Desperation

Desperation

Chapter 8: Uh-Oh

The news the following day that Naruto had broken off his engagement with Ino took everyone by surprise: especially Ino. When Hinata finally heard the news, she felt beyond guilty.

Upon waking up in her own bed, Hinata had decided to fall asleep again, hoping that perhaps it had all been a very pleasant, though unexpected dream. She hadn't really had sex with Naruto again, and she hadn't been returned to her own home clearly via Naruto's doing because nothing had happened. Right? Or had it?

When Hinata woke up the second time and the situation was exactly the same as before, Hinata realized with another on coming panic attack that it truly had happened, and that it wasn’t a dream, though it felt farm from reality. She idly wondered if that was how Naruto had felt the first time: if he had tried to write off their encounter as a dream because it just seemed too improbable.

Of course, waking up for the second time, her body sore (why there was still soreness after her second time, she didn't quite understand) in places that she certainly didn't work out on a regular basis helped prove just how real her night with him had been. She hadn't (and apparently nor had he) cleaned the stickiness between her legs, and it was obvious with the way that her clothes were folded (creased in half instead of on the seam as she did) that someone else had folded her clothing.

Hinata had spent the morning in the shower feeling numb and wondering what she was going to do the next time that she ran into Naruto because this time, beyond a doubt, he had to know.

She took much more time than normal preparing to go down to breakfast, and she was grateful that she didn't have any missions to go on for the day. Of course, that didn't mean that none wouldn't come in, but for the time, she took her time as leisurely as she felt like in her somewhat state of shock that Naruto knew that they had had sex.

The news that she had heard that morning at her own breakfast table just confirmed that he knew even more.

"Ino?" Hinata gasped, surprised to see Ino waiting for her at the breakfast table. Her father stood by the side, looking at Ino as though not quite sure what to make of her.

Ino’s eyes were puffy and red, and the make-up that she wore looked smeared on her face. She was sitting at the far end of the table, and Hinata's father stood next to her, almost like some sort of guard.

Hinata knew better. Her father rarely allowed un-announced guests to come over, and he stood there not as a protector, but as a predator, ready to throw Ino out of his house personally. Still, Hinata wondered what Ino could possibly have said to her father to let her come in not only un-announced but before breakfast.

"What happened?" Ino asked, her voice wavering slightly as she looked at Hinata. Hinata stood frozen, looking between Ino and her father who was standing by her. What happened? What happened last night? Ino was asking what had happened last night.

No. No. No, no, no. This was not good. If Ino knew something...if Ino started talking about what had happened between her and Naruto with her father standing right there, then not only was Hinata in deep trouble but Naruto would be too. Hinata felt her insides freeze, and she couldn’t believe it when her voice came out steady.

"What?" Hinata asked, trying and actually succeeding for once at feigning ignorance.

"This morning, Naruto came by and said that he had to break off our e-engagement. He said that he'd done something s-stupid and that he'd somehow done something really a-awful to you, and it affected our relationship but he didn't say what," Ino said, sniffing here and there as she explained herself. It felt strange for Hinata to see Ino so sad when just the night before they had gone over to Tsunade’s looking for information on Naruto. What a difference!

"Naturally when I hear that someone claims that they know someone who did something "really awful" to my daughter, I would like to know what, especially since it seems that it has made Yamanaka-san here very upset," Hiashi said.

Hinata swallowed. So that was why her father had allowed Ino to come in. Ino must have explained that being there had something to do with her.

"Awful? Naruto-kun has never been awful to me. He's always v-very sweet and kind," Hinata said slowly. ‘He’s also gentle,’ she added mentally, along with a few other thoughts. Hinata's heart raced. Naruto thought he'd done something awful to her? Did he not realize that she was the one that had gone after him? Did he think it was the other way around? Done something awful to her...did he think that he had raped her?

Hinata had to put her hand to her mouth as a slightly hysterical giggle wanted to escape from her at the thought that he might think he’d forced her. It was far from the truth.

Hinata took a deep breath. She had to be calm. Had to stay cool.

Her entire body shook, and she didn't want yet another panic attack to make her lose it. It would not do anyone any good if she lost her control in front of Ino and especially not her father. She truly feared what her father might do if he found out about what she and Naruto had done the night before.

