Questionable Loyalty

A/N: Finally, this chapter is done! It took me forever, because I watched the new version of Advent Children, and got completely distracted from the Naruto fandom altogether for a few days. What can I say, it had NAKED KADAJ! And naked Loz and Yazoo. What is a poor fangirl like me to do? T_T Don't blame me, blame the awesome gal who was so kind to get it for me from Japan.

Yes, and there's more smut in this chapter. Hope you enjoy it!



CHAPTER 35





Thankfully, he did feel a little better after they left the monument and headed for the Eastern gate, stopping by Kakashi’s apartment for a quick change of clothes. Iruka’s hand migrated from his shoulder to curl his fingers gently around his own in an open admission of their relationship. Kakashi’s fingers tightened around his lover’s and for a moment he felt incredibly tense again, realizing that everyone on the street were practically staring at them with their eyes wide as saucers and their mouths hanging open. However, when they heard a loud crash and an ANBU guard fell flat on his masked face in the dust before them, Kakashi’s apprehension began to drain. Soon, he was tense for a wholly different reason – trying to contain his laughter and keep a straight face. When they were clear of the gate, he couldn’t control himself anymore and burst into hysterical giggles, followed by Iruka’s hearty chuckles.



After he managed to get himself back under control, the Jounin took several deep breaths and turned to his lover.



“If I’d known that me walking down the street holding hands with someone would cause such a hilarious reaction, I’d have done it a long time ago.” He admitted and surprisingly enough, it was the truth. Iruka snickered again.



“I wonder what would have happened if I had kissed you.” He said, dark eyes twinkling with delight. Kakashi shook his head:



“They’d have probably thought that the world was coming to an end and the sky would fall.” He muttered.



“Probably. After all, you’re very much a dog person, Kakashi, almost an Inuzuka in a way. Although unlike them, you’re not cuddly in anyway. They’re used that you can bite off their limbs if they try to touch you.”



That sobered Kakashi a little.



“Am I so terrible?”



The Chuunin took a step forward and took Kakashi’s face in his hands.



“No. You’re just eccentric and reclusive, and I am sure that you have a good reason to be all that. I only hope that one day you’d share that reason, or reasons, with me.”



“You’re not going to ask me now?”



“Kakashi, for the past several days you and I became very close, but I don’t think that I have earned the right yet for you to trust me so much and to share things so personal with me. Whenever you think you are ready, I will listen.”



Kakashi stopped walking and stared at the Chuunin, stunned by that admission and surprised by the warmth that suffused him when he comprehended it completely. For how long had he longed to hear someone talk to him like that while he was in Konoha? Someone to be patient enough with him, to wait for him to grow to trust them? Kakashi was well-aware of his short-comings, of his intensely distrustful and paranoid nature that usually drove people away before they could get close to him. He was aware that he was creating a paradox – craving attention and love and at the same time being terrified of getting it because he believed that he endangered those who gave it to him. It had been a vicious circle, and for all these years, he hadn’t been able to find a way to leave it. And then he had met Pein… Nagato, who had forcefully torn down all the walls around his being and wormed his way into his heart. And while he knew that he had craved meeting someone like Iruka before his capture, he knew that he would have never allowed things to get so far before. But now, when he had had a taste of what it felt like to be loved, he felt defenseless and unable to deal with attraction to begin with. No matter how much he tried, he couldn’t deal with this mission in a cold, detached, professional manner. Iruka’s behaviour, the way he treated him, it affected him, especially in the light of how terribly lonely he had been after he returned to Konoha. The rare encounters with his lover did nothing but deepen the need for connection.



“Kakashi?” The Chuunin turned to him. “What’s wrong?”



Kakashi looked down at his feet.



“I don’t think that anyone’s ever told me what you just said before.”



Iruka smiled brilliantly at those words.



“Ah, it’s their loss then. But it’s good that I did, because you obviously needed to hear it as much as I needed to say it.” He suddenly jumped to a tree-branch. “Come now, I know just the place” Kakashi followed him as obediently as a hungry puppy.



