Hopelessly

Pyromaniac – kinda: ^_^ I haven’t gone anywhere and I have been working on it. I got a pre-Christmas gift of an X-Box and Skyrim. Soooo . . . Anyway, I try to update one of my many stories once every week or two, so there will be weeks between updates in one story, sorry. So glad you’re addicted! But you see people, it pays to review because now I feel pressure to get this out ASAP!

DarkAngelJudas: Yeah, sort of a ‘oh, shit’ moment for Sasuke. Got his ass handed to him for the first time in a long while.

Prescripto13: Sasuke is a manipulative little bastard. ^_^ I wanted just one fight between them with Kakashi taking advantage of that seal. Sasuke really just wanted Kakashi to cheer the fuck up and really fight him. Sasuke of course knew about Sakumo and respects him, but couldn’t help using that piece of information; he’s an evil bastard.

-00-night-eyes-00-: ^_^

Ikke: Sasuke wasn’t expecting Kakashi to use the seal and it caught him off guard. He also isn’t used making his body insubstantial like Tobi/Madara was. And he wanted this fight, he wanted a challenge and wanted Kakashi to give his all. He also panicked a bit.

ReaperninHiro: I hate Sakura too. Still not entirely sure why I added her, but it really did help the plot. At least I’m only giving you lime, no lemon. I especially loved how I had Kakashi echo Sasuke’s opinion of Sakura: annoying. Things that make you happy!

So, I had a skeleton of the rest of this story written, it was a matter of putting on the muscle and flesh. Took some time to get this next chapter where I wanted it, balancing angst and plot and sex. Oh god, the sex! There’s like three lemons and two limes in this chapter! And one slight het lime. Forgive me! Bring out the red hankies! I wonder if I can cafepress some Misato’sPenPen red hankies. For Nose Bleeds Only!

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Sasuke now only had to get that glint in his eye while they were sparring for Kakashi to step it up a notch. Sasuke had hammered his message in that day and Kakashi had come to the conclusion that he could not follow his father; he got his head back on straight.

As to prove there were no hard feelings for Kakashi nearly killing him, Sasuke summoned him two days after that fight for sex. Kakashi would never understand how Sasuke could have such a heavenly mouth. Kakashi considered the blowjob an apology for what Sasuke said about his father. Then Sasuke fucked him into the mattress. For once, Kakashi didn’t consider it rape in the slightest; he enjoyed the fuck out of it. But he wouldn’t tell Sasuke that.

However, Sasuke being more amiable had other consequences.

Four days after Sasuke’s ‘apology,’ Sakura pressed up against Kakashi as soon as he came into their apartment within the Hokage tower. He was still annoyed with her, but he indulged her.

However, for the first time, Kakashi couldn’t get hard. He kissed Sakura as passionately as he could, slid a hand down her chest, over her bare breast, then down her smooth side. Nothing. He moved down to suck at her small breast. Though they were small, Kakashi liked how they fit so perfectly in his hands. But he still didn’t feel a stir. He thought about how it would feel to be inside her and he started to feel something, but it wasn’t enough.

Oral sex was a blessing right now; his jaw might hurt by the end of the night, but he could jerk off without her knowing how soft he was. He put his all into tonguing her, but his hand was pleasuring him more than her body or scent.

Then he thought of Sasuke. Those eyes that looked down at him with so little emotion. There was something arousing about how little regard Sasuke seemed to have for him when they had sex. His beautiful face, his lovely skin, admirable musculature, and those goddamn eyes. They devoured him, saw through him, reduced him to nothing. It fed his self-loathing and aroused him, letting him give into Sasuke. Just thinking of Sasuke—not the sex, but just Sasuke and his eyes—made Kakashi rock hard.

Damn it! He had to think of Sasuke just to get hard! He was so angry that he threw everything to the wind. He nudged Sakura onto her stomach and he took her, imagining that she was Sasuke, imagining that he could take Sasuke. But he kept his mouth shut; he wouldn’t let Sasuke’s name escape his lips. He was a little rough with her, but she didn’t complain as he was hitting all the right spots inside her. He cam deep inside her.

She curled up next to him after he moved off her. Kakashi had to hate Sasuke for this. He shrugged off the ache in his shoulder.

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Kakashi whirled around behind his desk, expecting to see Sasuke at the window. But there was just a large black cat. Kakashi took a deep breath; he was getting jumpy. The cat was startled, but now it meowed, relaxed, and jumped down to the floor of Kakashi’s office. It came up and brushed up affectionately against Kakashi’s leg, purring.

“Dumb cat, don’t even know a dog person when you rub up against one.”

But he let the cat stay.

Kakashi actually liked the cat. It appeared every few days and Sakura brought a pillow for it and milk and tuna. Kakashi figured it was mainly looking for a safe place to lie in the sun and be lazy fucking cat, but when it jumped in his lap when he was board or tired of the mundane work and encouraged him to pet it, the cat was—what was Sasuke’s word?—diverting. He was going to have a hell of a time explaining the cat hairs to his pack of hounds.

Meanwhile, Gaara sent him a letter asking him to rethink Sasuke’s demands for supplies. Everyone was convinced Kakashi had the answers. Kakashi called in Hiashi and Shikaku to talk about Sasuke. The cat jumped down from his lap when the pair arrived and seemed to fall asleep as soon as it lay on the pillow in the sunlight from the window.

“Gaara wants us to give more thought to Sasuke’s strange demands for supplies. He is alone up there in that fortress. The only thing I can think of is he’s using it as barter on the black market. But, then again, what for? He must be stockpiling something.”

Shikaku nodded. “If we investigate the black market we may find out what Sasuke’s been buying and then we’ll have more data to make a conjecture from.”