"Have you thought about talking to Sasuke-kun? This all seems a bit strange. No one has done anything awful to me. Maybe you should ask Sasuke if he played a practical joke on Naruto using a genjutsu, and Naruto thought he did something he didn't really do," Hinata said, thinking back to Naruto's own words when talking about how he had thought having sex with Hinata the first time had all been a joke.


"And then I thought it was a practical joke that Sasuke was playing but he doesn't play practical jokes. So I thought maybe he was just being an ass because he does that. But, he didn't seem to know what I was talking about, and he likes to take credit for his bastardly ways."


"Sasuke-kun doesn't play practical jokes," Ino said firmly.

"But Naruto-kun even mentioned to me that he thought that Sasuke-kun had played a practical joke on him involving a genjutsu to do with me," Hinata said, her voice firm. It was the truth after all. It just wasn't in the right context. Hinata couldn't believe how sure of herself that she sounded.

Of course, there was the fact that her mind was clearly still numb with shock.

And if she were honest with herself, she was unexpectedly ecstatic. Naruto had broken up with Ino! She wondered if her own excitement allowed her to do things she normally wouldn’t do.

She still couldn’t believe that Naruto had broken up with Ino. Naruto was no longer with Ino, so was there a chance, considering what had happened between the two of them, that she could actually end up with Naruto?

But she couldn't show that excitement. Not yet. Ino was there, in tears over the broken engagement. Hinata knew for a fact now that Ino had – and clearly still – cared about Naruto. She felt slightly guilty now, seeing how upset Ino was. She didn't understand how the two of them had ended up getting engaged so fast, but clearly something had made them do it, something that had made them happy.

The excitement that she initially had began to extinguish, and she wished that she would stop thinking things out. It would make her nervous and unhappy to think that she had made not only Ino, but possibly Naruto upset with what she had done.

She didn't want that. Hinata sighed, deciding she ought to say the right thing, even if it meant Naruto would end up with Ino instead of her. She kept reminding herself that she wanted him happy.

"Talk to him. This seems very strange. Naruto has never done anything awful to me," Hinata said, and she smiled a little.

Ino looked at her rather confused. Hinata knew she would be confused if she and Ino switched places. Hinata could practically read the question in Ino’s mind. Why would Naruto tell Ino that he’d hurt Hinata if that wasn’t so?

"I think it is time for you to go Yamanaka-san," Hyuuga Hiashi said very quietly but coolly to Ino. She looked up at him, swallowed, and nodded. "I would see you out, but I need a private word with my daughter," Hiashi said, his eyes trained on Hinata the entire time he spoke. Hinata's body tensed at her father's words.

"Bye Hinata. I hope you're right and nothing bad has happened," Ino said as she gave Hinata a wave, wiping at her eyes before leaving.

Hinata didn't have time to think over Ino’s departure as her father stood staring down at her. Her body trembled, and she had a feeling that he knew.

"He's never done anything awful to you," Hiashi's voice sounded cold, and slightly distant as he repeated Hinata’s earlier words. "Imagine my surprise this morning when your Aunt Hikaru came to me, saying there was a sobbing young woman at our door. She said that young Yamanaka was distraught, saying that Naruto had broken off their engagement because he thought that he had done something awful involving you."

Hinata remained quiet.

"When I think of a couple breaking up, and especially when I think of a man breaking up with his fiancé due to doing something ‘awful to’ or perhaps with another female I think of infidelity. Let me just say that if Naruto has never done anything ‘awful’ to you, that if he has done something, anything at all to you that only a man who is married to his wife should do, then hopefully he broke off his engagement with Yamanaka-san because he intended to get re-engaged to you. Do I make myself clear, Hinata, for Naruto's sake?"

"Yes, sir. But Naruto-kun has never attempted to approach me in that way," Hinata said, while adding in her mind, at least not when I hadn't started it first.

Her father seemed taken aback by her answer, as though he had been certain he had figured out what had happened. But Hinata's steadfast resolve clearly threw him off guard, even if he had figured it out.

"Good," Hiashi said, not bothering to say any more as he exited the room. Hinata swallowed and dashed back up to her room, barely managing to rush through it to the other side to her bathroom where she promptly threw up.

She couldn't believe that she had just lied not only to Ino but to her father as well.