Indeed, Iruka did know a gorgeous, secluded spot where they could settle. Deep in the forests, he had discovered a lake with a small but frothing waterfall and a green meadow around it. The bright sunlight played with the mist that rose from the waterfall and created a brilliant rainbow. Kakashi could feel the fragnance of the blooming flowers even through his mask as they approached the lake.



“So?” Iruka asked “What do you think?”



Kakashi looked around in awe.



“I think it’s beautiful. How did you find this place?”



A shadow passed over Iruka’s face but then he smiled again.



“I used to wander around Konoha’s surrounding areas a lot as a child – I couldn’t stand being around other people… other children, and watch them interact with their parents – it made the loss of mine even worse.”



Kakashi walked up to him and took his hand in his.



“I understand how that feels. Believe me, I do.”



The Chuunin smiled at him then, his face once more bright and sunny, shedding without a care his bad memories. He reached, pulled Kakashi’s mask off and kissed him deeply, sighing as he tasted the honey the man had eaten in the morning.



“I know.”



Despite himself, Kakashi leaned into the strong embrace, opening his mouth and sighing softly while his lover plundered his mouth. His fingers found Iruka’s hair-tie and he quickly released the luscious chocolate locks from it, combing his fingers through the dark silk, making his lover groan hungrily against his lips. So, he liked to have to have his hair played with. Kakashi filed that information in his mind for later and hesitantly pulled away from the kiss, laying his head on Iruka’s shoulder and simply embracing the man. The Chuunin didn’t seem angered by Kakashi’s mood taking a turn from horny to cuddly, so he happily wrapped his arms around him and held him close, rubbing the back of his head and the small of his back lovingly.



“I take back what I said about you not being cuddly.” He murmured against Kakashi’s ear.



They spent a few more minutes like that before finally pulling away and settling down on the grass, Kakashi unsealing all the stuff they’d brought with themselves stashed in a scroll – a blanket, several pillows and a large basket filled with whatever food Iruka had prepared before-hand. When he peeked inside curiously, he saw that it was filled with strawberries, a large, sealed bowl of cream, all sorts of cookies and an unopened bottle of white wine.



“Grape wine, Iruka?” he asked amusedly.



“I developed a taste for it sometime ago.” The Chuunin explained with a small smile as he arranged the pillows on the blanket. Kakashi took off his sandals and stepped on the soft, fluffy surface, marveling at its texture under his sensitive bare feet. He sat down and curled his feet under him, still rummaging through the basket.



“Are you trying to feed an army with a sweet tooth?” he muttered, his single eye twinkling.



“I am trying to feed you, which is worse than feeding an army.” Iruka answered playfully and tugged the basket from Kakashi’s arms and put it away.



“Now, do you want to have a dip in the lake before we eat and drink?” he said, but the way he looked at Kakashi told the Jounin that he was more interested in seeing him naked again rather than refreshing himself in the cool clear water.



Firmly ignoring yet another pang of shame at his actions, the Jounin obediently took off the Jounin vest and pulled off his shirt, revealing his body to his lover’s hungry gaze that roamed over his body in open admiration. Finally, he stood naked and shameless before the Chuunin, the only piece of cloth on him being the forehead-protector serving as an eyepatch.



“I love looking at you.” Iruka said and openly slid a hand between his thighs to squeeze his own rapidly growing erection. “Come here.” His tone was soft, but it was an unmistakable order. Obediently, Kakashi approached him and kneeled next to him as Iruka pulled himself up on his feet. His dark eyes widened at the submissive gesture, even if he should have expected something like that from Kakashi. His mind short-circuited for a moment and he was almost ready to turn him around and sheathe himself in his body but he managed to get himself back under control.



“Undress me.” He said, making an effort to sound much calmer than he actually felt.



Obediently, Kakashi began to take his clothes off, working efficiently but not too fast. He wasn’t making any conscious effort to be sensual or teasing, but his eagerness to please was enough of a turn on for the Chuunin. By the time Kakashi had finished undressing him, Iruka’s erection was rock-hard and weeping from the tip. Almost casually, the older man leaned and quickly licked off the clear fluid. Iruka’s moved without thinking, grabbing a lock of silver hair and pulling him away. Kakashi winced and complied immediately.