“Agreed,” Hiashi said. “If it’s weapons or material to make weapons, he may indeed be planning on arming soldiers. But if it’s something else . . . He may have more diabolical plans than even Madara.”

The cat purred and turned over, stretching.

“Is there any other possibility either of you can think of in case the black market doesn’t pan out?” Kakashi asked.

“None,” Shikaku said. “But we will give it more thought.”

“That’s all, thank you.”

Kakashi sent notes to all the Kage about investing who in the black market was trading with Sasuke. He looked over at the black cat on his floor. The tail thumped up and down on the floor a few times. He could almost like cats.

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Kakashi was surprised when he was next summoned by Sasuke. They were in the throne room and Sasuke looked angrier than he had in a very long time.

“You were the one who suggested everyone look into the black market,” Sasuke accused.

Kakashi’s back stiffened. He was right about the black market. And he was in trouble. But how did Sasuke know so soon? It was only about twenty-four hours after he spoke to Hiashi and Shikaku.

“What have you learned?” Sasuke demanded.

Kakashi swallowed. “Konoha hasn’t devoted any resources to investigating your dealings with the black market; we left it to the other villages. But it’s probably too soon for anyone to have learned anything.”

Sasuke was scowling. Kakashi realized Sasuke was not just feeling betrayed, he was legitimately worried; Sasuke didn’t bother to hide it. Sasuke took up his sheathed sword from where he leaned it against the throne and kicked backrest of the throne. It fell backward, but the stone didn’t crack. It showed how angry he was though. Kakashi wanted to sink into the stone floor.

Sasuke paced, gripping his sheathed sword so hard Kakashi thought the sheath would crack. He was deep in thought, still fuming with anger. He stopped and turned red eyes on his former sensei.

“You fucked this all up and you will remedy it. You will arrange to get the things I need. I will barter with Konoha. I will make you complicit. If you dare betray me, if you dare inform the other Kage of this, or even your underlings, I will not save my vengeance for you alone. I’ll even gut your little girlfriend in the street. Understand?”

“Hai.”

“Right that,” Sasuke said gesturing to his throne. Kakashi found he needed help and used a shadow clone to raise it. It was undamaged, a very solid bit of work. The clone vanished. Sasuke was suddenly right next to him and slugged him. Kakashi fell into the back of the throne sideways, hitting his head hard enough for it to ring. Sasuke was so furious at him that he kicked him in the chest, laying Kakashi out on his back.

“Don’t ever betray me again.”

Kakashi was dazed and didn’t realize when he was sent back to his office; he only registered it when he noticed how much brighter it was and that could have been hours later for all he knew. He looked over and saw the cat sitting near him, regarding him. It came over and rubbed up against his leg, purring. Kakashi sat up from his position laying on the floor and petted the cat. It meowed then jumped up on the windowsill and left.

“Yoshi!” Kakashi yelled as he levered himself up into his chair. His assistant came in. “Sakura or Shizune, bring one of them here.”

“Yes, sir.”

Kakashi felt like shit. And it had nothing to do with the pain in his head, chest, or jaw.

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The good thing about becoming Sasuke’s agent was that Kakashi knew what Sasuke was buying. Then again, he couldn’t make anything of it. Chemicals, minerals, solutions . . . The only conclusion Kakashi could come up with was that Sasuke was carrying on one—or more—of Orochimaru’s experiments. Kakashi looked up every component, but none seemed to lend themselves to making drugs. Some, however, did have chakra suppressing properties. But maybe Sasuke was just fucking with him, changing what he was buying and re-trading the items he got from Konoha merchants on the black market again. As far as he knew none of the other Kage had been able to find anyone who ever traded with the Uchiha and therefore had no idea what he was buying. They were beginning to believe that Kakashi was wrong. But from Sasuke’s anger, he knew he was right and could say nothing. And he didn’t want to anymore.

And he heard about the bodies found in forest. A dozen bandits were slashed to ribbons and burned with Chidori. It was overkill. Sasuke was furious.

Kakashi knew what happened to shinobi—missing-nin or not—who ventured too close to the fortress and this was overkill. Sasuke liked to display how little effort it took him to kill, but this was pure rage. And these men weren’t even that close to the fortress; Sasuke had hunted them purely to kill them.

Whatever Sasuke was up to, whatever those black market supplies were, was vital to Sasuke.

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Sasuke was still rather rough with him, but Kakashi didn’t care anymore. Kakashi gripped the edge of the headboard as Sasuke took him from behind. It felt so damn good. The sound of Sasuke’s breath and the feeling of it on his shoulder, the light feel of Sasuke’s lips dragging across his back as Sasuke leaned in as he fucked him; it all felt so good. Sasuke fisted his hair to pulled him back onto him. Sasuke bit his shoulder blade when he cam. After breathing deeply against Kakashi’s back, Sasuke flipped him over and sucked him off. Kakashi had come to the conclusion that was something Sasuke enjoyed doing.

Kakashi remained sitting leaning back against the headboard while Sasuke turned to lay on his back, his head on the pillow.

“Have any of the other villages found anything with the black market?” Sasuke asked casually.

Kakashi knew Sasuke knew the answer, but he said, “They’ve found nothing. They think I’m wrong. No one says they’ve traded with you. Even the men of the black market are frightened of you.”

Sasuke chuckled. “As it should be.”

“What are you doing?”

“Trying to figure that out from the lists I give you?”

“I can’t make anything of it.”

“Good. I’ll go back to my original contacts; I won’t go through Konoha anymore.” He sighed. “Get cleaned up. I should get back to work.”

“What work?”

