Shinobi Can Be So Dense

Thank you to Ryu Earth,CoastalRose, and MaryMai for your reviews. I am putting up this chapter since I found time while I'm puppy sitting. I have nothing to do so I'm working on this story. I'm getting close to finishing and have sequels planed. On with the story.

I wanted to see Kakashi and know that he was safe. I felt arms surround me and turned with vigor to attack the intruder who dared touch me so intimately. I yelped in surprise and melted into those arms when I saw who my attacker was. Kakashi. I buried my head into his chest. He was home and he was safe. Tears fell from my eyes. I didn’t care if he saw them. I was just relieved to have him home with me.

“Sh, Iruka I’m here.” He rubbed my back as I sunk deeper into his embrace. I loved the way he made me feel just with his touch. I looked up at his face to make sure it really was him and not some hallucination. “I’m really here.” He really did know me. “I couldn’t stop thinking about you the entire time I was gone. As soon as we returned home I sent Naruto with the mission report to the Hokage. He gave me some grief as per usual. I told him there was someone I had to see before they died of worry. I left him there with his mouth hanging open ready to retort.” He took a hand and wiped my tears of relief from my face. I looked right into his eyes expecting him to disappear and I would be alone forever. He didn’t disappear.

“I missed you more than you’ll ever know. I thought I would go mad. Everyone has been worried about me, my students, Yamato, Genma, Raidou, Anko, Izumo, Kotetsu, Shizune, Tsunade, the other teachers, Sakara, and even Ibiki. I didn’t know I could worry so much about anyone. I didn’t even worry this much when Naruto started leaving the village for missions. No one could make me stop worrying and it drove them nuts.”

He kissed my tears stained cheeks. It felt so wonderful. The simple touch of his lips on my skin gave me a warm comforting feeling in my very core. “I’m here Iruka, while I can’t promise I’ll always be, I can promise you that I will always try to return to you.” Those words from him are what I have needed to hear all this time. He is so sincere and honest and it‘s just for me. “Let’s go back to your place, away from prying eyes.” He looked down at me. “Do you have desk duty tonight?” I shook my head no and buried my head back into his chest. “Good I want some alone time with you.”

He teleported us back to my apartment. I held on to him still too afraid he would just disappear. I had too much time to think while he was gone. I had realized that I was in love with him. I thought I had been in love with Anko but that wasn’t love. This felt completely different. With Anko it had been mere companionship not real love. When I’m with Kakashi I want to give him my whole being and never spend my days without him. I long for him. I want to make him happy. I’m in love for real this time. My new found feelings for him are driving my almost desperate actions to not release my hold on him.

I snuggled into his chest. He wasn’t pulling away so neither would I. “Iruka I didn’t know you missed me so much. I must say the way you’re holding onto me is the best welcome home I’ve ever received.” I looked up to see him pull down his mask. His smile was soft and full of love. Only I ever got to see that smile. I felt so privileged. Right then I knew I had to tell him how I felt even if he didn’t feel the same. “Kakashi while you were gone I was so upset. I know we haven’t been together for very long but I already feel like this. I have to tell you because I know I’m rambling. Kakashi I love you. I really truly do and that is why I’ve been so distraught. I know that now and I’m glad i realized so.”

I said it. I hope he is not mad at me for saying it. I buried my face into his chest again. I didn’t want to see his face if he rejects me. I Feel him running his hands through my lose hair to comfort me. He is caressing my locks from my scalp to the ends. His long finger soothing some of the tension in my frame. I don’t even know when I lost my hair tie. “Iruka I never thought I could feel this way again. Not after losing so many." He pulls me closer to his chest as if I would run away. “I love you Iruka. I didn’t know I was still capable of that feeling but I love you. I was miserable without you during the entire mission. I drove Naruto crazy with worry, Sasuke the ice prince pretended nothing was going on but he knew something was up, and Sai Mr. emotionless was oblivious. Naruto thought I was sick or something. Now I realize I was sick… love sick. I want you and no one else.”

