Broken Kunai

No MPreg! Several people have expressed their concern, but that isn’t something I’m into (have read a few, but not my thing). Sasuke was just talkin’ dirty. *And there was much rejoicing*

In case you missed my retraction:
VampireDoll666, Afrieal, Harveststangel99, Rosebunse, Silverfix588: I’m so sorry! I didn’t get the e-mails notifying me of your reviews!!!! I’m so sorry!

Daga: Thank you! It may be ago, but I love to hear things like that, but it’s because I love my craft and to hear someone say that, makes me feel all warm and fuzzy. Yeah, I’ve neglected Naruto, but he will be reappearing soon. Naruto/Hinata is pretty much going to be cannon it looks like and I’m happy for Hinata, but I think Sasuke/Hinata is the more reasonable when you look at their personalities, both subdued and full of family pride and sort of cursed by their families. Anyway. Gai isn’t going away either. As for the MPreg, yeah, it’s creepy. There was a story I was reading recently and suddenly (I don’t think it was in the description) Naruto’s knocked up by Sasuke! What? It can work and I’ll read it if it’s because the kyuubi, but yeah, it’s weird and not something I’ll ever write. Though the idea of a kid with Sasuke and Kakashi as the parents is adorable! Not gonna happen though. ^_-
babylove969: That is an awesome idea! However, it doesn’t meld with the rest of the story. However, after I wrote the whole Gaara/Sasuke thing, I realized how reasonable it was and now I’m considering writing a whole story about that and that may be the impetus. Thanks! I’ll be sure to credit you when I do write it. ^_^
wikedsinn: Sorry, no love for Gaara. Thank you! I really just like hearing you all appreciate the story. Hits don’t mean people liked what they read. ^_^ Thank you for reviewing!
Stefire: It would be adorable, but I didn’t mean to imply MPreg. Thank you for the review!
Rosebunse: Um, which part?
VampireDoll666: LOL! Gai is stirring up trouble. I think you’ll no longer hate Sasuke the most; Gai will take the top spot in about ten minutes. I guess that’s a mark of success on Sasuke’s part if you’re defending him. ^_^ Thank you and I’m still sorry I miss your review (did finally get to read it). FanFiction changed the subject line, so when I sorted by subject, I only saw those in the old style.
Afrieal: I am so gratified that you liked it. I’m sorry about the cold shower, but it makes me happy to hear. They would be adorable. My gay friend said they have the technology now to take DNA from a guy and replace the female DNA in the egg so two men can have genetic children. But no MPreg in this one.
Silverfox588: I live to give people nosebleeds (one way or another ^_^).
1CarinoInu: I love your work so much. Thank you for your suppose of mine as well. I love slut Sasuke and so does Kakashi. ^_^

Thank you all so much for the reviews, you’ve made me happy just in time for Christmas (writing this author note on Dec. 21). This is the one area of my life were I need validation, in my writing. Thank you all! And a belated happy holidays! Plus, happy Valentine’s Day.

There is some anti-gay views and homophobic slurs in this chapter and the next.

Beta'ed by PhoenixInnocence

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Kakashi lived alone for over twenty years, but loneliness was getting to him. Part of it was that he no longer had a career, something to distract him from being alone.

He trained to keep a lean body to retain Sasuke’s affections now that he’d wholeheartedly accepted them. He did pushups—avoiding using his false leg—sit-ups, and used the weights Sasuke kept in a spare room as a little gym. He also took his ninken out for walks as he practiced using his leg. He also tried out the puppet jutsu; it was one thing to see it with his Sharingan and another to be trained in it. He was getting the hang of it; he could turn off the light from across the room. The mind boggled at how else he could use it.

Tidy up, a shower, and he was finished for the day. It was early afternoon.

Kakashi threw himself on the couch. Unfortunately he’d lied when he told Team Seven he had lots of hobbies. He ate some rice and played with his false leg—he got the toes to move separately. He didn’t want to waste the shower and work out more, so he tried to nap.

He was disappointed not to receive another little note from Sasuke. He was hoping he’d start a collection of love notes, gather them in a little book. He groaned. I should ask Hinata to teach me how to press flowers while I’m at it. Since when did I start becoming a girl? I’m the Seme for fuck’s sake!

Finally, it was approaching dinner time. He went to the ramen stand and was happy to see Naruto and Iruka there.

“Mind if I join you?” He sat down before they could accept or reject.

“Kakashi-sensei!” Naruto greeted enthusiastically. “Where’s Sasuke?”

“Mission.”

“I really miss him on our team.”

“How are you, Iruka-sensei?” Kakashi asked.

“Good. What about you? Naruto told me about your trip to Suna.”

“Getting used to it. But I’m bored. I’ve been going on missions since I was six and suddenly, no missions.”

“You could teach,” the chunin suggested.

“Ha!” Kakashi exclaimed. “I barely had the patience to deal with these three scameps.”

Iruka smiled. Kakashi knew the man had to be joking anyway since he objected to Kakashi putting them in the chunin exams so soon. He wasn’t the nurturing type and didn’t take shit lightly. He was tolerant of Naruto because he was his own sensei’s son and the Kyuubi vessel and he put up with Sasuke because he was the last Uchiha and very much like himself at that age. Luckily, Sakura’s only fault was her crushing on Sasuke all the time. He was actually pretty proud of her now that he thought of it. She impressed him greatly when she took to tree climbing almost immediately. It was good fire up the butts of his male students.

Naruto took over the conversation and Kakashi let the two of them do all the talking. He ate his ramen and excused himself while Naruto started on his fifth bowl. Kakashi left a little extra for poor Iruka who was paying Naruto’s bill.

Back to the bar.

Gai was sitting there and it finally struck Kakashi how odd that was: every time Kakashi came to the bar, Gai was here or showed up. Kakashi sat next to him at the bar.

“You seem to be drinking more than you used to,” Kakashi said.

“Yeah, maybe. You too.”

“After the war, I’m surprised more people aren’t. Not being able to work and being alone in that house while Sasuke’s gone makes me lonely and depressed.”

“You and he are really close now, aren’t you?”