Sasuke said nothing; Kakashi at least expected a reprimand for asking, but Sasuke just looked pensive. Kakashi did as he was told and found Sasuke still laying there thinking when he came back and dressed.

“Make sure the last of the supplies are together for me to retrieve; I only want to make one trip. Use the scroll to alert me when they’re ready.”

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Two months. It’d been two months since Kakashi saw Sasuke. The cat had vanished too. Kakashi thought it was colder weather that drove the cat to somewhere warmer and safer. He was slightly concerned for it, but he was more concerned about Sasuke.

This was the time Sakura had been waiting for: everything had settled down, Sasuke was not summoning Kakashi anymore and everything seemed to be calm. But Kakashi was no warmer to her or anyone else. He still showed her affection and slept with her, but he wasn’t relaxing, not laid back, not smiling, laughing, not back to his old self. The work had slowed down to a perfectly manageable amount. Unfortunately for Sakura, Kakashi had more time to think.

He thought about how Sasuke looked after they last had sex. He’d been thinking seriously about something and then he disappeared. Kakashi sent messages to all the other villages, not just the to the other Kage. Sasuke was still sending the demands for supplies, but no one had seen him.

Kakashi was worried.

He was approving mission requests alone when a member of ANBU appeared before him. Kakashi sat back to look at the masked man. “Report.”

“Another team’s returned having found their target already eliminated. That’s the eighteenth.”

“Sasuke.”

“They believe it was him.”

“He gets bored and goes out to kill someone. Bandits or missing-nins this time?”

“Missing-nins.”

“Take responsibility if we can get away with it.”

He didn’t go home when he finished work, he stayed in his office alone. This new office had wide windows which let him see to the east and west and he could see the sun setting behind the trees. He wondered where Sasuke was now. Probably out hunting and enjoying it.

Kakashi looked at the backlit trees as the sun sank. Impulsively, he touched the seal on his shoulder.

And he ducked. Sasuke was in midswing and couldn’t stop if he wanted to. But Kakashi appeared just to the left of the man Sasuke was aiming for and his quick reflexes let him avoid Sasuke’s blade.

Kakashi took quick stock of the situation. Missing-nins. From Iwa according to their slashed headbands. There was no reason for Kakashi to hold back. He joined the fray; the missing-nins would probably not leave him a choice anyway. There were about twenty men left from a band of about thirty. They split up pretty evenly to take on the two Sharingan users. Kakashi used any time he could steal to switch from his headband to his eye patch, not wanting to anger Sasuke by letting the younger see his borrowed eye.

Kakashi hadn’t even sparred with anyone in two months since Sasuke stopped summoning him, but the training of a lifetime did not fail him. He and Sasuke ended up fighting alongside each other. It was almost as if no time had passed, like they were still a team. They even found themselves back to back at one point. Together, they finished off the missing-nins.

“I wish there was a way to alert you that I was coming,” Kakashi said as Sasuke sheathed his sword.

“It’s called ‘waiting until you’re summoned,’” Sasuke said.

“It’s been two months.”

Sasuke smiled at him evilly. “Miss me?”

“Yes.” Sasuke was startled by the easy admission. “I’ve been worried about you.”

Kakashi somehow grew cold and warm at the same time; a chill went through him, but his core body temperature seemed to go up. Sasuke glanced down at Kakashi’s covered lips and back to his one visible eye. The look he had on his face was lost, confused, but also longing. Sasuke, on some level, missed Kakashi too. Even if it was just sex, he missed him. But something told Kakashi it was more than the sex.

Sasuke looked away. “My work is more important right now. I’ve dedicated myself to it recently. I don’t have time to toy with you, but I need exercise.

“I’m nearly out of chakra. I don’t have enough to send either of us anywhere. This isn’t the first group I’ve slaughtered today. I didn’t bring any soldier pills with me.”

“I don’t have any on me either.”

Sasuke began scavenging among the bodies. It seemed an odd and almost sad thing for the most powerful man in the shinobi world to be going through dead men’s pockets like a beggar. And doing it like it was a completely normal thing. He pocketed any money he found and sorted through weapons for any worth saving as he looked for pills.

Sasuke came up with a small pouch of pills. He sniffed at one then took a small bite. He spit it out. “Never tasted anything so horrible, but they are soldier pills.”

“You’ve never had Sakura’s soldier pills.”

“Unlike the rest of you, I have a strong enough self preservation instinct not to eat anything she makes.”

Kakashi couldn’t help but laugh. “But they are the best.”

Sasuke chocked the pills down. Chakra flooded his system.

“Don’t summon yourself to me again unless it’s an emergency; I nearly cut you in half.”

And Kakashi was back in his office. Beside his ANBU guard, he hadn’t been missed.

Fighting at Sasuke’s side had been . . . fun. They had always been a splendid team. There had been no time between the chunin exam and Sasuke’s departure for them to fight as a team with their Chidori, but Kakashi knew they would have become the deadliest team in Konoha, if not the world. Kakashi let a wistful smile creep across his masked face. Even without Naruto and Sakura there, it had felt like old times.

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It was only two days later Sasuke summoned him. He got right to business. Sasuke had missed him; he was downright passionate today. Luckily, Kakashi was of a similar mind. As soon as Sasuke began to wordlessly strip, so did Kakashi, switching his headband for the eye patch as he did so.

Nothing so romantic as kissing, Sasuke latched teeth to Kakashi’s unblemished neck as he pressed him down onto the bed sideways, their feet still on the ground. Kakashi wasn’t ashamed to moan and put his hands on Sasuke’s sides, feeling Sasuke’s lungs expand behind his ribs. For being such a cold, emotionless bastard, his body was warm and full of life. He slid his hands down to his waist.