I started crying tears of joy. Kakashi had just told me he was in love with me and I had told him I was in love with him. I was smiling as I tilted my head upward and looked into his mismatched eyes. I moved my head up to his thin pink lips and we shared a short chased kiss. I put my head on his shoulder and before I knew what I was doing I was asleep. I had released so much pent up emotion from being with Kakashi again that I wore myself out. I hadn’t slept well the entire three nights Kakashi had been away. All that did was make me exhausted.

When I woke up again I was alone in my bed. I didn’t see Kakashi. I panicked thinking I had only dreamed of his homecoming and my heart sank. If that was true than how did I get to my bed and why was I still dressed in my uniform except for my vest? I rushed from my bedroom. I breathed a sigh of relief when I found Kakashi in my kitchen. I hadn’t dreamed it all. He was still here and he was making me ramen. My heart melted at the image in front of me. There in my kitchen was the object of my affection making me food since I had passed out on him. The clock says I’ve only been out for about a half hour. That’s good. I went up to him and put my arms around his waist from behind and laid my head on his back.

“I’m awake and I feel a lot better now.” He smells so good, a musky earthy smell. I was so at peace at that moment. He is so warm. “I’m glad you do. I figured I would make your favorite since last time you made mine.” His husky voice put me further at ease and whatever tension that still lingered in me was gone. I let go and made my way to my dinner table. When he placed a bowl in front of me I had to bite my bottom lip to keep from laughing. He served me ramen in my large salad bowl. Did he really think I ate that much ramen? Okay so maybe I did but not all at once. “Thank you for dinner Kakashi it’s delicious.” I noticed he is eating out of a baking dish. This is too funny. I have to keep from laughing. He was sweet enough to care so much about me to make the food I can’t insult him by laughing.

“Couldn’t find the soup bowls?” I chuckled lightly as I spoke but did not laugh out loud. This was a much more difficult task than it seemed. He is rubbing his hand through his silver hair. I love that nervous gesture of his it’s cute. “Well… no I didn’t but I did find these and they seem to work.” I love it when he is unsure of himself around me. I missed him too much. “Remind me to give you a proper tour of my kitchen.”

Just as we finished eating Gari came out of her hiding place begging for food loudly. Kakashi looked surprised to see my cat. I paid no attention to it though since Gari was demanding my attention. “I wondered when you would come out of hiding Gari. Let’s go get you some food before you howl your little head off.” I got out of my chair and walked to the kitchen with Gari on my heals. I took out her dish and gave her some food from the cupboard. I stroked her back a few times as she ate. Her soft purring was her thanks to me. I headed back out to Kakashi.

“I didn’t know you had a cat.” His eye was quirked up in puzzlement. I found that reaction just as amusing as some of the others just I had been privy to. “I’ve had Gari for about four years now. She was a gift from Naruto. He gave her to me before he left to train with Jiriaya. He said she could keep me company while he was gone so I wouldn’t be lonely. It worked I wasn’t lonely but I did miss him terribly.” Kakashi seemed pleased but still I bit put off. “I hope she likes dogs because I expect to be around a long time and my ninken tend to follow.” I laughed at his childlike pout. He really did make me happy.

The hole that was once only loneliness is now being filled with love. “I want you to know everything about me even my crazy cat.” Kakashi looked like he had been smacked. He was hesitant and subdued. “I want to be completely honest with you Iruka. I loved one other person before you. She is the one I told you about before the one that died on that bad mission. Our relationship was complicated mainly because it really was only comfort sex and nothing more. We both mourned the death of a fellow comrade. We were young and just comforted each other with sex. We shared little to no emotion. The love I have for you though is different than what I had with her. It runs deeper and makes me feel complete.”