The lengths she would go to in order to protect Naruto! Hinata stood up, trying to collect her thoughts, her body still shaking. Even though she couldn't help but feel proud with herself at having been able to lie to her father (she never thought she'd be proud of herself for being able to lie!) she was grateful that she had managed to protect Naruto. Her father would hunt Naruto down if he ever found out that he had even touched her any more than two shinobi ought to.

When Hinata had finally calmed down somewhat she couldn't help but wonder as to what might happen now that Naruto had broken up with Ino. She still had never found out why they had decided to get married in the first place, but she hoped that Ino would be unsuccessful in getting Naruto to re-ask her to marry him.

She selfishly hoped so very hard.

- - - - - - - - - - - -

Six weeks.

It had been six weeks since Hinata had seen Naruto. She hadn’t seen Ino at all either, but that bothered her a lot less, even though she wanted to ask Ino what had happened. Still, Hinata heard the constant gossip about Naruto and Ino’s sudden engagement and then their sudden break-up, so she knew that she would know if they had gotten back together. She was glad that they were still broken up, but it made her feel guilty to feel happy at the problems that she had caused.

After a few weeks had gone by since the last time Hinata had seen Naruto, the gossip died down, and Hinata had a feeling that Ino and Naruto getting together as a couple again just wasn’t going to happen. However, she hadn’t been able to find Naruto to find out what he thought of her, and what he though about what had happened.

She had missions outside of Konoha that left her unable to seek Naruto out. And she had been having bad luck. When she was at home, Naruto had been out on long-term missions, and she had heard that when he was home, she was out on missions.

While Hinata desperately wanted to see Naruto again, as time went on, she actually began to fear their encounter more and more.

First, if he hadn't sought her ought the next day after their second time having sex, she knew that it was likely that he felt guilty for one reason or another.

Second...the second reason was slowly starting to drive Hinata insane; something that she didn't want to believe was real. Something that didn’t make sense. Something that couldn’t be real. It just wasn’t possible. It just wasn’t possible that she was pregnant.

There were things in life that Hinata didn't really think happened; this was one of them.

Hinata never thought that a girl got pregnant the same night as losing her virginity. It was something that she'd heard about in books and stories but believed rarely, if ever, happened in real life, and especially not to people that she knew. Not to her.

The possibility of being pregnant just didn't seem practical to Hinata. It just wasn't possible. Yes she'd had...this was hard for her to think about sometimes... sex...with Naruto: twice. But it just didn't seem plausible that she could have gotten pregnant from just the first time. So maybe it had been the second time?

Sadly, research said a lot against her ‘not possible theory,’ especially since she had missed two of her periods in a row.

Hinata finally realized, as she looked through all the medical books that she had gotten from the Konoha shinobi library, that teen pregnancy was as high as it was for a lot of reasons (even though she wasn’t a teen, she was young enough that a lot of the information still applied to her).

First, naturally, was the un-protected part.

Yes, she hadn't thought about the precautions when she had gone after Naruto. Then again, she hadn't really been thinking much at all. That was something that she should have thought about. Unprotected sex naturally left openings for pregnancies. She knew that.

What she hadn't known before doing this research was that some women tended to be more fertile than others. In Hinata's research she learned about something called the seven to ten ratio. Women whose waist measurement was seven-tenths the size of their hips were considered to be extremely fertile. The book Hinata read explained that these women at times may not be "pretty" in face, but as long as their bodies were close to that ratio, men tended to go after them on a subconscious desire to reproduce with the best possible mate. At least Hinata now knew why some not so pretty girls had lots of guys going after them.

Hinata had taken her own measurements and found that she was a .71, almost a perfect seven to ten ratio. This evidence made Hinata admit that she was more likely to be fertile than other women. She was active, as a shinobi, and kept herself healthy and had no known medical problems, which were others factors in adding to the likelihood of getting pregnant.

Then there came Naruto. He was in his early twenties, and it seemed that he was very healthy and probably had a (Hinata blushed) fairly high sperm count due to his age and the level of his physical activity. There was also the foot note in the book that said that men who were not sexually active as often tended to have an initially high sperm count due to the three month build-up factor of the life of one sperm, whatever that meant. (Some of the medical knowledge went over Hinata’s head, but she wasn’t about to ask Sakura or anyone else to explain it to her.)