Sasuke pulled his teeth away; he didn’t break the skin, but it would develop into a nice bruise by morning. He mounted the bed, forcing Kakashi back further onto it to lay properly. Sasuke had the lube ready and he looked Kakashi right in the eye as he pressed his fingers in. After months of nothing but vanilla sex with Sakura, he was tight as a virgin. Kakashi winced.

“If you ever let someone else do this to you, I’d slaughter him and make sure you never forget who owns your sorry ass.”

Kakashi opened his eye but didn’t respond. Minato did describe the Uchiha as pathologically possessive. He didn’t take that comment as anything more than that.

Those sword calloused fingers stung as they stretched him. Kakashi shut his eyes but Sasuke kept staring at him. Kakashi could almost feel Sasuke’s lifeless eyes on him and it unnerved him, but he tried to relax; he needed this as badly as Sasuke.

Damn it, just fuck me, Kakashi thought. He still wouldn’t beg out loud, yet Sasuke was watching him so closely, he knew what his former sensei wanted. He replaced his finger with his weeping cock. Kakashi gasped at the size; it had been too long.

But the feeling of fullness almost overrode the pain. His cock had softened, but not completely. And Sasuke wasn’t in the mood to wait. He gave a few slow thrusts—Kakashi’s body almost too tight to move—then sped up as Kakashi’s body submitted to him.

Even before the sting fled, Kakashi began grunting in pleasure. Finally, Sasuke’s eyes left Kakashi’s face as he concentrated on getting off. The case of blue balls he was dealing with wouldn’t let him last very long. He reached for Kakashi’s cock and pumped him, not wanting to be the first to cum. Kakashi’s cock was already wet with precum and it only took a swirl of his Sasuke’s thumb over the head for him to cum as he’d hadn’t had great sex either for months.

Kakashi cried out and it was too much for Sasuke and he cam deep inside him, pressing his hips harder into Kakashi’s to get as deep as possible. Sasuke remained buried inside him for a few seconds. Neither had gone limp, but they were too sensitive to do anything just yet. They caught their breath.

Kakashi cracked open an eye. Sasuke was bracing himself over his body with his hands on either side of Kakashi’s body. He had his head down and his eyes closed. Kakashi wanted to stroke that silky duck-butt which was aimed at the ceiling now. He wanted to touch him. To willingly touch him like this would be to admit something he couldn’t admit to himself. Even so close, Sasuke seemed so far away.

Before Sasuke looked up at him again, Kakashi shut his eyes again to bring his breathing under control. Kakashi felt Sasuke shift his weight then felt Sasuke’s hand cup his heavy balls.

“Sakura can’t satisfy you, can she?”

Kakashi opened his eye to glare at him. Sasuke was smirking at him. Sasuke’s fingers moved further down to poke at his perineum. Kakashi was still sensitive, but it erased the glare from his face.

“Don’t worry, I’ll wring you dry.”

Sasuke pulled Kakashi’s hips up and shoved back in. It didn’t hurt so much the second time. The assault on his prostate made Kakashi’s cock drip with precum. Kakashi relaxed back into the pillows and let Sasuke take him.

Sasuke was kneeling upright, his hands more resting around Kakashi’s thighs than gripping them as he thrust repeatedly into the willing body before him. He opened his eyes and looked at Kakashi. The lust in his eyes eased. No matter what he really felt for Kakashi, he’d missed him; the sex or his presence, it didn’t matter, he missed him.

Kakashi was surprised to feel Sasuke’s hands caressing his body. There was no real emotion on Sasuke’s face, but he was leaning forward and drawing his hands down Kakashi’s chest and stomach. The calloused hands sent shivers of pleasure through Kakashi’s body. Meanwhile, Sasuke didn’t miss a beat. After a while, Sasuke’s hands stilled and he used them to brace himself against Kakashi’s ribs. Kakashi loved the feeling of those hands on his body.

It was a drawn out second session, but Sasuke finally cam shallowly in Kakashi’s body and Kakashi brought himself off as he watched the bliss cross Sasuke’s face. Sasuke twisted around to lie on his back as he caught his breath and let the post-orgasm weakness pass.

Kakashi lay next to him feeling all the cum pooled on his stomach and dripping down his cock cool and the cum in his body begin to leak out of him being that Sasuke nearly pulled out as he cam.

Sasuke got up weakly to the bathroom. Kakashi thought it was over. So much for wringing him dry. He was tempted to slip into blessed unconsciousness. But Sasuke was back rather quickly and crawled over Kakashi’s body to straddle Kakashi’s head.

“Just cleaning up,” Sasuke said. “Wouldn’t want you getting sick, would we?”

Sasuke lowered his balls to Kakashi’s mouth, holding his limp cock out of the way. Kakashi mouthed and licked at the freshly washed flesh. Sasuke leaned forward to rest his head against the wall, his fingers splayed near his shoulders. His cock grew as it lay on Kakashi’s face. Kakashi moved his head a bit to give some friction against Sasuke’s cock. Sasuke groaned.

After quite a bit of attention paid to his balls, Sasuke dragged his cock down to Kakashi’s lips and Kakashi took him into his mouth. He was getting better at it since Sasuke had started giving him an example to follow while Sakura had yet to give him a single blowjob.

Kakashi brought up a hand to caress Sasuke’s firm ass. Receiving no rebuke, he felt down the back of his muscular thigh.

“Kakashi,” Sasuke sighed.

Kakashi was barely able to keep from freezing up; Sasuke had never sighed his name before. It made his cock jump. Kakashi was pretty sure Sasuke didn’t even realize what he’d said. A few minutes later, Sasuke unloaded into the back of Kakashi’s throat. It was an effort on Kakashi’s part not to choke on or drown in the load.