Kakashi didn’t like this subdued Gai. “Yeah. He likes to hang around the house when not on missions and I don’t like going out that much so we’re practically attached at the hip.”

Gai nodded and hummed approvingly. “It’s best someone powerful kept an eye on him.”

“What do you mean?”

The bartender brought Kakashi his sake.

“Well, he’s a compulsive traitor, isn’t he? I mean, he defected from Konoha to Orochimaru, murdered Orochimaru, and turned on Madara, Obito, whoever it was.”

Gai ignored the frown and wince at the mention of his former teammate’s name.

“Who had he ever showed loyalty to? Not even to his brother. Itachi sacrifices his life for Konoha and for that Sasuke sought vengeance on us. He doesn’t understand the concept of loyalty. That’s the definition of a compulsive traitor if there ever was one. I also think he likes holding onto resentment.”

Kakashi was angry, but Gai wasn’t wrong: Sasuke had done all of those things. And there was that little tale, what Sasuke thought Kakashi was thinking about appearing to be loyal then attack from within. Maybe that had been a plan. And what better cover than to do the illogical: shack up with a maimed ex-Jounin. Sasuke might be biding his time until he was completely trusted.

No. No! Kakashi didn’t want to believe that. He’d just accepted that he and Sasuke loved each other, he wasn’t going to doubt him again! Again. Kakashi felt sick. He did doubt Sasuke. Sasuke wanted his trust second only to his love. Kakashi thought he’d given it, but it wasn’t some tangible commodity once given not easily taken back. His faith in Sasuke was shaken again.

Kakashi kept his warring emotions from his face, but he was staring blankly at the lower shelves behind the bar.

Gai couldn’t help feeling just a little bit satisfied. He wanted to hurt Kakashi and he wanted to destroy any hope that he and Sasuke would be happy.

“He’s used to it,” Kakashi said. “It’s what kept him going after Itachi killed everyone and left and it’s been the one motivating force in his life since he was eight. It is hard to give that up after it was a way of life for so long. It’s no wonder he transferred anger to Sakura briefly. But he’s mellowed out now. He’s happy, content. More than I am. I feel like a freeloader.”

“I guess you can’t blame Sasuke for being the way he is. Like you can’t blame Obito. See you kill the love of his life . . . that had to be horrific.”

Kakashi hummed agreement. “I forgive him.”

“Because you feel guilty.”

“Yeah. I feel a little guilty for how Sasuke turned out too. I could have done more to help him shed his vengeance. I thought I had more time. I understand vengeance, but I didn’t fully understand his. I often wonder how things would be different if I had stayed with Sasuke, if Rin had lived, if I had just gone with Obito to save Rin rather than argue about it.”

“We all knew Rin loved you and Obito loved Rin, but what about you?”

“Me?” Kakashi was actually caught off guard by the question. “I didn’t love anyone. I never really did. Especially after they both died. Anyone who mattered to me, love or friendship, died. You’ve survived, Genma’s survived, and Anko, Aoba, and Raido. But Minato died, Hayate died. Inoichi and Shikaku. Several others. The friends might be statistically normal for a shinobi, but both my parents and my entire team? I’m afraid that loving someone might be a death sentence.

“And then I lost Sasuke. He didn’t die, but it was almost worse knowing that he was out there and fearing what might be happening to him. The one who scorned us after the Kage Summit, that wasn’t Sasuke. I thought he had turned into that, but now I know it was just temporary.”

“Are you certain it was temporary?”

“Yes.” But there was now doubt in his mind. But he didn’t so much fear that that was the real Sasuke, but he feared that maybe Sasuke was prone to such . . . attacks. He never wanted to see Sasuke like that again. Never again.

“I hope so. I never saw you look worse than when you returned after that. Well, not since you killed Rin.”

It seemed out of nowhere, but Kakashi said, “I don’t want to go to another funeral.”

“You can always choose not to go, but they’re likely to be several more.”

Maybe even Sasuke’s.

Kakashi poured himself another cup of sake.

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Sasuke was home that evening. It was after sunset, but not terribly late. Sasuke came in and took his sword from his belt and looked around for Kakashi. No one here? He checked the bedroom, using his Sharingan to see in the dark so he wouldn’t wake him with a light. But Kakashi wasn’t there. Sasuke was a little worried.

Kakashi could just be eating out or hanging out with his friends or even having dinner with Naruto and/or Sakura. Or he could be injured out in the training grounds, his leg malfunctioning. He wished he was a Sage like Naruto and could locate specific chakra easily.

He bounced on the balls of his feet trying to decide what to do. He decided Kakashi was out with friends and so he took a shower. If Kakashi wasn’t drunk enough to vomit on him, maybe they’d have sex when he got home.

Clean, Sasuke slipped into an oversized shirt and crawled into bed, otherwise naked. He drifted off.

Sasuke woke up a few hours later, alone. He got up and checked the house: Kakashi still wasn’t home. He got dressed and went out to look for him.

Not for the first time, Sasuke envied Naruto’s sage abilities. He was sorely tempted to go become a snake sage like Kabuto. He really didn’t know where to search for Kakashi. He checked the training grounds. There were teams out there and some individuals doing night exercises, but not Kakashi’s familiar presence. He checked Kakashi’s favorite restaurants, the Hokage tower, the monument. Nothing.

Kakashi had given him a small vial of his blood to summon his ninken if needed, inspired by Sasuke’s own story of how Suigetsu summoned Manda after Sasuke used the giant snake to avoid Deidara’s suicide blast. Guruko appeared. Sasuke really didn’t have control over which dog was summoned. Not yet anyway.

“I can’t find Kakashi; will you help me?”

“Hai.” The beagle sniffed the air. He ran a few blocks away and sniffed again. Ran down another street and sniffed. After a few more dead ends, he finally caught his master’s scent. He led Sasuke to a bar.

They both entered to find only about half a dozen patrons. It was getting rather late. Guruko trotted ahead to a booth in the back where it was dark. Guruko whined and pawed the booth. Sasuke came up and found Kakashi slumped on the table.

“Who was with him?” he asked Guruko.

The beagle sniffed the opposite side of the booth. “Gai.”

