousy? *evil smile*
Rosebunse: That's seems to be the consisance, Kakashi was being bitchy. ^_^
Silverfox588: Thank you. As I said, it is one of my favorite seduction scenes.

Thanks to PhenoixInnocence for a little betaing. ^_^

I'm posting this as my Ravens lead the 49er's, during the power outage. ^_^ Go Ravens!!!! I will accept your hate mail.

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Sasuke hadn’t heard what the ANBU captain and Kakashi were talking about, but he knew when he was being thrown out. Neither he nor the captain spoke as they returned to Sasuke’s walled off home.

When they arrived, the captain didn’t vanish into the shadows like the others. “It’s near the end of my shift,” the captain said. He grabbed glasses and a pitcher of water and sat down across from Sasuke at the table. He poured the water and offered it up for a toast. “To fickle lovers.”

Sasuke answered the toast and drank. The captain lifted his mask just enough to take a drink. Sasuke growled.

They had talked over tea before. The captain had been assigned to Sasuke from the start and their chakra had become so familiar to each other, it seemed impossible not to start talking over the last few months. When Sasuke started going to see Kakashi, he was forced to admit that he was in love with Kakashi.

“I take it you finally did it?” the captain asked.

“Yeah. Wasn’t as hard as I thought it’d be. Damn, he fucked me through two orgasms. What’s his problem? He knew what he was doing; it’s not like I got him drunk or anything.”

“Sometimes lust can be just as intoxicating.”

“Hn.” Sasuke squirmed a little, sure he could feel Kakashi’s cum inside him.

“How was it?”

Sasuke wouldn’t look at him. “It hurt at first, but then it was just so good I lost myself.” Sasuke couldn’t hide a blush with his pale skin. “I think I might have said a few . . . I sounded like a slut.”

“That’s not usually a bad thing when in bed.”

“He fucked me and then threw me out like a whore. The only reason I wasn’t put out earlier was that he fell asleep.”

The captain had grown to know Sasuke well enough to see that Sasuke was beginning to have a small panic attack though he didn’t easily show any emotion. Sasuke was feeling like he’d lost everything, that he’d been shut out and permanently rejected.

“Sasuke.” The Uchiha looked at him. “Calm down. It’s not the end of the world. Go back tomorrow and talk to him.”

Sasuke took a deep breath and nodded. “I’ve just loved him for so long. I felt so happy just a few hours ago and then to be rejected like that after we . . .”

“It was sudden for him. He was probably just swept away by you and sort of panicked. Everything will look better in the morning. For both of you. Get some sleep and don’t worry now; worry tomorrow.”

“Yeah, okay.” Sasuke drained his glass of water and stood. “Thanks.”

“Sleep well.”

The captain stayed a minute longer. He hoped everything would work out between the two of them. He was forbidden from telling Sasuke, but his probation was nearing an end. Kakashi was just the thing to anchor him to Konoha once and for all.

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Kakashi felt Sasuke’s presence before Sasuke knocked on the door. He wanted to ignore him, but after thoroughly fucking him as he did, Kakashi felt obliged to acknowledge his existence. He opened the door, his one visible eye a bit hostile.

“One minute,” Sasuke said, looking as unflappable as ever.

Kakashi nodded and let him in. Kakashi leaned against the wall and didn’t offer Sasuke a seat. Sasuke closed the door and leaned back against it.

“Since you basically threw me out, I just wanted to clarify that I never did or ever will use genjutsu on you, I just came on pretty strong. I’m sorry if I . . . if you felt pushed into it. I was really happy last night. I really do love you. If you let me, I’ll do anything for you. I’ll be anything for you. And it’s not just sex; I’d be alright if you just let me come over like before, but I want to be your lover. I probably should have said all this first. Just give me a chance, please. That’s all I ask: don’t push me away.”

“You broke my heart.” Sasuke looked frightened at Kakashi’s words. “I loved you like a little brother or a son. I put all my hopes in you. Not in my own sensei’s son, but in you who reminded me of myself. I understood why you left; that wasn’t it. I knew how driven you were by revenge that when I found Naruto, I decided to let you go. You chose your path.