Sasuke moved down between Kakashi’s thighs and played his fingers through the white mess on Kakashi’s stomach, with the drag lines through it he’d made earlier, then he swallowed Kakashi’s cock whole. Kakashi couldn’t help but buck up into that mouth, but Sasuke was ready for it, grabbing onto Kakashi’s thighs and raising his head to avoid choking. Kakashi couldn’t even look down at Sasuke’s hallow cheeks; it felt to damn good to do anything but enjoy it and struggle against Sasuke’s restraining hands.

Sasuke could suck water from a stone. Sasuke deepthroated him and tightened his lips around him to pull up his length, back all the way down, then back up to the head, all the while his tongue playing against the underside. His tongue swirled around the head and poked into the slit as if he was trying to fuck it deep with his tongue. He deepthroated like a pro, taking Kakashi’s entire—not inconsiderable—length all the way down his throat until Kakashi felt his nose touch his crotch, his breath feather his coarser hair, and his bruised, swollen lips touch his tense scrotum. It felt so good to be fully sheathed in that wicked mouth; the cold subterranean air was almost painful on his wet cock as Sasuke slid his throat off his length. Sasuke most definitely enjoyed it. When his jaw started to get tired he started humming and fingering Kakashi’s dripping hole. Kakashi couldn’t withstand much of that and he cam in Sasuke’s waiting mouth.

Kakashi didn’t think he could move and he didn’t want to. Sasuke crawled up next to him and laid down. With the epitome of laziness, Sasuke made a clone to turn off the light.

“Might as well stay here tonight,” Sasuke said as he pulled the blanket from under his body. Kakashi did the same, tempted to tell Sasuke it was only about noon.

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Kakashi could feel hostile chakra coming from below his office. He stood and looked down. There was a gathering of shinobi at the entrance to the tower. He recognized Sakura’s hair from this distance. Using all his skill, he stealthily made his way down, invisible even in the shadowless midday.

A chunin was yelling at Sakura, backed up by his two teammates. A crowd had gathered to watch. “He hasn’t done a single thing to counter the Uchiha! You and he were on the same team as him; he was Hatake’s student! We can’t trust the two of you to work in our interest!”

Kakashi moved out of the shadows of the wall surrounding the tower. “I’ve done far more than any of you will ever realize to protect the village from Sasuke.”

All attention shifted to Kakashi. He was tall, especially with the added height of his white hair, but he wasn’t a very imposing figure unless he revealed that red eye and narrowed his gray one. He did neither now, but neither was he standing nonchalantly with his hands casually in his pockets looking bored.

“The great Hokage come down from on high?” one of the teammates mocked. This was one of the very few times Kakashi had left the tower undisguised.

“He’s one man!” the ringleader shouted. “The only reason you’ve not lead an army against him is because he was your student!”

“You were not on that battlefield,” Kakashi said with a hint of sadness. “Sasuke wiped out a third of our shinobi. Most of us that lived only survived by surrendering. And he killed many who surrendered.”

Sakura looked down; she was nearly one of those killed after surrendering.

“The Hokage should be able to defeat one man!” the chunin argued.

“And who do you purpose can defeat a man who nearly wiped out the allied shinobi army singlehandedly? You? Do you think you know the situation? Sasuke has all but ignored our village. Would you oppose him and turn his attention back to the village he despises the most? I know Sasuke and I can handle him. The one time we Kage planned to make a move against him, he showed that moving behind his back is pointless and he survived a fight with the five of us and our guards. If you have a plan that you think would work against such a man, let me hear it.”

“I want to challenge you for Hokage!” the chunin declared.

It was an effort for Kakashi not to laugh. “You must be joking.”

“I’m serious! I’ll stand up to that arrogant son of a bitch!”

“Sasuke would leave your ashes on the street. Anyway, it’s he who chooses the Kage now and I don’t think he’d choose you even if you did defeat or kill me.”

Sakura wasn’t interfering. Part of her wanted this to be all over, for Kakashi to no longer be Hokage and no longer be Sasuke’s pawn, even though she knew this young shinobi was wrong in every way to replace Kakashi.

“Oh, I’ll defeat you.” Even his companions were stunned when the young man leaped forward.

A direct attack? Kakashi wondered. Either this kid was completely incompetent, or he learned one of the basics of shinobi life: beneath the underneath.

Kakashi back flipped away and into the ground. He sent out a wave of lightning jutsu and heard a cry. He’d been right: the one who attacked him had been a decoy, the real attack was going to come from the ground. Reemerging above, Kakashi found that the man’s teammates had decided to join the fray. Sakura was looking at him, waiting for a signal to back him up or stay out of it. Kakashi shook his head; he’d deal with this himself. ANBU took the same order.

This was a fight to reaffirm his authority, so he decided to show off and show that he wasn’t getting rusty sitting in that tower day after day. Few knew he sparred with Sasuke on almost a regular basis; he was still on the top of his game.

He put the three young men down with a few broken bones, but nothing too serious. He turned to Sakura without a scratch on him. “Get them to the hospital.”

She nodded and started checking on them as others came to help her transport the trio. Kakashi used the ANBU teleporting jutsu to return to his office. He felt awful. Having to fight his own.

Yoshi didn’t know what had happened and sucked at sensing Kakashi’s mood. “It’s nearly time for the semiyearly chunin exam—”

Kakashi shoved a stack of papers off his desk onto the floor at Yoshi’s feet, his depression turning to rage.

“Hokage-sama?” the man nearly squeaked.

“Get out,” Kakashi growled.

He felt the presence of ANBU vanish along with his assistant. His shoulder was suddenly burning. Would that damn seal ever heal! He kicked his desk over. This village was populated with nothing but children! He just had to fight children!