“I’m sorry…”



The guilty, stricken expression on the older man’s face made Iruka wince at his own harshness and he quickly let go of his hair, petting the sore spot instead.



“No, I’m sorry.” The Chuunin said. “You can do whatever you want, Kakashi. But your mouth feels so damn good that I don’t think I can last long if you kept doing what you started.”



Kakashi smiled at him then, a mischievous, playful smile and his tongue darted once again to his tip, making his lover gasp.



“Like so?”



“Quite like so, yeah.” Iruka agreed, but didn’t try to stop him this time, just slid down on his knees on the blanket too, coming face to face with Kakashi and giving him another kiss. The older man readily returned it, but still made a soft sound of disappointment and wrapped his fingers around Iruka’s erection, teasing and rubbing, mapping the hot, slick surface.



“Why do I have the feeling you really want to suck me today?” Iruka murmured when they ended the kiss. Kakashi only nodded, suddenly bashful all over again, as if ashamed by his forwardness.



The Chuunin paused to think how to arrange that and still get what he wanted and then his face suddenly brightened when he got an idea. He lied back down on the blanket, his knees slightly spread.



“Come here. Turn around and lie down on top of me.”



Kakashi’s own eye brightened as he figured out his lover’s plan and he quickly followed his instructions, lying down on top of him, his face against his crotch while his own erection dangled over Iruka’s lips.



“You’re full of brilliant ideas, Sensei.” The older man commented gleefully.



Iruka chuckled and responded by taking his lover in his mouth, his right hand holding the thick cock by the base and rubbing what he couldn’t swallow, while he other hand steadied his hips. Kakashi moaned at the sudden onslaught of pleasure and in a moment got down to work as well, licking and sucking his lover’s hardness as if it were a lollipop. The blinding pleasure of being stimulated the same way made him pause from time to time, pull away and moan, rubbing his face against the slick, shiny surface of Iruka’s organ when he was too out of control to be able to control his jaws. When the younger man inserted his fingers in his still loosened from last night entrance he lost it and came, shuddering on top of his lover and then sagging bonelessly against his hip. Iruka maneuvered him gently back onto the blanket and looked down at him, rubbing his mouth with the back his hand, his own organ still hard against his flat belly.



Kneeling between his knees, he grabbed them and lifted them up all the way up to Kakashi’s shoulders, spreading them wide to take a good look at him.



“Think you are still loose enough to take me without further prep, Kakashi?” he asked gently.



The older man nodded sleepily after a few moments, reaching between his legs to cup his balls and cock and pull them up, revealing himself fully to his lover’s gaze. His organ softened after the recent orgasm, but he didn’t mind being taken like that - relaxed and basking in the afterglow of his peak. It made penetration easier, even with no additional prep, and if his partner was gentle, it only added to the warmth that coursed through his veins. Iruka hadn’t given him any reason to think he wouldn’t be gentle – so far he had been so nice, so kind to him that anything else seemed absurd. For a moment Kakashi forgot that this was a mission, a farce, and allowed himself to be swept away by the need to give his lover what he wanted.



Iruka took the invitation, took his erection in his hand and guided himself into the willing body of his lover, hearing him gasp when he breached him and then slid in slowly in the hot, tight channel spreading around his cock and sucking him even further in. When he was fully seated inside, Kakashi wrapped his arms and legs around him and clung tight as he began to rock slowly, moaning softly in his ear each time he brushed against his prostate. Iruka turned his face and gave him a sweet, slow kiss as he began to pick up the pace a little, his own need getting the better of him. Kakashi’s strong thighs eagerly urged him on.



“Faster, baby.” The Jounin murmured against his lips. “I won’t break.”



His control snapped and he slammed into the eager body, making Kakashi cry out as his cock jabbed his spot inside of him, and then again and again, drawing shudders and mewling from his lover, his own arousal quickly coming back to life at the surprisingly rough treatment.