“But when you tried to kill the three of us and spoke to us and looked at us with such unwavering scorn . . . I really believed that it was my duty to kill you. To kill my son. Even looking back, at that point I was right; at the time there was no other choice. I wasn’t wrong. You may have come to your senses, but you broke my heart that day. I hate you for making me feel that way. It was crippling. I closed myself off after that. I tried to forget you, but Naruto still won’t shut up about you. Then you force your way back into my life. I hate you as much as I love you.”

Sasuke’s head had sunk as Kakashi berated him with an even voice. He then surprised Kakashi by sinking to his knees to a formal position with his head down. “I apologize. I was out of my mind when I spoke to you that day. I hated the three of you at the time because you were inside my head trying to make me see reason, see that there was happiness to be found despite the fact my family was betrayed and killed, my brother manipulated, and I was left alone and manipulated. My memory of you three was the conscience that I wanted to silence. I struck out at you and was cruel to you because you represented the village I hated and the happiness I was denied and had chosen to deny myself. Please, forgive me. I love you. I promise never to break your heart again. Unless it’s by my death, which will be against my will. I will never willingly leave you. Give me a chance to make amends.”

Kakashi stared at him. “Please, Kakashi,” Sasuke pleaded, almost ready to cry.

Kakashi took a step forward, crouched, and stroked Sasuke’s hair. Sasuke slowly raised his head. Kakashi’s eye wasn’t soft, but it wasn’t harsh.

“You’re staying for now on?”

“Yes.”

“You disappoint me again, I swear I’ll kill you myself.”

“Hai.”

Kakashi stood and Sasuke stood as well.

“You really love me?” Kakashi asked.

“I do. You never visited me and, though I knew I was allowed to visit you, I didn’t because I felt that you didn’t want to see me. But once you retired, I saw an opening and took it.

“I don’t kneel down to anyone, not even the Hokage when we were discussing my pardon. The only thing stronger than love—and loyalty to the clan—for an Uchiha is pride. If you think about it, love is the most important thing to the Uchiha. Madara loved his brother, Obito loved Rin—” Kakashi tried not to wince at his teammates’ names “—Itachi loved me, and I loved Itachi and my parents. I also love you. I’ll do anything for you. I let you fuck me, I got on my knees. I truly love you. You love me?”

“You were always my favorite and you are so beautiful. Yes.”

Kakashi was visibly softening to him, but he still had doubts in his eye.

“My life’s over, Sasuke. And you’re just so young.”

“Guess I have a thing for older men. You and Naruto have always meant the most to me since Itachi left me. I’ve never loved Naruto, but you understood me and you represent power, confidence, and safety to me. The way you swept in to save Sakura from me and the way you assured us as kids . . . I trust you. I’ve also always found you attractive and even a bit mysterious, even more attractive.”

“Then maybe I should never show you my face.”

“If that’s your choice, but I hope you’ll let me see. Only me.”

Kakashi pulled down his mask. He hadn’t shaved and the dusting of white stubble gave him an attractive scruffy look. He was more handsome than Sasuke could have imagined.

“Damn, you’re gorgeous.”

“Coming from someone as beautiful as you, I’m flattered.”

Kakashi pulled Sasuke into a kiss. After a minute, Kakashi eased Sasuke’s face away and he looked at the younger man’s face, his eye darting all over it as if trying to etch the way he looked right now into his brain: not scowling, eyes wide, lips red, swelled, and parted. Then he pulled him back into an even more desperate kiss.

The kiss was so desperate that it felt like they would die if they stopped. Fresh air wasn’t as important as the other’s breath. Sasuke was practically hanging from him while Kakashi was trying to pull Sasuke into him, into his chest. He wasn’t even aroused, he just wanted Sasuke here, wanted him to be a part of him. The way Sasuke wasn’t struggling against the tight hold, he knew Sasuke felt the same.

They were growing lightheaded from lack of air and they only stopped because they were on the verge of passing out.

“Move in with me,” Sasuke said, his voice breathy, having not gotten his breath back.

Kakashi’s lungs were trying to refill too so he just nodded.

Outside, the ANBU captain smiled behind his mask. He knew Sasuke needed someone and Kakashi was probably the only man living who could stand beside the young Uchiha; he would be a reason for Sasuke to come home. And Kakashi needed someone to live for too.

The captain signaled to his fellows to make themselves comfortable, they would be staying here for at least a few hours.

TBC