“Damn you, Sasuke,” Kakashi growled. He gripped the upturned edge of his desk and his rage drained as he took a series of deep breaths. He struggled to clear his mind and felt Sakura lurking outside his door. He thought about the young man’s defiance. If there was one man in the world who could take Sasuke on it was Naruto. How long had it been since he visited his other student?

Kakashi came out. “Tell Yoshi to clean that up.” He left and Sakura did not follow.

Naruto wasn’t kept in the hospital for security reasons; rather, he was kept in the Hokage tower. There was always someone with him who could control him if the Kyuubi awoke before Naruto. Yamato was with him now.

“How is he?” Kakashi asked once he shut the door behind him.

Yamato stood at his entrance. “No change. I and Inochi have tried to wake him several times a week, but there’s nothing.”

Kakashi crouched at Naruto’s bedside and put a hand on his student’s forehead. “Naruto.” He stroked his hair. The blond hair had been growing and lay limply on the pillow. “You should be Hokage, not me. Sasuke’s still out there. You have to wake up.”

No response; Naruto didn’t even flinch. “Sakura’s waiting for you and I think Sasuke fears you. I know you said that you didn’t deserve to be Hokage if you couldn’t even save your friend, but you are worthy of Hokage and there are some people you just can’t save; no one can save Sasuke.”

It was always Sasuke for Naruto. Kakashi had to wonder if his love for Sakura was just a game and he really loved Sasuke. Kakashi changed his voice to mimic Sasuke’s. “Naruto. Dobe. Usuratonkachi.” Nothing. Kakashi stroked Naruto’s forehead again. He tried Minato’s voice, not even sure Naruto would recognize it, but there was nothing. Sasuke had him deep.

I backed the wrong horse with Sasuke. I should have focused more on you. One of us will have to kill him. But I don’t think I can.

Kakashi stood and nodded to Yamato as he left. He leaned against the wall in the corridor. There was that damn self-pity again.

Kakashi had to wonder if his self-pity was like blood in the water as he was summoned to Sasuke’s bedroom. Sasuke was perched at the foot of his bed examining Kakashi closely as he appeared and fell back from his support being ripped from him. Kakashi sat up with a glare in his eye.

“You don’t look well,” Sasuke commented.

“What do you want?”

Sasuke sat back as if to say, they were in his bedroom, what did Kakashi think he wanted?

Kakashi lowered his head. Why the hell not? He felt like shit anyway, might as well feed his self-loathing. He nodded and stood up, as if he had a choice.

They both stripped and Kakashi lay down on his back. Sasuke moved over him and kissed him, stroking Kakashi’s hip. It was almost as if they were lovers.

Kakashi shook off the young man’s lips. “Just rape me, Sasuke,” Kakashi said.

“It’s not really rape if you ask for it,” Sasuke answered with a bit of a smirk, but his eyes were dark. He moved to kiss Kakashi’s bared throat.

“Not when it’s you.”

Sasuke came up. “What’s that suppose to mean?”

Kakashi just stared into Sasuke’s black eyes. As much as he might enjoy it, he wanted nothing more than to go back in time and prevent any of this from happing, even if that meant murdering his precious student.

“Hn,” Sasuke said not getting an answer. It didn’t really matter to him anyway. “If it’s rape you want.”

Sex having become a regular thing, Sasuke forwent the stretching, just lubed up and dove in. Sasuke grabbed Kakashi’s wrists and pinned them over his head, using them for leverage as he thrust hard into Kakashi’s body over and over again, giving absolutely no regard to him. He transferred both of Kakashi’s thin wrists to one hand and put his other hand over Kakashi’s mouth, making it harder to breathe.

“Of course the only sounds I’m stopping are your moans of pleasure, isn’t that right, sensei?” Kakashi didn’t respond so Sasuke slid his hand up to cover his nose as well. “Right, sensei?” Kakashi nodded and grunted agreement. Sasuke’s hand slid back down to cover only his mouth.

Then Kakashi felt something odd. It took him several seconds to realize snakes were slithering around his wrists. Then Sasuke let go. Kakashi looked up and could see the snakes were coming from Sasuke’s shoulder. He was caught between disgust and arousal.

With his hands secured by the constricting snakes, Sasuke switched the hands he was using to cover Kakashi’s mouth. Kakashi couldn’t help trying to squirm away when he felt something other than fingers on his abdomen. More snakes were protruding from Sasuke’s other shoulder. Kakashi didn’t care for snakes. He wasn’t afraid of them, he just didn’t like them.

“I thought you wanted to be raped,” Sasuke said.

A snake coiled around Kakashi’s cock which hadn’t softened. The three others slithered over his abdomen. Two ventured further up to tease his nipples with their forked tongues. Sasuke used his left hand to brace himself on the bed and forced two fingers of his right hand into Kakashi’s mouth.

“Bite me and I’ll show you everything I can do with snakes.”

Sasuke rubbed Kakashi’s tongue with his fingers. Kakashi got the idea and started sucking on those fingers, teasing the pads with his tongue. Sasuke’s thrusts had faltered a bit, but now he got back into the brutal rhythm, throwing his head back, enjoying himself thoroughly.

The snake around Kakashi’s cock was slithering, undulating around him. Even if Sasuke wasn’t targeting his prostate, Kakashi was still getting close.

Then Sasuke leaned over him again. The wild look on his face and those dark eyes that seemed to have no whites at all in the dim light, but gleamed nevertheless, were frightening and made Kakashi cum.

The snakes all vanished as did the hand covering Kakashi’s mouth. Kakashi gasped for a proper breath as he shot rope after rope onto his stomach.