While Hinata wasn't sure that Naruto didn't jerk himself off (the thought made her blush, encouraged by, not despite of, her experience with him), for some reason, she just saw Naruto as the kind that was more hyper because he didn't jerk himself off and was naturally sexually frustrated. Of course, she could be wrong.

Hinata continued to try and find some medical evidence that she wasn’t pregnant, but instead she found out more that made her think she might be pregnant. She went on to read about how there tended to be a total of four days during the woman's cycle that a woman could get pregnant. Four days out of a twenty-eight cycle. That was a one to seven chance of randomly having sex on one of the days when her egg was in range of getting impregnated. When Hinata did her calculations, she'd lost her virginity on the second day of the release of her egg, leaving that day as well as two more days for Naruto’s sperm to impregnate her egg.

All of these factors worked against Hinata's initial understanding that it was hard to get a woman pregnant. In fact, the only thing that seemed to be "against" her, was their, umm, (Hinata blushed as she remembered it) position. If she had laid on her back as Naruto entered her (Hinata blushed even more) would have made it easier for the sperm to enter her and find its "target." As it was, their first time she had been on top.

All this reading made Hinata feel very nervous about her state of being. If what she read was true, then all those stories and books out there that a couple having sex for the first time and getting pregnant on the first go didn't seem so far fetched.

There was also the fact that about a week ago she’d started getting very, very nauseous. If she had truly gotten pregnant after her first time with Naruto, morning sickness set in after six weeks. She had started getting sick after seven weeks if she were pregnant, which meant that this week she was about eight weeks along.

Except, except she couldn’t be pregnant! This was her.

It couldn't be real. She wasn't sure what she would do if she were truly pregnant. Naruto had had plans to marry Ino, and Hinata couldn't do that to Ino. She had messed up once, but she didn't want to hurt Ino even though they weren’t engaged anymore. Ino would be able to figure out the math of when she got pregnant, and Ino would know that they’d had sex after the engagement announcement. Ino would also know that Hinata had been truthful to her about not knowing what Naruto had done that was so ‘awful’ if In figured out that Naruto was the father.

Then there was the biggest thing that Hinata worried about. The only other person besides herself who knew who the father was, was Naruto himself. Naruto would know he was the father. Then what? What would Naruto do then? What would her father do to Naruto? This was all assuming that she was pregnant, which Hinata was still having a hard time believing.

Unfortunately the pregnancy test that Hinata had taken had told her that she was pregnant. Three more tests later Hinata started to think that she wanted a second opinion, despite all four of those little sticks telling her other wise.

Unable to face Sakura, and possibly having to tell her that she was pregnant with her teammate's baby, (Sakura was sure to tell Naruto), and not having the courage to look Tsunade in the eye to admit what type of girl that she was, Hinata headed to the only other female that she could truly trust and had trusted for years.

Hinata sought out Kurenai, hoping her jounin teacher might be able to help her. Kurenai had had a baby. Surely she would know if Hinata were pregnant, right?

The thought that she could activate her byakugan and see whether or not a new chakra signature had formed in her stomach crossed her mind, but one, if the child was only a few weeks in the development stage, she might not be strong enough to sense the chakra (Neji would be able to see it, but there was no way Hinata would ask him). And two, Hinata feared that she might actually be able to see something if she looked hard enough. She didn’t think she could handle it if she found out that she was with child.

She arrived at Kurenai's doorstep terrified. Not sure if she would be able to tell Kurenai in words what was going on, instead, she took out what she had brought, hidden safely from view in her pocket. She pulled out yet another pregnancy test. As she held it in her hand reality started to crash down on her. Kurenai opened the door, looking very confused to see Hinata there. She held her son close to her chest, his chubby little hand waving at Hinata happily.

"Hinata," Kurenai said in surprise. She looked at Hinata's face, and then down to the pregnancy test that Hinata held in her hand. As Hinata had thought, her voice didn’t work, and she hoped Kurenai understood the implications. "Oh my," Kurenai said, gasping a little bit.

"Uh-oh!" the toddler said, cooing after his mother's shocked tone. Kurenai gave a short laugh that was humorless.

"Uh-oh indeed."


Next Chapter: Being Pregnant

A few people on fanfiction dot net guessed that Hinata was probably going to get pregnant, and if you’ve seen the warnings on adult fanfiction dot net you would know that this story does have pregnancy in it. Hope you liked the chapter! ~ Jelp