Sasuke sighed. He sat on the little bit of the seat that was free next to Kakashi and pressed his head against his lover’s. “Kakashi.”

The older man didn’t move, but he was breathing.

“Why do you adults do this to yourself?” Sasuke asked the unconscious man. “Thank you, Guruko,” Sasuke said. “Go on home; I’ll get him home and take care of him.”

The dog vanished.

Sasuke pulled Kakashi out of the booth, completely dead weight. He pulled him past the bartender.

“Does he owe anything?”

“On his tab.”

“Thanks.”

Once outside on the deserted street, Sasuke sat him up against the outer wall of the bar and sighed. He crouched down, pulled Kakashi’s arms over his shoulders and grabbed Kakashi’s knees. He straightened up and started for home. For a moment he was reminded of Itachi carrying him like this.

Sasuke struggled to make a clone to open the gate and the door. The clone then helped ease Kakashi onto the bed and strip him down to his boxers and take off his false leg. Once he was tucked in, the clone was dismissed and Sasuke got back into his nightclothes and crawled back in.

“Why are you unhappy?” Sasuke asked the sleeping man.

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This was becoming all too familiar. Kakashi crawled out of bed to get to the bathroom in the dark. His body lurched, trying to expel the overdose of alcohol from his stomach. He heaved a few more times. Why did he drink so much last night? Why so much?

He barely registered the sound of running water. Someone pushed him to sit against the ofuro and wiped his face and hands. Then he was being pulled up and dragged back to bed. Those hands didn’t leave him, one rubbed circles on his back and the other petted his hair. He was too drunk to care who was doing that, though he did entertain the notion it was his father or his even longer dead mother. Or Rin. He liked that thought. Taking care of their pathetic, drunk son/friend. He fell back to sleep.

The next time he woke up, his head hurt. He groaned and tried to get out of bed, momentarily forgetting he was missing a leg. Someone swooped in to catch him.

“How do you function without me?” Sasuke asked in a low, soft voice.

“Sasuke?”

“Who else would I be? Sit back down. Head hurt? I’ll bring you some water and pills.”

Sasuke sat him down and retreated from the room. Kakashi tried to get a handle on the last few hours. So it wasn’t Rin who was rubbing his back, it was Sasuke. When did Sasuke get home? How did he get back from the bar?

Sasuke returned with painkillers and a large glass of water.

“Take these.” Sasuke handed the pills to Kakashi.

In an unbelievable show of trust for a shinobi, Kakashi took the pills without hesitation. He took the water and drank the whole thing. When he finished, he feared he might hurl again, but he kept it down.

“Thank you. How did I get home?”

“I carried you.”

Kakashi winced.

“You weren’t here when I came home so I went to bed. You weren’t back when I woke up a few hours later so I summoned one of your ninken to help me find you.”

“I’m sorry, Sasuke.”

“Why? Why did you get so drunk?”

“I’m not sure.”

“You’re unhappy. Why?”

Kakashi took Sasuke’s hand. “You weren’t here,” he said with a smile on his bare face.

Sasuke stared at him. “What’s really wrong? Still the leg? Being retired?”

Kakashi pulled Sasuke closer. He put his hands on Sasuke’s waist to pull him onto the bed with him. He hugged Sasuke hard.

“I’m glad you’re home.”

“Don’t get off the subject.”

“I’m not. Just let me enjoy this.”

Sasuke put his arms around Kakashi as well. It did feel good just to be close.

“I’m so sorry, Sasuke,” Kakashi whispered.

Sasuke was surprised by the gravity of Kakashi voice. “You getting drunk isn’t that big a deal. You didn’t sleep with someone, did you?”

“No. You asked me for my trust. I want to trust you—I do—but I can’t help doubting you. Though I think you deserve better, I want to stay with you. I do love you even if I can’t trust you.”

Kakashi moved his lips to Sasuke’s ear and covered them with his hand; he was a shinobi and was bred to be paranoid. “Even if you do plot against Konoha and destroy it, I’d probably stay by you.”

Sasuke hugged him tighter. “I promise you,” Sasuke said so that even if there was someone eavesdropping, they could easily hear, “I have no intentions of harming Konoha. I made my decision not to let my brother’s sacrifice be in vain and I believe in what Hashirama was trying to do.” Sasuke smiled. “I was here in Konoha while all you shinobi were off fighting Tobi and Madara. Orochimaru brought the Hokage back and I could have used them against Konoha. I didn’t. I took them to the battlefield rather than destroy Konoha while all its hounds were away. I have no intention of attacking this village. I understand you can’t fully trust me—my behavior before I came back gave you no reason to believe me—but if you can just be happy and love me and let me love you, I will be happy.” Sasuke pulled back and his eyes darted over Kakashi’s face. “I really do love you. If you can trust me in that, doubt everything else.”

“I’ll trust you.”

“What brought this on? What goes on when I’m away?”

“People talk. They don’t realize we’re together. They talk.”

“About me?”

“I’m sorry. I won’t listen anymore. It’s just that they’re right about so much, I start to wonder.”

“What do ‘they’ say?”

“You’re a selfish, compulsive traitor who hurt us all so terribly.”

“Who says this?” Sasuke’s voice was hard.

Kakashi shrugged. “Gai said something about it.”

Sasuke hugged him again. “I wish you could go out with me on missions, then you’d never be alone long enough to get weird ideas. I’m rich enough to stay home, but Tsunade would never stand for that and I’d be way too bored. Have you talked to Tsunade about guard duty or gate duty or something?”

“No, I’ve been putting it off. It’s a bit embarrassing to be given gate duty; it’s like a demotion. The great copy-nin stuck doing gate duty. I know it’s pride.”

Sasuke finger combed Kakashi’s hair. “I’d be far more concerned if you abandoned your pride. I know you’d never teach at the academy—you could barely stand the three of us—but maybe as a special trainer like that guy with the glasses. The one who taught that brat Naruto hangs out with.”

“Ebisu?”

“Yeah. Train people for the chunin exams, jounin, ANBU, whatever. Your talents are wasted lounging around my house and getting drunk when I’m not here. Or perhaps you could take on another genin team. Especially with your new leg, you should be able to do up to B rank.”