“They’re not even real,” Sasuke said. “I lost my contract with snakes when Manda died. Oh, you should have come to me when I still had the curse seal. If you get off on your own fear, you would have loved my other form. You never saw it, did you? Naruto probably told you. But he never saw it once I grew up. Demonic. Fitting, don’t you think?”

Sasuke still hadn’t cum, but he paused to watch and feel Kakashi’s orgasm. He started up again. The sensitivity of having just cam prevented Kakashi from getting hard again for a minute, but Sasuke’s thrusts still felt great. Kakashi was free of Sasuke’s hands and snakes now. He grabbed Sasuke’s sides, feeling the smooth muscle of his back and toned side abs. He tried to pull Sasuke closer. His hands migrated to his hips then his perfectly formed ass to pull him deep inside him. He wanted to lose himself in Sasuke and the pleasure he was giving him and wallow in the shame of loving it.

By the time Sasuke cam, Kakashi was hard again. Sasuke had no quam with sucking him off. Kakashi lifted his hips trying to fuck Sasuke’s mouth, but Sasuke kept raising his head along with Kakashi’s thrust, only gaining Kakashi half an inch of extra penetration before Sasuke moved. As much as he wanted to take control, he was too scared of Sasuke to try to grab him by the hair and force him further onto his cock. Kakashi fisted the bedding when he cam in Sasuke’s mouth. Sasuke didn’t drink it, but let it drip back out over Kakashi’s deflating length. Seeing Sasuke seemingly drooling cum was the sexiest thing he’d ever seen. Sasuke licked the remnant from his lips as if he loved the taste—and maybe he did.

Sasuke wasn’t soft, but he was tired and crawled up beside Kakashi, intending to rest while Kakashi cleaned up in preparation of going home. But Kakashi, sensing this, grabbed his wrist before he could settle down.

“Again?”

Sasuke’s eyes were wide with weariness and sexual satisfaction, but with the slight surprise in his eyes they looked wide with shock.

“Once more?” Kakashi asked.

Sasuke scoffed. “Well, that’s unexpected.” Sasuke moved back over the other with his knees between Kakashi’s legs and his hands on either side of his shoulders. “Why don’t you get me hard?”

In this position, Kakashi figured he didn’t mean with his mouth so he reached for Sasuke’s cock and began stroking it. Sasuke was still slick with lube and felt good in his hand. Sasuke was tired, using that snake jutsu during sex was not easy, especially having it come out of both shoulders. He shut his eyes and relaxed while Kakashi did the work this time.

Kakashi watched Sasuke’s face. He looked the most human when sexually sated.

Finally, Sasuke deemed himself hard enough and just fucked his willing sensei at an easy, natural pace for several minutes until Kakashi cam and then he followed a minute later.

Sasuke finally fell to the side to rest. He could pass out right now, but he had to know: “You were awfully demanding. What’s wrong?”

Kakashi couldn’t believe Sasuke cared; he probably just asked out of idle curiosity. “I had to fight three shinobi today. Konoha shinobi. They challenged me, believing I’m not fit to lead them because of my past association with you. Their leader wanted a shot at Hokage. Children. They want to directly oppose you. You would eat them all alive. I had to fight them.”

“You didn’t kill them.” It wasn’t a question so Kakashi didn’t answer. “Was this punishment enough?” Was that hurt in Sasuke’s voice?

“Or distraction. If they knew the truth . . .”

“What truth?”

Kakashi hesitated. “This.”

Sasuke gave an amused snort. “Would they pity you or just doubt your loyalty even more?”

“Even I don’t know if my loyalty’s been compromised.”

Sasuke stared at his profile for several seconds. “Neither do I.”

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Sasuke never failed to surprise Kakashi. For better or worse. He didn’t know what to make of this.

Izumo ran into his office. “Sasuke’s in the village!”

“What?”

“He’s outside the hospital.”

“Has he attacked anyone or anyone attacked him?” he asked as he stood.

“Not at the time.”

Rather than run there, Kakashi used the summoning tattoo on his shoulder to appear before Sasuke. They faced off in front of the newly rebuilt Konoha hospital.

“Lord Hokage,” Sasuke said without a hint of respect. He stood there with his hand resting on the pummel of his sword which was stuck, as always, through his rope belt in the back.

“What’s going on?”

“I’ve ordered those three dissidents brought out.”

“Why? Dealing with the citizens of Konoha is my job.”

“Kakashi, you disappoint me. You’re too soft. Why do you think I let you keep that abomination of an eye? I expect you to use that eye to keep these people in line and punish them as needed with your Chidori. What they did is considered treason even by Konoha’s standards.”

Kakashi let himself openly glare at Sasuke. “You’re undermining my authority.”

“Authority I gave you. Perhaps I should have ripped that eye out as I planned.”

By this time there was quite a crowd gathering at a—potentially—safe distance. The three young shinobi were brought out. Kakashi repositioned himself to stay between Sasuke and the three chunin.

“Move, Kakashi. If you had done your job in dealing with dissidents, I wouldn’t be here.”

“They are beneath your notice. I can’t let you kill, maim, or psychologically destroy them, I need shinobi. You’ve killed enough.”

“Perhaps not enough.”

“I’ll pay for them.”

“You overestimate your own importance.”

“You underestimate my resolve.” Kakashi’s body moved slightly, he was now ready to attack or defend.

“Challenging me?”

“Opposing you. Leave them; they’ve been punished enough.”

They both took more aggressive stances and Sasuke’s Sharingan came to life. People backed away.

“Three nameless underlings are worth it to you to risk a fight with me?” Sasuke asked.

“Yes.” Kakashi’s resolve did not waver. His muscles tightened, ready to move. The thought that this man was his lover didn’t even enter his mind.