Iruka couldn’t believe his own harshness as he suddenly pulled away and flipped Kakashi over, raising his hips and plunging back in, this angle allowing him a much deeper and more controlled penetration. His lover cried out and then raised his hips eagerly into it, sneaking a hand between his thighs to rub himself in time with Iruka’s thrusting. The Chuunin’s hand joined his and guided it as they finally tumbled over the edge, his face buried in the back of Kakashi’s neck, and his other hand tightened in pale silver hair.



Afterwards it took them several long minutes to catch their breath and pull themselves up to wash in the cool waters of the lake before going back to the blanket to cuddle in the warm sunlight.



Iruka opened the basket and finally took out the food, feeding Kakashi strawberries as he first dipped them in the bowl of cream. The Jounin eagerly accepted them from Iruka’s fingers and licked the excess juice off his fingers. Iruka’s eyes darkened again.



“Keep doing that, and we’d repeat what we just did.” He mock-threatened. Grinning around his fingers, Kakashi answered:



“You’re saying it like it’s a bad thing.”



Iruka rolled his eyes.



“Tease.” And he leaned to kiss his still damp chest, mouth closing over a sensitive nipple.



“Ohhhh.” Kakashi moaned and bit onto Iruka’s finger, making his lover yelp and pull back. He was about to tease him about behaving like a naughty puppy when he noticed something in the bright sunlight he had missed before. There were tiny, barely visible holes in the nipple he had just sucked. He took a better look at the other and noticed the same thing. Noticing his distraction, Kakashi asked:



“What is it?”



“Kakashi… are your nipples pierced?” Iruka asked neutrally and Kakashi’s eye widened in alarm and surprise.



“I…” he swallowed, cleared his throat and answered. “Yes, they are.”



“Why aren’t you wearing them?” Iruka asked, still not looking up.



“I thought you wouldn’t like it.” Kakashi finally admitted. It was only partially true – he barely wore the pair of silver loops while he lived in Konoha, and the other piercing had been deliberately healed over before he went home, much to his own disappointment – there was no need to have anything, no matter how insignificant, connecting him to Pein and his new status.



“Well, you were wrong.” Iruka muttered and looked up to meet his eyes. Kakashi blinked, surprised at the fire burning in the chocolate depths. “I want you to put them on when we get back.” He said.



“I.. I don’t know where I’ve put them…”



“It’s okay. I’ll buy you new ones. What do you prefer – hoops or barbells?”



Kakashi floundered for a moment, then finally said:



“Whatever you like best.”



Iruka smiled at those words.



“You’re such a pleaser, aren’t you?” he murmured and gave him another kiss before settling back on the blanket and reaching for the strawberries. After several minutes of comfortable silence and watching small white clouds slowly travel over the deep blue sky, Iruka said:



“People will talk after seeing us like that today, you know that, right?”



Kakashi nodded.



“I don’t care.”



“We’d have to talk to Naruto though. I am the closest thing he has to an older brother. Or a father, now that Jiraiya is away again.” Iruka said. “And you were his teacher. I don’t want him finding out through the rumour-mill.”



Naruto. Kakashi’s good, relaxed mood evaporated into thin air. He managed, however, to appear as calm as possible, still looking up to the sky.



“I know.” He murmured. “He’s very precious to you, isn’t he?”



Iruka nodded.



“Of course. He’s family to me, even if we have no blood connection.” He lifted his head to look at Kakashi’s face, but found his expression unreadable.



“You shouldn’t worry about his reaction.” He said, misinterpreting Kakashi’s closed off look. “He’ll be happy for us. He loves you too, you know. Looks up to you. Admires you. You were his first Sensei outside of the Academy. You taught him about value of teamwork and protecting his friends.”



Kakashi was still looking up.



“He exaggerates my achievements, I think.” He muttered.



Iruka kissed his cheek.



“And you’re selling yourself short.” He retorted. “Don’t worry. Naruto would be very happy for us.”