“I really don’t want another bunch of scameps.”

“Find something to do; I’m worried about you. Dragging your drunk ass home after a night of carousing is one thing; you being drunk and depressed isn’t something I want to deal with. I’d be fine if you got drunk when you’re having fun.”

“Hai.”

“Just promise me you won’t get drunk like this anymore.”

“I’m just so bored without you. So lonely. Most of the people I know are out on missions. I really did cut contact with most of my friends out of depression when I lost my leg. I’m not one of them anymore. It’s still so embarrassing to be a civilian. I don’t know what to do. I’m still so scared, Sasuke. What am I supposed to do for the rest of my life? I always assumed I’d die on a mission. Retirement was never a thought I entertained. I’m not fit to do anything else.”

They were still close and Kakashi was looking down as he spoke; it was the most vulnerable Kakashi had ever been in front of him before. Sasuke knew it all hurt Kakashi, but he didn’t know just how deeply; he hid it all so well behind that mask of apathy. Sasuke pulled Kakashi’s head to his chest.

“I can’t tell you want to do, you have to decide that. Unless you want me to.”

“I know.”

“But I’ll support you no matter what. I don’t mind it if you don’t bring in any income. I just want you to be happy. Do whatever you want. As long as you never fuck anyone else.”

Kakashi huffed.

“Go back to sleep. I think you still have alcohol in your system. I’ll be here when you wake up.”

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When Kakashi woke again, he was very hungry, having thrown up everything earlier in the morning. Sasuke suggested they go out together and have a good, big meal at Kakashi’s favorite lunch spot. Kakashi readily agreed, completely sober and hangover free because of Sasuke’s ministrations.

They were forced to sit at the window bar which faced out onto the street. Kakashi’s ability to hide his face while eating was pure habit so it didn’t bother him. They enjoyed their lunch, even laughing openly about Sasuke’s temporary genin and Kakashi’s stories of notable drunks in Konoha and how he wasn’t so bad. They were oblivious to their surroundings as they just enjoyed each other’s company.

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Sakura was blissfully walking through the village when the building at the end of the T-shaped street she was walking on caught her eye. It was Sasuke laughing. She’d seen maniacal laughter, but she’d never seen him just laugh. She thought she was over him. He’d ignored her, left her, tried to kill her, scorned her, but still, it hurt to see him happy and she had nothing to do with it.

Sakura’s eyes shifted to the person Sasuke was looking at while smiling and laughing. Her heart sank. Kakashi. Even Kakashi looked happy behind his mask. They didn’t touch, didn’t kiss, but the way Sasuke looked at Kakashi made it clear what the nature of their relationship was. He looked up at Kakashi when he was perfectly capable of looking at him straight on and his eyes were wider. It was the kind of googly-eyed look girls used to give Sasuke way back when. He also tilted his head to the side which was another sign Sakura had been taught as part of her kunoichi training. Sakura was jealous.

“Disgusting, isn’t it?”

Sakura turned her head to see Gai looking at the couple as well.

“It’s not just that they’re both male,” Gai said, “that’s not very unusual among shinobi but not something anyone would advertise—but that they were teacher and student.”

Sakura nodded.

“They know it too, keeping it secret,” he continued. “I caught them at it once, just kissing and touching, but I couldn’t believe they would engage in such behavior. A thirteen year age difference.”

“Sasuke’s attitude toward me makes sense now,” Sakura said. “He thought I was annoying because he really had no interest in me whatsoever. Not me, not Ino, not any of the other girls. But how long has he been attracted to Kakashi? They’ve been hostile to each other. Sasuke tried to kill him once.”

“I overheard them and Sasuke said it was for a long time.”

Jealousy blossomed in Sakura. She never had a chance with Sasuke because of Kakashi. They made a fool of her, made her waste so much time pinning for a . . . a . . . a fag! She was angry. She felt betrayed.

“They’ve been trying to hide it,” Gai continued. “Ashamed probably. They know people won’t approve. It’d turn them into pariahs. Maybe a little shame is what they need.”

“I think so too,” Sakura said. She continued on her way.

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Sasuke had the next day off too. His captain was a family man and he was allowed more time with his family than bachelors normally got between missions, but they routinely were sent out on higher rank missions, A and S, nothing lower. They were all due a few days off between missions.

Kakashi suggested going out again for lunch, but after they finished a light meal, Kakashi pulled Sasuke into an alley when no one was looking and behind a dumpster there. He pressed Sasuke against the wall and pressed his covered lips to Sasuke’s and his hips against his, rubbing their cocks together through their clothes.

Sasuke got into it, having kissed Kakashi through his mask before, using his teeth to tease Kakashi’s lips. He was worried about being found out, but he could always push Kakashi away and wave it off as his perverted ex-sensei/housemate teasing him. Hiding behind that logic, Sasuke pressed back and used his teeth and lips on Kakashi’s mask, slowly painting it darker blue with his saliva.

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Sakura had time to cool off; a night of sleep wiped the slate clean for her. Gai was probably drawing the wrong conclusion just like her. Sasuke wasn’t gay and he certainly wasn’t in a relationship with their thirty year old former sensei.

She was thinking about visiting Kakashi when Sasuke left again to appease her own mind for thinking ill of him. Happy about this, she set out to shop.

She recognized the white brush of hair of her former sensei ahead of her and hurried to catch up; if he was alone, then maybe she could chat with him and more easily avoid Sasuke. But then she saw the shorter teen was with him. And she witnessed Kakashi pulling Sasuke into an alleyway. Curious, Sakura followed slowly as to not be heard and not be noticed by others on the street. She crept up to the side of the dumpster hiding much of the alley.

At first, all she heard was breathing. Then . . .

“You need a deep black mask; now it looks like you’ve been drooling,” Sasuke said with a breathy voice.

“Haven’t I been?” Kakashi responded, equally out of breath.

“Take the mask off so I can kiss you properly rather than licking fabric.”

“I like how it feels through the mask. It’s how you seduced me, remember?”

“How can I not? Throwing myself all over you like a slut until you gave in.” Sasuke moaned. “Can’t this wait until we’re home and we can do it properly?”