I let the weight of his confession sink in. He had been hurt the same way Yamato had but he actually saw his love die. It must have been really hard on him even if it was only comfort sex. I should confess about my relationships too. “Kakashi while we are being honest about our past relationships I have something to tell you too. I was once in a relationship with Anko. It was mostly because I didn’t want to be alone. I had been alone since my parents’ death. Anko was alone since she was shunned for once being the apprentice of the snake sanin. I didn’t want her to be alone too so we started a relationship. We were together for years. We filled the loneliness in each others lives. When we were seventeen we decided to try and go further in our relationship and have sex. When we finished she said… she said it was like she just had sex with her little brother. I was horrified at the time and she broke my heart. She was right though we were more like siblings than lovers but I was young and she was all I had.”

Kakashi laughed a bit and got up to hug me. He pulled me over to my couch and held me in his lap. “It seems we are both idiots when it comes to love. I want to tell you the second reason I don’t drink alcohol. One night I had just returned from a mission that went bad. We lost two members of our team that mission. Genma, who was the only other to survive that mission, drug me to a bar. Before the mission he had a fight with Raidou and didn’t want to go home since he was still pissed. Genma got me thoroughly sloshed. I still am foggy on the details but I ended up fucking Genma. He used me to make Raidou jealous. I haven’t drank in public since then.”

So Genma had taken advantage of someone else who was drunk. I cringed a bit since he told me this. I still have very vivid memories of what happened the night Anko dumped me. I went to the bar with Hayate, Kotetsu and Izumo. As soon as we got there Genma and Raidou had invited us to join them at their table. I drowned my sorrows in alcohol. I started acting like a slut and molested my friends. They were drunk to so they didn’t even mind. Somehow we ended up at my apartment. I had sex with each of them and Genma had dubbed me ubber uke. I played catcher for each of them. When I awoke I found four naked men in my bed room. My sheets were soaked through with semen and lube, and my ass hurt like hell. I quickly dressed them and teleported them back to their homes. I had a hard time walking for a week but none of them seemed to remember a thing about having had sex with me. I didn’t remember much only parts but what I did embarrassed the hell out of me. I was such a slut. I vowed never to drink again.

“Kakashi I have to tell you my darkest secret. It is the secret as to why I don’t drink at all. After Anko dumped me I went to the bar with Hayate, Kotetsu and Izumo to drown my sorrows. We meet up with Genma and Raidou when we got there and got smashed. The alcohol turned me into a major slut and I came on to each of them. I ended up having sex with each of them that night. Genma dubbed me ubber uke since I took it from each of them. I was sore for an entire week. I woke up before any of them and got them home. They don’t remember a thing but I always will. I haven’t had alcohol or sex since that day. I have been too ashamed and shy to ever pursue anyone till you.”

I expected him to throw me away in disgust. I would have. I felt like I common whore still. Sure I had been young and it was ten years ago but I still felt like a slut. Kakashi surprised me by pulling me closer to him and holding me tighter. “You are not a slut Iruka. Alcohol just messes with us. It makes us both do things we normally wouldn't, like Genma for example. I would never be disgusted by you for that. I love you and I'm glad you were honest with me.” We both started laughing at our foolishness. We no longer had secrets between us that could haunt our relationship. We were free to love each other without guilt. We accepted each others flaws.

“Kakashi thank you for being so understanding. I don't deserve such forgiveness. I am still mortified over what I did. I'm glad I can trust you with such a dark secret and know you won't hold it against me.” He looked at me with such caring love in his eye as he placed little kisses over my face and neck. We sat telling secrets and talking most of the night. When it had gotten really late I didn't want Kakashi to leave.

“Don't go... you can stay here...with me tonight. I just... want to hold you all night so I don't wake up thinking I've lost you.” I didn't want to have those nightmares again. “I'll stay but I don't have any night clothes.” I smiled and hugged him. “Thank you for indulging me. I have a spare set of sleep pants you can borrow. Go ahead and get a shower and I'll bring them to you.” Kakashi went to get a shower and I went to my bedroom to get the sleep pants. I put them on the vanity top with a towel. I went back to my bedroom till Kakashi had finished. When he finished I took a shower and put on my sleep pants.