But Sasuke’s body relaxed. “Very well. I’ll not risk injury for those three. I expect future dissidents to be treated more harshly or I’ll install a Hokage who will take necessary action.”

“In future.”

“You will pay for them. Later.”

Kakashi nodded. Sasuke vanished. Kakashi did not let his relief show. He turned to those who brought out the wounded trio. “Take them back in.” Kakashi walked away, ignoring everyone around him. He wondered what Sasuke was playing at.

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Kakashi found out the next night when he was summoned. He found himself standing facing the side of Sasuke’s bed. Sasuke was reclining on his side, head propped on his palm, smirking.

“How’s your standing in Konoha now?”

“What?”

“Everyone now knows you do have a spine and are capable of standing up to me. You alone can reason with or challenge me.” Sasuke looked . . . pleased with himself. “That should stop any dissent.”

“The whole thing was an act?”

“I couldn’t care less about a trio of rebellious chunin. But I do expect you to do penance for them. Strip and get on your knees.”

Fear and arousal coiled in his gut. Sasuke would use this as license to be as brutal as he used to be. Sasuke stood to strip as well then sat on the side of the bed. Kakashi knelt in front of him and did what he was obviously suppose to do, but Sasuke grabbed his hair. Kakashi looked up at him. Sasuke handed him the lube.

“Prepare yourself as you blow me.”

Kakashi scowled, but took the lube and spread it on his fingers. He took Sasuke into his mouth and reached behind him to finger himself. It was humiliating as he knew Sasuke was watching him. Sasuke leaned back a bit to brace himself on one hand, the other going to Kakashi’s hair, musing it encouragingly as Kakashi tried to mimic Sasuke’s excellent technique.

Sasuke wasn’t going to let him go at his own pace though. Sasuke used his grip in Kakashi’s hair to pull him closer. The head of his cock was pressed firmly against the back of Kakashi’s throat and Sasuke didn’t let up until Kakashi repositioned to let his cock further down. Experience was the only thing keeping Kakashi from gagging, but any more and he would probably vomit. Sasuke’s hand went back to being musing rather than forceful before that happened. His throat was probably bruised though.

After the other night, Kakashi was amazed either of them could get it up, but that wasn’t a problem for them. The hand in his hair spoke of desperation and soon it was pulled away and Sasuke leaned back further using both hands to brace himself. Kakashi’d already realized that doing this turned him on between the act itself and the pleasure he forced the Ice Prince to show, but the humiliation and feeling of his fingers inside himself made him painfully hard. Without Sasuke’s hand forcing him further down his cock, Kakashi was starting to enjoy this.

Sasuke grudgingly stopped him. He pulled Kakashi up by the hair onto the bed. Sasuke took him from behind. It felt good how deep Sasuke was able to get inside him.

“I love how tight you are,” Sasuke whispered against Kakashi’s shoulder blade. “Not ruined by someone else.”

What? So Sasuke’s last lover was having sex with someone else? There was so much Kakashi wanted to know, but how to ask? Who was it? A member of his team he had with him after he killed Orochimaru? Orochimaru? Kabuto? Someone else? He hoped it was Suigetsu or that other one. But why did even that thought make something coil in his gut?

Sasuke wasn’t brutal, it was just as it normally was. But Kakashi’s mind wondered, his body remained to enjoy the sex, but his mind was elsewhere.

Sasuke. Ruined by someone else. Who had corrupted Sasuke? He was only sixteen when Sasuke trounced them all. How old had he been when he first had sex? Kakashi hoped it wasn’t against his will. Fire knifed through his heart at that thought.

He thought further back, about the boy he had once been, the boy he’d wanted to protect. That boy was well and truly dead. Itachi had killed him as surely as if he’d plunged his kodachi through his heart. Kakashi had seen Sasuke as a baby when he accompanied Minato to Fugaku’s home once back when the Uchiha were still loyal. Then he’d seen him following his older brother like a puppy when the young Jounin was running errands for his mother and either took Sasuke with him or Sasuke had just followed. That smiling, happy kid was gone forever. Sasuke was already dead. Was there even a soul behind those eyes anymore?

When he opened his eyes, he realized that he’d been spun onto his back while he was thinking. He was staring right into those black eyes. No, there was nothing there. He was being fucked by a corpse. But it wasn’t just Itachi who killed him; it had been Konoha too.

He was flooded with sympathy for Sasuke; he really had no choice in becoming what he became, being manipulated since he was eight. Ten years later how could Sasuke be anything but what his brother and Konoha and Orochimaru and Madara influenced him to be? Who could really blame him for being a murderous, vengeful, cold, emotionless, bastard?

Kakashi snaked his arms around Sasuke’s to grip his biceps. As empty as Sasuke was to him, he felt for him, felt sad for him. He wanted to pull Sasuke down and embrace him.

Don’t do it, idiot, Kakashi thought to himself. Don’t do it.

But it was Sasuke who leaned down to kiss him. Whatever punishment Sasuke might have intended this to be, it turned into love making. Though it was a punishment of sorts to Kakashi; emotional torture. He could no longer deny he felt something for Sasuke. Kakashi threaded his fingers through Sasuke’s soft hair, kissing back with more heart than he ever had for Sakura.

Sasuke continued to rock into his body more gently now that they were locked in a kiss, but his abdomen rubbed against the underside of Kakashi’s cock with every movement. Kakashi cam hard between them and hardly noticed Sasuke doing the same a few seconds later. He fell asleep, physically and emotionally exhausted with Sasuke still inside him.

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Just letting you all know, the next chapter is the big turning point of the story (as if you couldn’t see that from the last two paragraphs ^_^).