Sakura paled. Hearing Sasuke talk like that and fully confirm what she and Gai suspected was mortifying.

“Isn’t it a little thrilling to be doing this where we might be caught?” Kakashi asked.

“No, just irritating. You may like being kissed through fabric, but it’s doing nothing for my cock. I’d rather be sprawled on a bed right now with your hand or cock on mine or some part of you inside my ass.”

Sakura had to put her hand over her mouth to keep herself from gasping out loud. She peeked around the corner and saw Kakashi was rubbing his hips forward into Sasuke’s, rubbing their cocks together through their pants. She pressed herself back before Sasuke could reopen his eyes and see her.

The look on his face at that moment was something Sakura would not soon forget. He had his head back, his eyes closed, his lips parted, looking like he was in bliss. Kakashi was rubbing his masked lips against Sasuke’s lips, chin, and cheek.

It was true. They were lovers. She stayed there against the wall on the other side of the dumpster, listening to them moan and their clothes rustle. Sasuke’s lips smacked as he kissed uncovered parts of Kakashi’s face.

“Please,” Sasuke sighed, “let’s go home. I’ll be leaving for over a week. Fuck me twice more before I leave in the morning.”

“You should get some sleep tonight. I’ll fuck you once when we get home, but I’ll fuck you so good, you won’t be able to cum again until you come home to me.”

Sakura decided she better get out of there.

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He was the famous—nay, infamous—Copy-nin, but people never averted their eyes and whispered behind his back before. Well, not since he first left ANBU and started reading porn in public, but that had long since past—the whispers, that is. If he hadn’t been so happy with the way Sasuke’s last little vacation went, he might have been self-conscious enough to think it was because of his leg.

Wanting to find out exactly what rumor was running around about him, he went to one of the centers of village gossip: Ichiraku Ramen.

Teuchi had probably heard every rumor ever to circulate Konoha since he opened his stand when Kakashi was a kid. There was however an unspoken rule that shinobi didn’t take advantage of Teuchi’s knowledge unless there was no other option to avoid putting him in compromising position and it might mean that a last resort resource might not be spoken in front of so freely. But Kakashi was no longer a shinobi.

The man didn’t act a bit differently when Kakashi sat down.

“The usual, Kakashi-san?”

“Ah.” He waited until he was served and the other patron left. “Teuchi-san, you hear all rumors; can you tell me why people are whispering behind my back?”

The man blushed just a little. “Well, there is a rumor.”

Kakashi raised his eyebrows to prompt the man to continue.

“The rumor is that you and Sasuke-san are . . . together.”

Well, cat’s out of the bag, Kakashi thought a little sourly. “That can’t be all.”

“Well, that’s the main rumor. There’s also been speculation about when your relationship started.”

“You mean that it might have started when he was underage?”

“Ahh, yes.”

Pride made him ask the next question. “Does the rumor include who’s the Seme?”

That made Teuchi blush more. “Ahh, yes. It’s about sixty/forty you.”

“Only sixty/forty? I’m insulted. I know you don’t engage in rumors, Teuchi-san, but would you mind clarifying on our behalf?”

“Of course.” Kakashi could see he just wanted the juicy information.

“We are lovers. It didn’t start until after I retired. I won’t say who the Seme is though—Sasuke would kill me. Is there anything else that needs addressing?”

“Not really.”

“Good. Now, I’d like to know where this rumor started. We thought we were careful not to make it obvious. Who was the first person you heard with this juicy rumor?”

That was going beyond the unspoken law. One never asked who was overheard, unless the security of the village or country was at stake.

“I’m no longer a shinobi,” Kakashi reminded him. “I’m not seeking revenge, I just want to know how our secret got out.”

Teuchi considered and Kakashi let him, eating more of his ramen.

“The first time I heard it,” Teuchi said, “was Sakura telling Ino.”

“Sakura?” Kakashi was shocked that the girl he saved would spread a rumor like that. He didn’t think she was the source, but he was disappointed that she would spread it. “I’ll ask her where she heard it. I won’t mention you, of course.”

“I appreciate that, Kakashi-san.”

Next stop: Sakura’s apartment.

She wasn’t home. There was a very good chance that she was off on a mission.

Now he had to figure out how to tell Sasuke that their relationship was no longer secret.

-----

Luckily, that task was taken from his shoulders. As a member of ANBU, Sasuke’s cat-masked friend knew when he would be returning and came to their home before Sasuke arrived.

“Kakashi-sempai,” the captain greeted.

“Sasuke isn’t here.”

“I know, he should be here shortly.”

“Come in. You heard the rumor?” Kakashi asked as he led the other man to the sofa.

“That’s why I’m here. I wasn’t sure if you heard it, but I thought I should let Sasuke know as soon as possible.”

“Well, I doubt that it was you. One of the others who were guarding Sasuke?”

“I highly doubt that. They know I’m friends with him and they know better than to gossip about any information gathered on an ANBU mission. Tsunade didn’t assign any rookies to Sasuke’s detail.”

“Of course; she’s no fool. Who could have known? Naruto knows, but he’s smart enough to know not to gossip about it.”

“Perhaps it just sprung from the fact you’re still living together even though you now have a functional leg.”

“Perhaps. We also could have been seen. Oh, shit. Sasuke’s going to kill me. I . . . persuaded him to engage in some . . . risky behavior in an alleyway. Someone might have seen us. Heard us. Shit.”

“Sasuke’s vindictive, but he loves you more than anything.”

“That doesn’t mean he won’t take some kind of revenge.”

“Look at it this way: you might enjoy it.”

Kakashi’s eyes were annoyed. “Has Sakura returned from her mission?”

“Her team is expected to return tomorrow afternoon.”

“Teuchi-san said she was the first he heard talk about this rumor.”

“You asked Teuchi-san?” the young captain was shocked.

“Not a shinobi.” He pointed to his eye patch which replaced his headband more and more these days.

“I still don’t approve.”

“What don’t you approve of?” Sasuke asked from behind the captain.

“Sasuke! Shit. Only you could sneak up on a member of ANBU.”

Sasuke smirked with so much mischievousness that Kakashi’s cock stiffened.