When I came out of the shower Kakashi was laying on my bed. He looked magnificent. The hard muscles of his chest spread out in front of me. He looked down right yummy. “You look cute in my clothes.” He laughed and pulled back the sheets. “Well you look sexy in yours, especially with your hair down.” We crawled under the covers. He pulled me close to him and I fell asleep in his arms. That night I slept soundly for the first time in days. I was loved. I was there with the man that loved me with every fiber of his being. I was happy and had good dreams that night.

I awoke the next morning to a beautiful sight. I was still wrapped in strong arms. He was still asleep. I hadn't had a bad dream all night. He looks like a sleeping Adonis. I love his pale face, the single scar over his eye and his wild silver hair. I find myself starring at the sleeping face of the man I love. I see him stirring. “Good morning.” That came out more sleepily than I wanted it to. He is opening his ice blue eye. “Good morning my love.” He looks happy. I know I am since I wasn't alone anymore.

“This is a wonderful way to wake up having you in my arms. I haven't slept that well in years.” Kakashi surprised me with that statement.”You have trouble sleeping too?” He smiled and I started running my fingers through his shaggy silver hair. It is surprisingly soft. “Yeah with I life like mine it's hard to sleep well. All the atrocities I've committed haunt my sleep but not when I’m with you.” He hugged me close to his body and sniffed my hair. I love how warm and comforting he feels. I wanted to stay like this all day but I had a class to teach.

“I would love to stay like this all day but I have a class to teach and I'll be damned if I'm late. How about I make us breakfast?” He pulled me close once again. “That sounds nice Iruka. Do you have mission desk duty tonight?” I nodded my head is a got out of bed and stretched. “It's a short shift today I get to leave a five instead of six.” He got out of bed and stretched his taunt muscles. I couldn't help but admire the sight before me. He is unbelievably sexy and handsome.

I went to the kitchen and started making pancakes for our breakfast. I set them at the kitchen table were Kakashi was already seated. “This looks delicious.” We ate and then I went into my bedroom while Kakashi washed the dishes. I got dressed in my uniform and put my hair up into my ponytail. I thought about Kakashi's dirty uniform and decided to get him something else to wear home. I quickly picked some of my civilian clothes out for him and stepped out of my bedroom.

“I left some civies for you to change into. Here have a key to my apartment. Feel free to come whenever you want. I'd love to spend the night with you again. Lock up before you leave today.” I handed him the key and kissed him goodbye as I pulled my sandals on. This was my attempt to show Kakashi how much trust I had in him. I hoped it worked.

I couldn't help but smile on my way to work. People seemed to notice I was no longer in a funk as well. They greeted me as I walked. When I got to the academy my fellow teachers were happy I was back to my usual self even though I was extra happy. My students seemed weired out that yesterday I was depressed and today I was so happy I wanted to burst. This at least put them off from pulling any pranks on me today. I had a new lecture to discuss today and my happy state made them pay better attention to me. I think I'll have to remember this tactic next time I have a really important lesson to teach them.

When class was done I went to the mission desk. Today was the slow day of the week. Most of the teams were out on missions so me and Izumo busied ourselves filing old reports. The day went by so slowly mainly because I couldn't wait to see Kakashi again. I love having someone to go home to. It really makes me happy.

“Iruka....Iruka....Earth to Iruka Umino are you there?” I must have been day dreaming. “Did you say something Izumo?”Izumo sighed. “I was asking you what the hell put such a goofy grin on your face?” I weighed my options as to what I could say to Izumo. He was one of my best friends but right now I didn‘t feel right telling him about my love life. “I'm just happy. Things are going well for me and I couldn't be happier.” Izumo shook his head. “You are a weird one Iruka.” We went back to our filing after that.

The day with my class went smoothly and so did my shift at the mission desk. By the end of my shift I was so excited to be done and finally going home. I wondered if Kakashi would still be in my apartment when i got home. When I got to my apartment I found a note tapped to my door. I pulled it down and read Kakashi's chicken scratch handwriting.

{My dearest Iruka, I have a surprise for you. Come to my apartment when you've finished freshing up. Please dress casual. The address is on the back of this note. See you soon my little dolphin. Longing for you, Kakashi}