“I don’t approve of your boyfriend’s methods of getting information.”

“He didn’t fuck anyone for it, did he?”

“No, but still. He asked Teuchi-san.”

“That is a little taboo,” Sasuke agreed. He may not have been an active shinobi for long, but he knew that little rule, it was in force when he was a genin.

“Not a shinobi,” Kakashi defended again.

“Are you going to share this information?” Sasuke asked.

It was the captain who spoke first. “Your relationship is no longer secret; it’s now the gossip of the village. And it’s leaning toward the vicious side.”

“How?”

“None of my men.”

“Naruto’s not that stupid,” Kakashi said.

“Someone who saw or heard us?” Sasuke asked Kakashi menacingly.

“I really don’t know. I asked Teuchi-san, but he doesn’t know who started the rumor.” He was going to tell him about Sakura and Ino, but thought better of it. Sasuke seemed to be past planning Sakura’s grisly death all the time; no reason to poison him against her further. The captain seemed to agree and didn’t mention it either.

“Well, it was bound to happen. I would rather have been able to spin the information our way, but whatever.”

“I just came to tell you,” the captain said. “I didn’t know if Kakashi-san was aware of the rumor yet either.”

“I found out today,” Kakashi said.

“Stay,” Sasuke said, “have dinner with us.”

The captain looked at Kakashi who gave a little shrug to say he didn’t mind. “I will, thank you.”

Sasuke was very amused the rest of the evening with Kakashi and the captain both eating without taking off their masks.

Kakashi had gotten over his slight jealousy and accepted the captain as one of Sasuke’s friends. Or maybe just ‘his friend’, especially since even Naruto was a rare sight these days.

“So what’s the deal with ANBU?” Sasuke asked. “There are quite a few shinobi we all know are in ANBU, but then again, many of you avoid ever showing your face until you retire.”

“I can’t show you because you’d know which mask I wear,” the captain said. “But I am thinking of retiring.”

Kakashi gave a knowing nod. “I burned out, but I was acclimated to violence and death, so it took time. Normal people can’t last more than three years.”

“Two.”

Kakashi nodded. “It’s one reason I don’t recommend ANBU for you, Sasuke,” Kakashi said. “You’d be phenomenal at it, but I fear you’ll burn out very fast or get far too into it, lost in it.”

“That does happen,” the captain said.

“Many missing-nins are former ANBU who couldn’t stop killing,” Kakashi said. “I love you, but you’d probably end up like Kisame or Hidan. With your history of vengeance, you’d be prone to losing yourself like that.”

“Probably,” Sasuke agreed. “I don’t want to join ANBU.”

“Good,” Kakashi and the captain said together.

“Once you retire, I can at least know your name?” Sasuke asked.

“Of course. I can even show my face.”

“I didn’t show it before I joined ANBU,” Kakashi said, “wouldn’t start when I left.”

“Some people are more social than you,” Sasuke said.

“Pot . . .”

“Shut it. I have little choice about my social life since half the people in this village still think I’m a traitor. And now I’m sure the fact I’m gay and living with my former sensei will further curtail any social life I hope to have.” He growled. “Your little . . . amusement before I left. If it was that I’m going to . . . I’ll think of something.”

-----

Being painted as perverted sodomites, they decided that they should commit the sin they were accused of.

First, Sasuke rested after dinner, having just arrived home. The captain left to report in for a night mission. Kakashi read while Sasuke digested. But once Sasuke thought he could take Kakashi’s entire cock down his throat without vomiting, he crawled up onto Kakashi’s lap.

Kakashi continued to read. Sasuke opened his shirt completely to expose his white chest and pert nipples, then pulled down the book. Sasuke was lacking cushy mounds, but Kakashi was growing very fond of the chiseled chest.

“My mouth is salivating for your cock,” Sasuke said. “I’ve not tasted it in days. I’ve just eaten, but I’m starving for your cum. I’m parched.”

“What a cruel man would I be if I denied you? Can’t have you dying of thirst. You’ll have to seek out the spigot though.”

Sasuke smirked and took the book and placed it on the side table. He pulled at Kakashi’s pants as he moved backward off his thighs. Kakashi slid forward a little too. Sasuke completely stripped Kakashi’s pants and boxers. Sasuke bypassed Kakashi’s cock, going instead for his balls. Licking at them and nipping them with his lips. What did Kakashi ever do to deserve this heaven?

Sasuke switched to the other side. He then diverted his attention to Kakashi’s cock. He started by dragging the underside of his tongue along the side of Kakashi’s now completely hard cock. A wonderfully smooth surface sliding down his cock was like being stroked with silk. Sasuke wrapped his hand around the base to hold it in position as he played his tongue over the head. Rough and smooth sides of his tongue alternated going over the head and the flare.

He settled into a rhythm, moving his head backward and forward in a circular motion, his lips slipping over the flare of his cock over and over. His tongue wasn’t idle, giving little flicks at the tip.

“You’re going to make me wonder where you’re learning these things if you come home and do shit like this,” Kakashi said.

“I like you jealous,” Sasuke said close to the head of his cock, making sure his breath puffed against it. “I want you to believe I’m giving head to every guy on my team and every other guy I come into contact with, picking up pointers, and boning them all too so you get angry enough to fuck me so hard I won’t be able to walk for a week.”

“If I fuck you that hard, will you not have to go on missions for a week?”

“Tsunade will probably make me go anyway.” Sasuke shoved Kakashi’s cock in his mouth, that shut them both up.

Sasuke bobbed on his cock, moving down little by little with each bob, easing his throat open with every small thrust.

Kakashi had been watching, but at this point, he leaned his head back and relaxed, just enjoying that mouth pleasuring his cock.

Sasuke pulled away and gave the underside one long lick. “Enough foreplay, I want your cock in my ass now.”

“Get rid of that belt and come here.”

Sasuke untied his thin black rope belt and straddled Kakashi’s thighs again. Kakashi pulled Sasuke’s head down to kiss him. As they kissed, Kakashi slipped a hand under Sasuke’s loosened shirt to rub his back. He found some of the small scars from when Haku turned him into a half-dead pin cushion. He rubbed them and the smooth skin around them. Then his hand migrated down under his loosened pants to the beginning of the cleft of his ass. His fingers lightly followed it down a few inches, then back up over the perfect swell of his left cheek.

Kakashi used both hands to push Sasuke’s shirt off his shoulders, Sasuke helped to shrug it away. Kakashi explored Sasuke’s skin as they continued to kiss. Sasuke was not able to do the same since Kakashi was still fully clothed above the waist and not so easily removed.

Kakashi knew Sasuke had freshened up, so he didn’t hesitate to return his right hand to Sasuke ass and tease his hole. He reached further down to press his perineum. Sasuke moaned.

“Please, take me,” Sasuke begged against Kakashi’s lips.

“Alright.”

Sasuke stood and helped Kakashi up. Sasuke let the rest of his clothes slid off and led the way to the bedroom. He lay on his back invitingly. Kakashi followed, taking off his shirt. Sasuke grabbed the lube from the bedside table, lubed his fingers and reached down between his legs and fingered his own entrance. He tweaked a nipple with his other hand.

“You seem to be enjoying yourself alone,” Kakashi said.

Sasuke turned annoyed eyes on him. “Fuck me now or I will bone the next interested guy I come across. Which, now that our secret’s out, won’t be long coming. I had every girl in Konoha running after me four years ago, now I’ll have every gay guy trying to fuck me. Or get fucked by me. I’m probably Konoha’s most famous fag by now. Don’t fuck me now, I’ll just go whore myself out right now. I need cock and I need it now.”

“You say the sweetest things. I can’t have you running off.”

Kakashi smirked mischievously and tied chakra threads to Sasuke’s wrists. Sasuke was confused when he felt the chakra. He activated his Sharingan and saw Kakashi’s deep blue chakra there. His wrists were yanked toward the bedposts and the chakra thread attached.

“Fuck,” Sasuke sighed. “I should have known that knowledge would backfire on me.”

“Can you really not get out of it?”

Sasuke pulled and tried to use his chakra to cut the thread like a Hyuuga, but it didn’t work. He tried pulling really hard. “No.”

“I love this. I’m sending a thank you card to Kankuro.”

“Fuck.”

“How tight are they?”

“Not too tight.”

Another thread wrapped around Sasuke’s cock.

“Fu-uuu-uck.”

Kakashi smirked. “I’m calmed down enough for round two.”

Sasuke deactivated his Sharingan. “I forgot. How can you drag things on so long?”

“Age and experience, my young apprentice.”

“Aren’t I the one supposed to be punishing you? For that alley thing that probably got us caught?”

“We haven’t established that I was at fault. You need to learn patience.”

Sasuke pouted and petulantly thrust his hips up a few times. “I need to cum,” he whined.

“Not ‘til I’ve had my way with you. Don’t make it ‘twice’. You need to learn more about foreplay.”

“I gave you a blowjob.”

“And a very, very good one, but you always give me foreplay and rarely let me pleasure you.”

“You’re the important one. I just want to keep you happy. I owe you everything and you deserve everything.”

Kakashi released Sasuke’s cock and used another thread to turn out the lights in the living room, leaving them in darkness. He knelt on the bed and detached his false leg. In the dark, Sasuke couldn’t see the sad look on Kakashi’s face. Sasuke still felt guilty, still felt unworthy. Just as Kakashi did. What a wonderful pair they made.

“Just relax and enjoy,” Kakashi said.

Kakashi slid his hand down his ribs and his taut abs. That delightful v-line over his hip was next. He was glad Sasuke didn’t shave off that small pelt above his cock. He brushed it with his fingertips. He then stroked his inner thigh then up the front of his thigh. He descended to suck on a nipple.

Sasuke was not pleased. He writhed. He really wanted to be fucked. He’d really turned into a slut after that first time. He really loved being penetrated and the assault on his sensitive prostate, the warmth within him, the throbbing organ that confused his heartbeat, and the bliss of release. And he really was a fucking masochist. He never would have thought that before that first night. The sting, the stretching, the violent thrusts. And he liked to be talked down to a little too. The masochist thing was good with Kakashi since he still held resentments.

Right now that might be working against him. Kakashi was sadistically denying him.

Kakashi saw it the opposite way. Sasuke was young and impatient. He wanted pleasure and he wanted it now. He didn’t know how to take his time. He did when it came to his excellent blowjobs, but he didn’t want it slow, he wanted his own pleasure hard and fast.

He moved back, opened his mouth, and took Sasuke’s cock into his mouth. He didn’t tease it like Sasuke, didn’t do anything fancy with his tongue, he just used his lips and sucked. After a while, with every upstroke, Kakashi used his tongue.

“Just fuck me,” Sasuke sighed.

“You’ve got to be the only man in the world who’d rather be fucked to orgasm than sucked to one. I take that as an insult.”

“Complement.”

Kakashi went back to sucking him off. Sasuke pulled at the chakra threads and bucked his hips. He came with a long groan and Kakashi swallowed every drop.

Sasuke growled. Kakashi released the chakra threads and Sasuke slumped into the mattress.

“I hate Kankuro,” Sasuke breathed.

“I like him very much.”

“I’m feeling empty.”

“I haven’t cum yet.”

“I should say no and made you rape me, but resisting would take more energy than I care to expend.”

“Just lay there and enjoy it.”

“Hai.”

“Lazy, masochist, uke.”

“Hn.”

Kakashi decided to do a little work on Sasuke before he entered the uke. He lubed up his hand and gently pulled at Sasuke’s deflated cock. Sasuke hummed. He knew from sleeping with Sasuke for several weeks that his prostate was pretty sensitive just after cuming, more than his cock. That was something that was outside Kakashi personal experience.

Kakashi slicked his own erection with his lubed hand and pushed Sasuke’s thighs up so he could ease into him. Having cum and being used to this, Sasuke was relaxed and easily penetrated, but he still hugged his cock wonderfully, tighter than any woman in his experience. And he said so.

“Never had anal before me?”

“No, never did. Your tight, dirty, little hole is the only one I ever want to fuck.” Kakashi started moving. “A handjob with silk couldn’t feel better than your insides. Such a perfect fuckhole.”

“Fuck, yeah.” Sasuke grunted with almost every thrust. He started gently scratching a nipple. “Fuck me harder.”

Kakashi slowed down, making Sasuke whine, but then he started thrusting in hard and fast, dragging himself out nice and slow.

“Damn your patience.”

Kakashi would have thought the Uchiha, masters of control, would be a little more patient in bed. “I’ll make you cum again, but I’m going to play with you more afterward.”

“Fine.”

Kakashi grabbed Sasuke’s waist and fucked him hard.

“Fuck, yeah! Hmmmm, right there. Fuck. Harder. Come on, cum inside me.”

“That wasn’t our deal.”

“Fuuuck.”

Sasuke had just recovered from an orgasm, so it took quite some time to make him cum again, but he did, clinching around Kakashi, tempting him to cum as well.

Sasuke lay there for a second, catching his breath. Kakashi licked up Sasuke’s cum from his stomach then sat back.

“Sit up,” Kakashi said.

Sasuke levered himself up. Kakashi guided him to straddle his thighs. Sasuke all but collapsed into him.

“You need more stamina too.”

“I just got back from a mission and two orgasms,” Sasuke mumbled over Kakashi’s shoulder.

Kakashi put another dollop of lube on his fingers and started rubbing Sasuke’s anal ring. Sasuke put an arm over Kakashi’s shoulder, the other around his back. Kakashi held him with one arm and fingered him. It felt good rather than arousing to Sasuke; he also loved cuddling up to Kakashi like this and letting him play with his body. He could feel Kakashi’s hard cock against his lower stomach.

Sasuke firmly attached to him, Kakashi used his other hand to stroke and caress his back. Sasuke moaned contentedly.

“I kind of wish I had cum in you,” Kakashi said. “I’d be teasing it out of you right now.”

“Told you to.”

Kakashi pressed his fingers in deeper. “I will by the end of the night. Maybe more than once. Depends on how much your ass can suck out of me.”

“How about my mouth? I’ll give you as long an exquisite blowjob as you did a fuck.”

“You did that already.”

Sasuke didn’t respond. Kakashi’s languid fingers finally touched Sasuke’s prostate. Sasuke shifted and moaned.

“Want me to touch it?” Kakashi asked.

“Not yet.”

Kakashi pulled out slightly to prevent him from touching that bundle of nerves again, but his fingers continued to play with Sasuke’s slick insides for another minute. Then Kakashi put his hands on Sasuke’s waist and pushed him back a little.

Kakashi couldn’t see in the near pitch black of the room, so he sought Sasuke’s lips with his own, grazing Sasuke’s cheek to his lips. They shared a wet, languid kiss. Sasuke let Kakashi dominate, as Kakashi licked at Sasuke’s lower lip and sucked at it. Kakashi pressed his clean hand to Sasuke’s head as he deepened the kiss, thrusting his tongue into Sasuke’s mouth. Kakashi moaned as Sasuke licked and sucked at his tongue.

“I’m ready to fuck you now and cum inside you until you’re leaking my cum,” Kakashi whispered against Sasuke’s lips. He hummed. They could see the ambient light reflecting in their eyes and they stared at the the small gleams of light. “Remind me to fuck you right before your next mission; I love the idea of you running out there and fighting with my cum inside you and leaking from you. Make sure you wear that wrap so no one sees the wet spot my cum makes as it seeps out.”

“Since everyone now knows about us, go ahead and mark my neck. I’ve wanted people to see the proof of your ownership over me. Mark me and let them see your cum.”

“Should I cum on your face before you leave the house again?”

“If it would please you.”

“Naw; that’s a sight I want to save for myself. Get on your hands and knees and I’ll fuck you and mark you.”

Sasuke obeyed. Kakashi kept his fingertips on him to keep his bearings in regards to Sasuke’s body.

Rather than just going in for a fuck, Kakashi grabbed Sasuke’s hips and kissed the beginning of the cleft of Sasuke’s ass and licked at it and his lower back. Sasuke hadn’t showered since he came home, just freshened up. Kakashi tasted salt and a bit of earthiness from stray dirt that made it under his shirt. He also grazed his teeth over his skin, his hot breath against the saliva cooled skin. He moved up to lick up more of the salt from his back, his hands traveling up his side as he did. Kakashi detoured to his shoulder blade to kiss and lick at it before arriving at his neck and shoulder.

Kakashi pressed his hand against Sasuke’s stomach, licked at his shoulder, and guided his cock to Sasuke’s entrance.

Kakashi spoke against Sasuke’s neck, making Sasuke’s skin crawl. “Even well fucked and fingered, you’re still deliciously tight. So lubed, you feel like a woman who’s dripping wet with desire.”

Sasuke just hummed. He was already well fucked and came twice so he wasn’t as needy as before, but he loved the feeling. He was sexually spent and wasn’t erect, but he rocked back and tightened up occasionally to pleasure his lover.

Kakashi had been holding back all evening. He moved his clean and soiled hands over Sasuke’s chest and stomach. He rolled his hips, fucked him, and just held himself still inside him and let Sasuke pleasure him with his muscles. As he got closer, he kissed and licked at Sasuke’s neck and shoulder. He groaned right next to Sasuke’s ear. When he came, he bit down hard on the junction between Sasuke’s neck and shoulder. He didn’t let go until he shot all his cum in Sasuke’s body. Holding it back made it a massive orgasm that sapped his strength.

Spent, Kakashi didn’t move, just lay over Sasuke’s body, his deflated cock still inside him and he licked at the bite mark he’s just given Sasuke. He gave it a last kiss before he sat back.

“We should clean up,” Kakashi said in a tired voice.

Sasuke gave a negative hum after he slumped onto the bed. “I’ll just change the sheets in the morning,” he muttered into the pillow.

Kakashi gave him a kiss on the shoulder and got up to take a piss and wash his hands if nothing else. He came back and half laid on Sasuke’s body as Sasuke fell asleep on his stomach.

Any trouble they would encounter now that everyone knew about their relationship was far from Kakashi’s mind as he drifted off to sleep.

TBC